Wednesday, March 21, 2007


Energy....do you remember
Current mood: grateful
Category: Religion and Philosophy

when that energy lay basically dormant within you?...with no clue as to its power.....or how to raise or heighten it.....and then the change or awakening.....and feeling the universal life force flowing.....and awed by its feeling....and once feeling it, learning how to have it revisit.....this is how the awakening starts for many....including me....I have been on this path for several years, with a purpose of finding love, truth, connestions, and happiness.....merging more with the Light, and gradually shedding my darkness....my how the years fly.....life was so much easier to stubble from day to day.....raising energy just takes a thought now.....I remember when I would light candles...rub my hands together....say prayers.....you name it....lol...as this was going on, I was doing deep meditations several times a week...I learned ..oh so much....to project my etheric body into astral land.....remembering the first astral trip....and when I looked at my hands, I got scared and came back....lol....then going back there and having a grand time....after a short time I grew bored, and started mentally projecting....that is still my favorite....expecially sharing the experience with a like minded soul.....what I would give to have sex in this place...lol..(I know...leave it to a man...lol).....remembering at how deep inside I had to go for simple messages.....as time passed, I didn't need to go deep, to get those messages....and after awhile, they would just pop in, whenever...lol(lions and tigers and bears oh my...lol)remember learning to use that energy for different reasons.....at first it was to connect with my departed wife......and then for healing....as time passes, and the energy gets stronger, and the messages clearer, I have to remember my roots in this life.....and how long it took to get here.....like most, i go thru cycles of being at one with energy....and then the off cycles where I don't want it....lol.....cause I know it brings growth thru pain....and truthfully..I do not like pain....and I remember that the more I fight growth, the more pain I go thru.....I still haven't learned to really let go.....I wonder if I will ever remember how to do this.....