The last months before i left for tx i made some really bad choices and alienated myself from some really close friends. I got lost and am still lost. I have been playing the part of the recluse only leaving my grandmas house to search for a job. I have not met anyone and feel so alone down here a thousand miles away from all that I know and love. I think that time will grant me another chance. I think that leaving was the right thing to do. I hope that it will bring an equilbrium to my life so i can stop the balancing act. (thanks eddie) I really miss mlps. But for now its tx till I am able to care for myself. Somehow I will figure this out, and even tho i may not deserve it, thankyou to my friends for you patience. Peace and Love