Transforming, Transcending, Surrendering, and self discovery, these are my goals and challenges this year,
I see a new life for my children, with the dissolve of my relationship to my partner in parenthood after seven years, Srimati Radharani is opening doors to inner purpose and intentional existence, I see the many many blessings God has given my family, and myself, and i am so greatful for this is a great learning opportunity,

I pray and hope that one day we can live amongst devotees and play with forests and jungles and gardens, dancing in the yogic light, rythimcally dancing drums, chanting and singing in devotion, honoring this merciful way of life, The children are so darling and naturally inclined to devotional life, it hurts to not be providing them a platform in which they can build on that.. in comunity...

I am burning the fire of illusion, surrendering to the temporaryness of this material existence,

i often wonder if i should take the girls to some other land...hawaii has a nice comunity in hilo with many sweet devotees there, the folks i have met on the way are calling me there, India is calling my soul to pilgrimage, or is Costa Rica calling....we were invited by my young midwife godsister and yoga teacher to live with her. You see, it would seem silly not to go to those places, but it seems we are materially vancouver bound for the time being... ugh is that for real? I ask god repeatedly, where do you want this new family of now three to be? I don't think it is ontario where there dad is, ontario is a very unfavorable place i feel deep in my soul....
Radharani silently answers, be here now... walk in the light, and trust, know that you are where you are meant to be, breathe, and surrender to life's plan... release expectations...

The biggest healing taking place has been with my breathe, oh how awesome our breathe can be... I breathe for peace, i release the anger, the rage to the life force of light and love, we can choose to love or fear, and i choose love,
I pray that we may we walk this journey into self discovery with gratitude and offerings of love and devotion...no matter where our life lives
i am blessed and my children are the most sacred and merciful gift, i want to honor their needs and aspirations...