Breaking free from illusion

Transforming, Transcending, Surrendering, and self discovery, these are my goals and challenges this year,
I see a new life for my children, with the dissolve of my relationship to my partner in parenthood after seven years, Srimati Radharani is opening doors to inner purpose and intentional existence, I see the many many blessings God has given my family, and myself, and i am so greatful for this is a great learning opportunity,

I pray and hope that one day we can live amongst devotees and play with forests and jungles and gardens, dancing in the yogic light, rythimcally dancing drums, chanting and singing in devotion, honoring this merciful way of life, The children are so darling and naturally inclined to devotional life, it hurts to not be providing them a platform in which they can build on that.. in comunity...

I am burning the fire of illusion, surrendering to the temporaryness of this material existence,

i often wonder if i should take the girls to some other land...hawaii has a nice comunity in hilo with many sweet devotees there, the folks i have met on the way are calling me there, India is calling my soul to pilgrimage, or is Costa Rica calling....we were invited by my young midwife godsister and yoga teacher to live with her. You see, it would seem silly not to go to those places, but it seems we are materially vancouver bound for the time being... ugh is that for real? I ask god repeatedly, where do you want this new family of now three to be? I don't think it is ontario where there dad is, ontario is a very unfavorable place i feel deep in my soul....
Radharani silently answers, be here now... walk in the light, and trust, know that you are where you are meant to be, breathe, and surrender to life's plan... release expectations...

The biggest healing taking place has been with my breathe, oh how awesome our breathe can be... I breathe for peace, i release the anger, the rage to the life force of light and love, we can choose to love or fear, and i choose love,
I pray that we may we walk this journey into self discovery with gratitude and offerings of love and devotion...no matter where our life lives
i am blessed and my children are the most sacred and merciful gift, i want to honor their needs and aspirations...

a buy nothing christmas

i wish to give forth love and devotion this holiday season, when 3,000 kids die every day from malaria, it makes me want to donate to charity the little money i have to spare in honor of life, and freedom from illusion, I want to teach my children that there is more to life than recieving, it is giving that truely means something in this world, giving from the heart chakra....
i encourage everyone to think about an honorable and meaningful way to give this time of year,
much love and respect in all directions.

lookin for an electric bike

hey there beautiful people,
i'm looking for a nice electric bike, used is fine, new is better, i am wonderin if ya'll have any tips, info or recomendations of make model, etc, i'm talking about the kind of bike that is a bike and has a battery, not a big clunky scooter, i need to attach my kids tandem bike or bike trailor to the bike... anyone have any thoughts or ideas? i'd greatly appreciate it. The whole puropse is to comute my kids to school about 5km, i am easy going about the look, weight and model is most important i think...
just puttin it out there
thanks for readin

home sweet home

Yay! i'm so excited i could kiss anyone who walked in the room, well almost anyone.
We just found out that our house hunt is OVER! We have found a nice two bedroom ground floor suite located fifteen minutes walk form
gonzales bay, in fairfield victoria... and the place has a park with tall grandmother arbutus trees RIGHT next door! not to mention there is running hot water in the bath tub! Did i mention the fact that we didn't have running hot water for the past few months at the farm...?
i am so stoked, it will be a bit of a bike ride to get the kids to meditation school, but what's a little rain and biking? when you live close to nature and oceans, and parks it really seems irrelivent. The best part is that it's like living in the nature but it is in a city, far enough away from city life to not feel the city at your door step... and the yard, oh the yard, laylucks, garden, fenced yard, trees, the kids love it.

The catch? well, some of the ceilings are low... and measure at 6 feet for small parts in the hall way, and my beloved ramanath is well, 6 feet, so he will have to be careful to not bunk his noggin, it's a trade off for the location, gorgeous kitchen, bathroom and sunlight that shines throughout the rooms... not bad for a ground floor suite...
Did i also mention that i really don't like house hunting and i'm so glad it's over?
The land lord is from ethiopia and is so super sweet with my girls, she loved how they could describe every thing growing in the garden because they grew up on a farm and love to recognize different native plants...
The best thing is that now we can move on with our life, and get the kids settled, and stop moving for a while! for the past few years we have moved almost every 6 months... sometimes every 5 months... kinda rediculously nomadic, but hey, what are we on this planet for anyways? to accumulate things and be attached? no no no, to give it up and be with our loved ones, and share this sacred time in devotion...
so today marks a new day, a new journey, a bold move, a step in another direction of surrender, and i hope that with the kids in meditaiton school, I can focus on this yoga teacher training course i want to take, and making raw food! Oh and the place has electricity, can you believe it electricitity!!! we didn't have electricity at our farm, our solar pannel was okay but not quite enough juice to do a blender...:(

It is all temporary this life, i give thanks to what we have been given and to the hard work and dedication it takes to maintain it...
happy day!

rainbows

we're off to great places, we're off and away, it's time to go back to the island,
pack up our things here, time to start living in the now and be greatful for all that we can see fell and hear...
with friends all around this transition will surely be graceful, with sanctuary in sisterhood i am feeling quite peaceful
time to start packing, time to get busy, the hills are alive with the sounds of mantra's that will cary my sould to soaring hieghts,
i hope this next phase of our life will bring a big bright light.

nomadic living is abundant

we are on the move again, just like the wild lamma and pack of wild horses that walked by our little home in the golden woods of bc today, it was hailing and thundering in the middle of july and the god's were defintely at work, the lamma could sense it...

so it's off to victoria for august and september we will plant some roots for a while there, anyone have a place to rent out? or to share? we are looking fore something in fernwood so we can be close to the girls school .. the meditation school ....

Looking forward to the yogathon this weekend and spearhead in vancouver next weekend...

All are welcome to support kids affected by hiv and aids to go to summer camp - all you have to do is check out campmoombayogathon.com or come on down on saturday from 1-7pm for a blissfest that will surely satisfy the soul.. you can click on teams and join our team if you so desire to praise the sun salutations and abundance of yogic living with us in team Radha Krishna! (we're at the bottom of the team list)

breathe deep and praise god for the undeniable welcoming abundance that surrounds us all with love and light,

home is where the heart is in love

we are back from our whirlwind and relishing in vancouver and her bounty, thyme to pause and reflect solstice now, the many gifts of summer are uppon us, may we grace this time with love, devotion, music, and laughter !
thank you mother earth for your splendid abundance.
thank you brothers and sisters for your kind embrace

california

another day of mega driving, and the redwoods took us where we needed to be, in garbersville, after driving through eureka at six pm hungry and tired, we got totally creeped out and had to just keep on driving, the mist was like a day in tofino, and then the skies parted around 8:30 and i know it's going to be hot and sunny tomorrow, the owner of this motel is from india and his brother is a hare krishna devotee from nigeria... go figure! it's on the lower end of the motel spectrum, but there's a pool, a health food store one foot next door, and a hemp hut across the street (it's not a total dive, but it's close... no running water in the sink..??-too tired to complain) we are so tired from driving, and now it's time for sleep...
tomorrow is amma and gurudev in the same day!

California here we come

well we drove and drove and drove and drove until we just couldn't drive anymore, and alas we made it to Eugene oregon, i have heard so much about this place, and met so many amazin folks from around here, and i must say it is amazing and i want to live here after only being here for 24 hours! the people are nice, the places and scenery are wonderful, and the comunity newspaper just says it all regarding what's happenin, mvin and a shakin, sad to leave because we didn't quite get to stay long enough, but the travelling gypsy car must keep on cruising, hoping to get close to san fransisco today, and then tomorrow we will drive to outside badger for the hare krishna love festival with our family and friends from all over, if i'm really fortunate and we have some mercy we'll make it to san ramon to visit amaji's ashram, but that will have to be on the way..... this train is bound for love and krishna!
Wishing now i had done this years ago in my hippy meca early twenties, but greatful that we were able to make it this far!
i really am blown away that america could be so cool, i'v allways had this 'oh america sucks' vibe, and it was only relative to my experience, seek and you shall find!
any more travel tips any of yu folks have are greatly appreciated,
------i can't believe how cheap organic food is around here! i'm really in shock that in canada we pay ten bucks for an organic pound of butter and it's only five here , i mean understandably about the travel costs proximity etc. etc, but come on they have a freaking health food store in the fred meyer (which is like walmart, but totally noto walmart) ---- Canada has some catching up to do, especially in the yogurt department, a five dollar one litre tub of yogurt is only 2.50 here, in fact for 4.50 you can buy almost tripple of that in the big nancy tub, it's almost reason enough to try to emigrate, we could actually feed our selves with money left over! okay that's a little extreme, but it's something to be greatful for here, i wonder how much yogurt we could bring back without it going rotten? ... hmmm... reason to come again!
time to hit the road and feed the soul now...
namaste

hopin and a prayin

two more sleeps till we hopefully drivve the 101 to california for the purebhakti.com yoga retreat/blissfest outside of badger cali, (i mean really hopefully because work is pulling my dear partner into time commitment work land) ...... we are in need of wireless spots along the way, won't be hard to find i'm sure, I haven't been past portland so this is a highly anticipated journey...it's not the tropical paradise of my dreams but i'm sure there is lots of organic goodness to relish in

any one out there recomend places to stay / visit eat along the oregon trail and in or around san fran,
eugene is on the trip already but any other local tribal spots to camp or explore would be greatly appreciated,
love light and vacation prayers.