Look, I don't want to say it out loud, but I *think* it may be possible that I could be starting to almost feel well again. Except for the pain in my side, of course, but that only hurts when I cough, and since I'm not coughing..... I've been off all medication since last Thursday and (so far) no relapse! Tomorrow I go back to see Dr. Jon; hopefully the doctor will concur.

If I let myself, I start feeling overwhelmed with joy. Not only am I maybe kind of somewhat better, the diss is going great, and I've slept well for 4 days straight. All the sources of negativity in my life appear to be going away. Is it a dream?

Maybe there's something to this loving-kindness business after all.