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Blame my favorite Bride to BE!!! Ms. Claudia

Khadijah — Wed, 28 May 2008 22:15:18 GMT

1. Where is your mobile phone? bra 2. Your significant other? warm 3. Your hair? natural 4. Your mother? childish 5. Your father? dependable 6. Your favorite thing? sex 7. Your dream last night? faded 8. Your favorite drink? water 9. Your dream/goal? satisfied 10. The room you're in? cage 11. Your ex? married 12. Your fear? lonliness 13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Jamaica 14. Where were you last night? home 15. What you're not? nice 16. Muffins? tops 17. One of your wish list items? st. andrews cross 18. Where you grew up? Sacramento 19. The last thing you did? typed 20. What are you wearing? black 21. Your TV? home 22. Your pets? non exsistent 23. Your computer? on 24. Your life? full 25. Your mood? cheerful 26. Missing someone? yeah 27. Your car? dirty 28. Something you're not wearing? colostomy bag 29. Favorite Store? Mr. S 30. Your summer? graduation 31. Like someone? always 32. Your favorite color? blue 33. When is the last time you laughed? morning 34. Last time you cried? weekend

Friendly Reminder

Khadijah — Fri, 16 May 2008 21:46:09 GMT

On my way home in the midst of feeling Fucking Forty and Fabulous, I remember that I also shared my birthday with someone I love very much, who died last year. He would've been 44. And my heart broke a little. ok a LOT! so, here goes.... I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH, SO GO GET YOUR ASSES CHECKED EVERY FUCKING YEAR!!! (yes, I need a bigger font) bend over, cough, take the finger like a goddamn soldier (or even enjoy it if you can) and get on with it!! Happy Birthday, Thom. I really miss you.

Today.

Khadijah — Thu, 15 May 2008 23:37:26 GMT

Today has been a really great day. 1) I woke up next to somebody I really like and Love 2) I took went to school and will receive my BA in August 3) I will go to KPFA to edit another interview 4) I will rehearse with my burlesque troupe that is doing really well and getting booked a lot 5) I will go home eat and go to sleep next to someone I really like and love (yeah, same person, bitches!!! LOL!!!!) 6) and today is a milestone birthday!! Im feeling pretty content, grateful and fierce today!!!

Ummmmm.....

Khadijah — Mon, 07 Apr 2008 04:41:44 GMT

Maybe we can get that gun, now??

A really awesome, balls to the wall ally Tim Wise coming to Oakland

Khadijah — Mon, 31 Mar 2008 04:43:12 GMT

Speak Out presents An Evening with Tim Wise "Tim Wise is one of the most brilliant, articulate and courageous critics of white privilege in the nation." ‹ Michael Eric Dyson, best-selling author and University of Pennsylvania professor Speak Out presents anti-racism activist and author Tim Wise in a rare Bay Area appearance - one night only! WHEN: Friday, April 4, 2008, 7:30 pm WHERE: First Unitarian Church of Oakland, 685-14th St. Oakland CA COST: $12-$20 sliding scale, $8 for youth ages 18 and under Available online at or call the Brown Paper Tickets 24/7 ticket hotline: 1-800-838-3006 MORE INFO: Contact Speak Out at 510-601-0182, info@speakoutnow.org

Jill you took the words out of my Mouf!!! Bahahahahahahaaaaaaa

Khadijah — Tue, 25 Sep 2007 01:00:45 GMT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qw3Z8Oa7E3Y And Im STILL livin' my life like it's GOLDEN!!

It's always the fucking little things that trip you up!!1

Khadijah — Sat, 23 Jun 2007 05:28:31 GMT

I cant find a picture on line. How do you talk about the first person that erased years of bad schooling from tired and bored teachers, and showed you that basically Shakespeare was simply a brilliant poet, and that the language was reachable to everybody. I have no fucking picture of the man that was the biggest diva, the loudest bitch, had the most annoying laugh ever!! You really completely loved him or wanted his head on a stake. There was no in between. Selfish, petty, condescending, silly, talented and I loved every bit of his epileptic asthmatic self. I still use the broccoli and cheese recipe, and last month it was so good, my boyfriend ate some between two slices of bread. We shared a birthday. May 15. My best friend as I was discovering myself. He was the reason i moved to San Francisco in the first place. There so much to say and I am full right now... My friend Thom Bach died this morning and I cant find one fucking picture for this blog.

HAPPY BIRFDAY TO MEEEEEEEE

Khadijah — Tue, 15 May 2007 17:53:28 GMT

OMG! Today is my birfday and Im realizing that Im actually happy. Sure there are somethings that I can change and fix, there always will be. But for today, all is grand! School is good, the little Mr. I have excellent friends, a good community and support system, is good, work is actually good right now, all my utilities are on, and I am debt free. Weeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! So today, I can honestly state, that i have all I need, and yet I want MORE!!! Mwaaahahahahahahahahahhaaaaaaaa!!!!

Let the bridges I burn LIGHT My Path!!!

Khadijah — Tue, 24 Apr 2007 20:38:21 GMT

I. Have. Had. Enough! I am strong. I am powerful. I am intelligent and if that's to much for you, then so be it. I am tired of people projecting their bullshit on me. I am tired of the assumptions,of the talking behind My back, the unwillingness to talk to ME and see where the fuck I am actually coming from, before coming to an often very wrong conclusion. I am tired of weak, trifling, nut-suckers that couldnt be bothered to create an opinion on their own. And I have decided, if you have very little integrity, then are dismissed. If you cant come talk to me like an adult, you are dismissed. If you cant truthfully represent yourself, you are dismissed. If you are too afraid to answer an email or phone call, to deal with an issue, then you cant hang around someone like Me. Dismissed! I've noticed that all of My friends have all been really strong ass people. (and I love y'all :D) And now Im finally getting it. Everybody aint able. There are people that curl up into a little sniveling ball in my presence. Not because of me, but because of whatever they have in their head. Im not responsible for that. And I will no longer take it on as something I need to fix. If you are a weak, cheese-eatin' mo'fo, that only knows how to throw your darts and run. Then run!! Far!! I will no longer chase you. You are not important to me. I am amazed at how many grown adults out there still shuckin' and jivin' and doin' a little soft shoe to keep their status. or at least be a token. But I owe the triflers an apology: I am sorry you lack confidence. I am sorry you are frightened by big strong loud women. I am sorry you have not coming your own yet, so that you can *git wit* anybody on any level. I am sorry you cant take the truth. not even Mine, which I KNOW you cant take, but your very own. I am sorry you didnt take the time to get to know me, who I am or what I think. you missed out. I am sorry for you. generally. as a human being on the planet. it's pitiful and I pity you.. seriously this has been building for months. I do not need any of these people. I release them with blessings. They serve no purpose in My life. They are unable to stop me, hell, they are unable to even talk to me apparently.. LOL!!! I will no longer worry about them. I kick the dust of your memory off my feet.

meow, puuuuurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Khadijah — Tue, 27 Mar 2007 20:49:01 GMT

OK, kids. I have a coworker/friend named Stephanie (she's as adorable as her name). She had two cute little kittens that need a home. Stat!! I glean that they are about 1/2 year old and precious as hell!!! If you have room in your heart, life, home let me know and there will be more info to follow. C'mon, people KITTENS!!!!!!

Stolen from the Dungeon Vixen

Khadijah — Fri, 23 Feb 2007 23:35:48 GMT

1.Where is the craziest place you have had sex that you are most proud of? Bus stop on Haight Street (years ago) 2. In an ideal world where money is no object, what is your drink of choice (that you have had before)? I really dont know, not a big drinker 3. What color is your favorite sex toy? HITACHI MAGIC WAND 4. Have you ever purchased new underwear instead of doing laundry? nope. I'll just go comando. isnt that what everyone does 5. What do you wear, if anything, when you sleep? my boyfriend 6. Can you still count the number of lovers you have had on both hands? nope. 7. Both hands and both feet? c'mon, now. Im 38 and live in the SF Bay area!!! 8. Boxers or Briefs? boxer briefs, actually 9. Do you have normal slippers or big fuzzy crazy ones? Im barefoot and fancy free 10. What is your favorite food item to incorporate into making love? I usually eat before, and again after, rarely during 11. Have you ever had a one night stand? yep. 12. Ever have one and STILL not know their name? nope. 13. Roman gods or Greek Gods? Romulan!! 14. Jessica Rabbit or Lara Croft? Number 5!! (kids next door) 15. Single Favorite Food Item.. (no multiple answers) Meat 16. The Number one person on your “LIST” that you are allowed to have sex with in your fantasy world? female or male? Female. Lisa Nicole Carson, M'chell N'dagocello Male: men dont phase me like that 17. Ticklish or not? very 18. Bagel or Donut? Bagel 19. Will you celebrate March 14th- Steak and Blowjob day? Ummmm. ok.. I could use a steak and a blowjob 20. What would YOU do with a flying monkey if you had one? Make money, like a good American 21. What is your favorite music to have sex to? House, Jazz, Reggae, Classical, Showtunes, Indie Rock, Punk, Hip Hop, Drum & Bass, etc 22. If you could have any super power what would it be? Read Minds 23. What’s your Dirtiest Fantasy? yeah.. ok.. hold your breath for that one. my parents are still alive

Until I find something to Blog about!!

Khadijah — Wed, 21 Feb 2007 21:50:53 GMT

*Tips 'fro to Claudia* ok, here we go.... Have you ever killed another living thing? Not including insects. I dropped a puppy once as a little girl and it died later... Im afraid that counts. What was the first song you ever sang along to on the radio? "Na na na na...na na na na... Hey Hey Hey Doo-bye!!!! " (yes, now I know the word is *good*, and yes my family still sings it to me) What type of music do you absolutely hate? umm.. anything by Prussian Blue Where was your last vacation? Hawaii If your lfie was a movie, who would be the director? Who would play you? Director: Spike Lee (not a black thing, I actually like him) Actor: Dana Owens Who is your favorite superhero? Hiro!! Who is your favorite Marx Brother? Harpo, he can kill a piano and make a harp, awwwesome Fred Astaire or Gene Kelly? well fred is a fellow taurean, but gene kelly was the whole package. (plus, he's now dancing with Stewie) If you were safely barricaded in your house during the zombie wars, and you had run out of food, would you eat your pet? Im a domme, my pets are often white men. short answer" yes. Mwahhahahahahhahahahaahhahahaaaa Furry rodents - love them or loathe them? Only like, guinea pigs or rabbits. they are big enough to wrestle with If you had to choose one decade of fashion to wear on a daily basis, which would it be? 1970s in fact, I may just start You can afford either a book or a meal. Which would you spend the last of your pocket money on? Have you seen ME? Shrilly laughing children (other than your own) - annoying or endearing? Endearing, unless Im PMSing Knitting or crochet? crochet. Im still trying to get mom to make me another poncho. those rock!!! Can you name the seven deadly sins? The four cardinal virtues and three theological virtues? nope, but Im sure I cover them all on a daily basis If you could ask any one person a question, whom and what would you ask? Hmmmm.. stumped You've just won an oscar and you have 5 seconds for your speech - GO: "to the academy thank you, and I enjoyed screwing each and every one of you"

Bored at work much???

Khadijah — Wed, 14 Feb 2007 22:38:29 GMT

1. Is that your natural hair color? yeah for now 2. Where was your default pic taken? in bed by the worst bf in the entire world 3. What's your middle name? Marie 4. Your current relationship status? Ass over teakettle, deep up in it, madly, truly, for real do' 5. Honestly, does your crush like you back? oh yeah! in ways I dont even seem to understand 6. What is your current mood? happy, even though Im in mourning 7. What color underwear are you wearing? what underwear 8. What makes you happy? my friends and lovers laughing really hard, the tinkle of glass breaking, my bottom in subspace. 9. Are you musically inclined? inclined to spare you all. 10. If you could go back in time, and change something what would it be? tell the west africans "hey! they dont do it the same way that you do!!!" 11. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day- what would you be? a man 12. Ever had a near death experience? No. and Im cool off that shyt 13. Something you do a lot? debate 14. What's the name of the song stuck in your head right now? "on the road again" Im listening to air america 15. Who did you copy and paste this from? Claudia the Great!! 16. Name someone with the same b-day as you? Peter Schaefer (sp) he wrote Equus 17. When was the last time you cried? All yesterday and last night (see #6) 18. Have you ever sung in front of a large audience? only with large groups. 19. If you could have one super power what would it be? invisibility 20. What's the first thing you notice about the OPPOSITE sex? Face, smell 21. What do you usually order from Starbucks? Venti sugar free vanilla latte 22. What’s your biggest secret? I love to watch gay porn 23. What's your favorite color? royal blue/black 24. When was the last time you lied? Just now (see #22) 25. Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows? all the time 26. Do you have braces? not anymore 27. If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be? flexibility (you guess why) 28. What are you eating or drinking? water 29. Do you speak any other language? a smattering of spanish and fluent in ASL 30. What's your favorite smell? the smell of babies, my lover, and amber oil

plus de choses changent, plus qu'ils restent la même chose

Khadijah — Tue, 23 Jan 2007 20:13:24 GMT

http://tinyurl.com/pqg3p check it out! I really want to live in a world where girls like them would know how beautiful they are from the very beginning? the end is heartbreaking.

broken heart/lost home

Khadijah — Wed, 10 Jan 2007 17:49:51 GMT

man oh man. something's been in my heart and mind for a long time now, and I simply must speak on it. I've lost a home. In this home there was friendship, family, fun, joy, a place to be understood. a place just to show up when I was bored, and being inside was entertainment enough, because there was so much love and security there. I wanted to run to take any friends, new and old there, because it was the coolest, hippest, yet down to earth place I knew of. And many would agree. One day shit was tracked in. from the front door to the back. It was not cleaned up, and there's not enough Febreeze to clear the stench out. on the off chance that I go there, I can still smell it. Smell it as clear as I could the first day it was laid in rank smelly coils onto the carpet. and it's strange. I often think to myself, "Am I the only one that still smells it?" Possibly. The mind is a powerful thing. perhaps, if you pretend it wasnt there in the first place, you can trick yourself into believing there's no stink in the air. I've been in homes with an overflowing catbox, where people sit down to dinner, as if there's nothing. So, I guess it's something you can get used to, you know the smell is your lot in life, the cost of having a pet you adore. Or maybe you just dont care. The foul smell is fine or "whatever", it is what it is, and the fact that your home is rank is of no consequence. not only that, but actually it is issue of the person that find the odor offensive, not yours. To this I say: to pretend there is no smelll is a disservice to yourself and those that watch you pretend. I know many pet owners with clean fresh smelling homes, so no it's not your lot in life. if you just dont care, then that's really too bad, everyones worth at least that much.. it's really sad, y'all. I want my home away from home back, but I simply cant stand the smell.

MeMeMeeeee

Khadijah — Thu, 04 Jan 2007 00:58:58 GMT

1. Put your music player on shuffle. 2. Press forward for each question. 3. Use the song title as the answer to the question. NO CHEATING... What does next year have in store for me? Californication- Red Hot Chili Peppers.. um.. ok... Whats my love life like? The Boogie Monster- Gnarls Barkely.. um... ok What do I say when life gets hard? Su Su Bobien- My World Music Mix I'll have to look that up What do I think when I get up in the morning? Outside- George Michael.. yeah so far that one's right on!! What song will I dance to at my wedding? Ma Ma Ma Belle- Electric Light Orchestra uh.. no.. What do you want as a career? Silent Warrior- Enigma.. this is already kinda truish.. Your favorite saying? Falador Passa Mal- Os Original Do Samba. Favorite place? Kingdom Come- Coldplay. LOL!! What do you think of your parents? Solomente Una Vez- ??? Where would you go on a first date? Everwanting: I Want You to Want- Maxwell Describe yourself? Tuff Luv- The Gossip. HOLLLAA!! What is the thing I like doing most? A Roseary for Rhythm-Flytronix.. What is my state of mind like at the moment? Take Your Whiskey Home- Van Halen How will i die? Depend on Myself- TLC interesting What do you do when you see your friends? Someone to Love- Mint Condition.. yeah.. that's real!! How does your boyfriend/girlfriend make you feel? Somewhere Over the Rainbow- Israel Kamakawiwo'ole so far this is absolutely true.. geeeez, I've turned into a sap. How does your ex make you feel? Stop Me If You Think You've Heard This One Before- The Smiths.. Bahahahaahahahahaha If you were to die today, you would feel (like) Soldier Girl- The Polyphonic Spree... lol

Know the bunny, Love the bunny

Khadijah — Wed, 03 Jan 2007 22:48:51 GMT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m9v0VdQuNoo I just love this. I think Im becoming a YouTube junkie

The Gift that keeps on giving

Khadijah — Thu, 21 Dec 2006 17:29:43 GMT

Enjoy!~ I think JT may have redeemed himself. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1dmVU08zVpA&mode=user&search

knee jerk/racecard/past is past/reverse racism

Khadijah — Tue, 21 Nov 2006 23:05:38 GMT

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-8044789871599060390&q=michael+richards&hl=en Ok. can we discuss this? Can we finally stop pretending that racism doesnt exist? I watched this in horror. absolute fucking mind numbing horror. (click the link if you havent seen it). you can damn near see what a freeing experience it was for him to be screaming "NIGGER" at the top of his lungs, voice cracking. and not just once, over and over again. And it's always lovely to start off with a bit about lynching. yeah, that shit is comedy gold right there. This country/society is racist. even this bdsm scene, we love to think we're a bunch of free thinking liberal people, but it's in all of us. it doesnt leave without thought or a fight. so you cant pretend or wish it away. not many diseases do. If any sentence you've uttered started with "black wo/men are just... asians are just.. latinos are..." News flash: that's racism!! If you've ever said "I dont see color, I just see the person" that's bullshit or you're a fucking idiot. there are three things you'll know about me within as many seconds of seeing me. Big, Black, Woman. So if you manage to miss any of that, I'll be sure to ask permission before I pet your seeing eye dog. Oh Lord!! Dont get me started..LOL So, step up!! right here.. I want honest feed back.. if you have questions you can ask this black woman ANYTHING, and I'll answer you. But goddamn we gotta start somewhere. oh yeah. if you've said any of those phrases in the title.. step up and keep it real

Hawaiii WTF!!!!

Khadijah — Tue, 10 Oct 2006 16:23:15 GMT

OK. One of My closest, dearest and oldest friends is getting married in Hawaii. So, here I am, getting ready to go be a bridesmaid (but never a bride *LOL*) But does anyone else know what there is cool to do in Hawaii? Lounging on the beach is mad cool, but I know Me, I'll get bored. Besides My hotel room is there anywhere where I can publicly beat My subs ass. Or any other suggestions will be greatly appreciated. Oh! and will there be drama with My toys and such. I figure I'll leave all the sharp things and just take the floggers.. Im only doing carry on

PORN!!!!!!

Khadijah — Thu, 14 Sep 2006 20:32:29 GMT

now that I have your attn! I'm looking for a strap on boy (receiving) to be in a movie. Goodvibes is having a 10min porn contest and I want to enter. For this one, I need a bio boy, that would be willing to act, be fucked, come, and be viewed at the Parkway. I would love it to be someone I know, or at least someone y'all (My friends, whom I adore, each and every crazy kinky one of you) knows. I need this quick!!! No, Im not going to be in it. you wish tho.. LOL!!!

FUCKING LIARS!!!!

Khadijah — Fri, 08 Sep 2006 22:20:33 GMT

OK, Im about to just unbutton My pants, twist up My panties and be real for a minute... Can I just say I fucking hate loathe detest dispise, etc liars? Can I just say that it's not ok, to betray someones goddamn trust, because you are too insecure to tell the truth and let someone make an informed decision about how they want to deal with your punk ass, after you've done, said, breathed whatever the fuck it is that you did?? Lies dont protect anyone but you Lies dont spare anyone pain Lies dont make anything better that it was in the first place. quite the opposite, in fact. Dont you know they universe favors truth? And if you lie, 9 times out of 10 IT WILL BE FOUND OUT!! dont liars know that? Most liars are more stupid than the people they are lying to. Hmmm.. perhaps that's why they lie. BECAUSE THEY ARE FUCKING STUPID IDIOTS. tell you what? let's all make a promise to just tell the truth. To grab our nuts and say "Hell yeah, I did it!!" and watch the chips fall. It might actually be ok, there may actually be no reason to tell the lie in the first place. I mean at a certain age you stop getting into trouble with those that love you... Grow the hell up!!

Apostle of Nia

Khadijah — Mon, 28 Aug 2006 19:10:47 GMT

http://www.youtube.com/p.swf?video_id=Ms6BtRYMtpw&eurl=&iurl=http%3A//sjl-static1.sjl.youtube.com/vi/Ms6BtRYMtpw/2.jpg&t=OEgsToPDskIsNrzab5J9NIUXRkAOJRse She makes My fucking Day!! How can you be in a bad mood watching this. Such heart, such committment. She is in her moment. Im going to develope a religion around her. PLUS. EWF is My all time favorite band. May the Nia be with you. Khadijah

He really is to be pitied

Khadijah — Wed, 09 Aug 2006 00:11:49 GMT

www.geocities.com/contactavatar/fat.html Here's My favorite part: "3 WAYS TO DEFINE WOMEN scientic mode: anyone born with a cunt is a woman. political mode: anyone who claims to be a woman, is (even if she's fat or has a dick.) romantic mode: if when a man sees a female he thinks "hmm, i'd like to see her naked" or (better yet) "woof! i wanna fuck her!", she is a woman, romantically. but if he thinks "ugh. thank god for clothing" or "gah. how could she do that to herself!", she isn't a woman romantically. the romantic mode is far and away the most important because it determines who the most important people in our lives will be. but it is also the most troublesome because it's very subjective and because it postulates that all women are beautiful because if they're not beautiful, they're not women. at 57, i've reached another difficult age. nearly all women my age have become way too ugly to have sex with and i don't have anything like the kind of money it takes to lease a younger one. makes me grumpy, dammit! " Any thoughts?

Where do babies come from indeed?

Khadijah — Wed, 12 Jul 2006 23:25:43 GMT

http://www.planetdan.net/pics/babies/index.htm I love this. especially when the baby is making it's entrance into the world.. Like TaDA!!!! But I especially love the man has a 'fro!!!