in enya's words i send a song...

...strange how my heart beets to find my self upon your shore
strange how i still feel my loss of comfort gone before
cool waves wash over and drift away with dreams of youth
so time is stolen; i cannot hold you long enough

and so this is where i should be now
days and nights falling by
days and nites falling by me
i know of a dream i should be holding
days and nights falling by me

soft blue horizons reach far into my childhood days
as you are rising to bring me my forgotten ways

strange how i falter to find i'm standing in deep water
strange how my heart beets to find i'm standing on your shore


WOW!
this song is such a perfect metaphore for where my life is at right now
just coming away from the farm near the ocaen, growing older/wiser, missing my loves and lovers
temporarily stuck in my hometown and remembering my childhood and navigating the "deep water" i'm in with the court system
all the while i close my eyes and i'm still on florida's shore


ahhh... i love you enya...

drowning my dream

you woke me up at six this morning invading my dream again. get out...

you were wrong to reach out for me, reel me into your planetary space when i was finally breaking free from your revolution.
you begged that your patience never ending had lasted long enough and oh how you needed9wanted needed me.me oh! me me me...
i was at last the one you wanted= so i caved. crushed against your lips. your ocean, my shore.
waving me into a bathtub full of your promises,and floating me out to sea(see?)
then the rain started to fall and that was when i knew knew knew you were gonna flood me...
you...

in our hands...

how long will you probe into my darkness, seeking answers to your own problem.
handled by your calloused mind, cut through with wordswords driven from your mouth
like a virus spewing itself up and out of your sick gut.
swagger a little more this way and fall on gaia before she falls on you.
your "change" reaks of apathy sitting stagnant inside your deafness and dumbness.
fingers on fire reach frantically for something to steal-so my ocean puts that fire out, you are a boy in a man's body.

silent

like a mute gone mad the silence chokes me
rips open my chest and invokes me
unscribbled thouhts -just spoken
another silence broken

bring back the light...

o brighid,
prepare me for this great,immense new year
let me stand fast with roots digging in to my mother ever deeper
bring back the light that i may see how and where to plant the seed

i hear a new tune on the wind
whispering lyrics sent from my far away home
missed voices, missed embraces, i missed your words unsaid

i feel a new beat,a new pulse
to push me ever spiraling up and
onward into the new adventures that await this year

i spark up a fresh fire within my core
a fire fit for transformation into my new stage of evolution
let this take me higher and bring me to your door