Blah... FML... Looking for a place to live... Anyone have any info please contact me...

So, I'm on the hunt for a place to live... anyone know of a 2Br 1+Ba for a decent price let me know...

Thanks

I missed it again... Damn it...

They had 50 more tickets for Fuente Eterno and of course some how i missed it...

*Sadness*

It's... It's...

Raining... it's poring... the old man is snoring...

Yay...

I want to dance in the rain... who wants to join me...

oo oo i also want to play... who wants to play with me...

hehehe...

It’skind of funny how you run accross somehing of your past and strangley a song comes on...

So... it's strange... i ran across this letter once writen to me ages ago... from someone i once had a very deep and powerful relationship... beyond that which any other has matched since... it had been a while since i last read it... and every time i do it amazes me... so as im reading it... i hear Depeche Mode - Stripped (One of my favorite songs) playing in the background... wow, now that really struck a cord with me...
Without out menchening any names here of this person... though i know allmost no one on here knows this person... I that i would share this with you as it is something i find very beutiful...
So if you could imagine sitting and reading this and then hearing the lyrics listed below, at he same time...
(there are breaks in the original, but unfortunatly i don't have that with me at the moment... this is one i had saved in an account of mine...)

To You,

Walk with me tomorrow
I will show the things I love
We can walk in the forest
If you listen close,
You can hear my soul sing
If you pay attention to my words
And open yourself to my mind
I will let you see through my eyes
The trees are beautiful, aren't they
And if you look deeper
And open your heart
You may feel what I feel
Its wonderful here
Colors are bright when it rains
Can you hear the singing
Music so low and sweet
Open your soul and listen to them
I will show you me
The one no one knows
Let go of the reality you hold onto
There is only the reality we create
I can take you to my special places
Places where no one knows I go
And if you see them through my eyes
You will understand
Let me show you what I love
And if you're quite
Then you can hear them speak
Whispering the words I love to hear
Let me take you to the sea
Listen to the waves as if for the first time
Hear it with my ears
It chants with a slow rhythm
Let me take you to the desert
Feel the wind caress your face
Hear it whisper sweetness in your ear
If you see it like I do
Then the wind is your friend
You can speak and play with it
Like a child with an imaginary friend
Come and dance in the rain with me
Feel them poke you
They like to play
Walk with me tomorrow
Forget the rest of the world
Forget the things they say
Open your heart
Forget yourself
Stop thinking, only feel
Don't look for reason or answers
I would like to show you my world
A world which I love
A world with no society
I am inviting you
To come and play in my world
I enjoy it, and I think you might too
Let go, and let yourself go
Open yourself and you will see
I will let you see me
Walk through the wall
That has been created between us
It only exists in our mind
Come walk with me tomorrow
I will show you love

From Me
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Now here are th lyrics to DM -Stripped
Come with me
Into the trees
We'll lay on the grass
And let the hours pass

Take my hand
Come back to the land
Let's get away
Just for one day

Let me see you
Stripped down to the bone
Let me see you
Stripped down to the bone

Metropolis
Has nothing on this
You're breathing in fumes
I taste when we kiss

Take my hand
Come back to the land
Where everything's ours
For a few hours

Let me see you
Stripped down to the bone
Let me see you
Stripped down to the bone

Let me hear you
Make decisions
Without your television
Let me hear you speaking
Just for me

Let me see you
Stripped down to the bone

Let me hear you speaking
Just for me

Let me see you
Stripped down to the bone Let me hear you crying
Just for me

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This kind of is interesting how thigs happen, and this also lets you in my life and lets you all see something about me...
I hope you enjoyed it and much as this brings me to an interesting calm, pleasantness, and places in my own head...
::Much Luv too you all::

HFSOB... this hurts...

Yay me...
To yeah, i made it to Des Moines, IA...
Got my rental car...
Was on my way to the city that my job site is at...

Fucking Rolled the car...
My neck hurts like a SOB... and so do my shoulders...

So i have to comeback to Des Moines to fill out paperwork...
And there are no more rentals for me... Due to Races going on in Knoxville, IA and various other things...

FML... I give up... this fucking blows...
So yeah... if you don't hear from me... this is why...
Oh and i need to go to the hospital to make sure i didn't break anything... oh this will be fun... lets see how long they want to keep me there...

Pain, Loneliness, more pain... general feeling of hopelessness... oh did i say pain... my muscles are so soar... OMFG... few cuts... but they don't hurt... glass stuck in places i don't want to even think about...

(Oh... just found out my Drivers license is in the cops car that was nice enough to give me a ride to the tow yard from where the accident occurred... and that is about 39 miles away...)

[Edit]
So this means I can't even use my Corp. Credit Card to get to where my drivers license is...
[End Edit}

So who want to come out and give me a massage... some nice DT would be good... I luv you long time...

::Much Luv:: to everyone...
Catch you all on the flip side ;-) *sneaker*
*~*Pyxie*~*

Damn I am...

craving some cuddles...
Badly...

Last night was the full moon...
so i'm feeling all kinds of loneliness, right now...

And now i just want to wax the shit out of my self...
get some skin on skin cuddling...
feel someone pressed up against me...
their weight on me...
listening to them breath...
as they fall asleep...

*Sadness*
(I'm not going to finish this now before this gets worst...)
(P.S. My photobucket account is down so i can't add a photo)

A friend of mine wrote this... and i'm reposting it because i know how she feels...

In many regards i often feel this way... I admit I feel similar to how she does...
except i'm not on one side or the other... and often get ridiculed for that...
I'm a freak amongst freaks... always afraid to let people see...
I have know her since high school... Much Luv to you doll...

There are no people of substance at clubs. I was reminded of that tonight and I realized I was out of place. Maybe I'm a dork or something but I ended up thinking, wtf am I doing here? Why did I choose to be around these brain-dead people and this mostly shitty mainstream music?

I don't hate people that have fun doing that, but I don't belong there. At least not the ones that play mainstream music that appeals to mainstream people. Sure, dancing is fun but when you get to the point where you want to attempt to meet someone who might have a similar mind, and you talk to a few people including those you dance with, and you find that they're all brain-dead, it's really depressing. People don't impress me if they're brain-dead, even if they're beautiful. They're not worth MY time, though they could be worth someone else's time. So I highly appreciated the drinks that I can't make at home.

It's sad when you realize that being too much of a thinker is going to make you miserable because only other thinkers will interest you and they're very hard to find. Then again, most thinkers don't go to clubs, which explains why I felt out of place.

And then there's the whole issue of being gay and gay people are a very small portion of the population. If you are a person of substance, which are also a minority in the hetero world, it means that you are even more fucked if you're gay. You'd be better off damaging your brain to dumb yourself down, if you don't want to be lonely.

Even though I'm 28, I feel like I'm 50 and I've always hoped to be dead by 50.

I went to the ocean earlier, and it was so beautiful, that my eyes watered because I felt my heart fill with love. It was a spiritual moment that fed my heart and soul.
Just that little piece of time, looking out onto the dark blue ocean under a dark blue sky, with that sparkling trail of moonlight over gently rolling waves, made my entire night.

And this was Pride night.
I have nothing to be proud of, because all I can think is, I'd have a better chance at being happy if I could change teams, but I really can't.

Damn it... Happyness and Sadness... all in one...

Every time i come to San Fran, I fall in love...
It breaks my heart every time i leave...
I saw so many amazing sights today just on the way to the airport...
I especially loved going through the fog in the forested area just above the golden gate,
and the crossing the gate with such a thick fog that you couldn't see more then 40-50 yards... gawd it truely was amazing...
and then the view on top of the hill... wow... it truly was a great day today...
I just wanted to jump out of my car and go play...
The Pyxie in me is begging o come out... thriving to play... it urns to be released...
One of these days we must truly plan a real adventure... So I can show you all Pyxie... and how we play...

Especially when i get to go north of the Bay... the forest is absolutely amazing...

So as i finished my work today... I got a cal from my boss asking me/telling me they wanted me to go to Memphis, TN...

So I guess I'm getting on the 1145 flight and arriving in Memphis at 945 am...
Well at least i'm getting double time for all of this...
And i know i would have missed todays sights if i didn't accept this job today... so it was a blessing in disguise...

So i'll see you all when i get back... I hope we get to have some fun... I'll be back on thur/fri (ish)
Miss you all so much...
Can't wait to see you all again...
::Much Luv::
*~*Pyxie*~*

1 Bottle, 2 Bottle, 3 Bottles... Floor...

So I drove through Napa Valley... and all that fun stuff... which was fucking awesome... anyways...
So maybe it wasn't a good idea to start tasting before figuring out where I was going... or better yet taking sever hits of Cid... didn't help...
But man Napa Valley was beautiful...
Especially this one part... the colors were going insane... like it was hitting the windows... it was intense...

Oh... And i may or may not have driven through a vineyard or two...

J/K... or am i...

So I got kind of lost in Napa Valley... Finally made it to my hotel... 2 hours away from Napa... about to eat... and head off to bed...

Have I told you all I Love Nor-Cal

Love you guys...
See you when i get back...

::Much Luv::
*~*Pyxie*~*