"Days of our lives" featuring Farasha
I love my husband so much it hurts....
Sun, December 2, 2007 - 4:15 PMHello, Today is Tony's 41st birthday. The boys, Dwight ,and I went up to the hospital to have a cake for Tony etc. It didn't go as planned and I am sorta bummed about it. Tony was depressed yesterday and today. He is trying to push me away and wants me to just go on with my life. When I look into his eyes, I just see so much sadness and he is trapped inside. I even told him I would bring him home now. He said no. He knows he needs to do the therapy, so he will stay. But he is so sad. I left in tears yesterday and today. Christmas carols were playing on the radio while I was driving home and I just started bawling. I was thinking of how are Christmas usually is. Tony and I would put up our regular tree and also all of our German items etc. Tony would help me cook and kinda run the show you could say. Tonight I tried to explain to the kids why I get sad. The kids try to just ignore the fact their dad is in Brecksville. We all deal with this differently. I love my job and have been there a month already. It helps me tremendously emotionally. This is what is keeping me afloat and my faith. Seeing Tony so depressed hurts me so deep inside. My stomach gets in knots. I pray God will keep answering our prayers.
When I need to talk to God...
The prayer of the righteous is powerful and effective. James 5:16 NRSV
When I need to trust God...
The human mind plans the way, but the LORD directs the steps. The lot is cast into the lap, but the decision is the LORD's alone. Proverbs 16:9,33 NRSV
May God bless all of you. With love, Cheryl
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Sun, December 2, 2007 - 4:59 PM
perhaps focusing on the therapy will change his sadness into determination?
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Sun, December 2, 2007 - 5:59 PM
I wish you guys the best of luck. God will take care of him and you guys as well. He doesnt put anything in front of you that he knows you cant handle. He will take care of all of you. Tony will get better and happier. I wish all of you the best and I will keep you in my prayers.
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Mon, December 3, 2007 - 4:04 AM
God bless you and your family!
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Mon, December 3, 2007 - 4:45 AM
The Earth is a school !
I truly believe this. You and your Hubby and kids are teaching and learning from each other...and I know it's a tough time to say the least. Christmas is so hard on people going through emotionally hard times. You are like I've said before a strong person ....you will get through . How lucky a Man is your husband ???? I consider myself lucky to know you just from the posts :)
I say God Bless, but she/he has done that for you..I just ask that it continues for you ..... |
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Mon, December 3, 2007 - 7:33 AM
Prayer, determination, strength and most of all love, you have so much to help you through. Someday this will all be behind you and you will be a better person for having survived it. Your boys are learning from you what love, commitment and faith are able to achieve, and they will be better men for it.
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Mon, December 3, 2007 - 7:33 AM
I can't imagine what you are going through - but I have hope that things will get better. The only thing I can think of to say is to concentrate on the little things, the big things seem to take care of themselves. Take care and stay strong.
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Mon, December 3, 2007 - 4:49 PM
Tony sounds like an amazing man. Good luck to both of you. Hugs from us. xx
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Wed, December 5, 2007 - 8:34 AM
Cheryl you are such an amazing person. Tony is so lucky to have you. You are the best role model for your children. They don't know it now, but they will thank you someday for everything you have done. You are a true hero. I could only hope to have your strength and perseverance should i ever be faced with anything like this. this time of year is the worst for so many people. it will pass and you will be stronger and soon, very soon, you will all be together again. your family is truly blessed. lots of love to you!
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Thu, December 6, 2007 - 1:33 PM
My blessing to you.
Concentrate on the positive, give gratitude everyday for everything, the big and the small. The more postive energy you can bring into your life, the more positive energy will be attracted to you and your family. I am sending you thoughts of joy and abundance in this difficult time. Peace be with you.
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