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Go home be with your children and love them with all of your heart. This is your spiritual practise. Mother Theresa
The Invitation
It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.
It doesn’t interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool
for love
for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon...
I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened by life’s betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.
I want to know if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us
to be careful
to be realistic
to remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
“Yes.”
It doesn’t interest me
to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.
It doesn’t interest me who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.
It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like the company you keep
in the empty moments.
Yellow Spectral Human
Green Central Castle of Enchantment
Earth family- Core Clan- Truth
I dissolve in order to influence
Releasing wisdom
I seal the process of free will
With the spectral tone of liberation
I am guided by my own power doubled
Attachment Parenting,
Ayahuasca,
Breastfeeding,
copenhagen,
Denmark,
Edible and medicinal plants of the wild,
Ethical Consumerism,
Flower essences,
GAIA - the earth is alive,
Green Building,
Healing Light,
INFJ,
Intentional Community,
lazy raw foodists,
Natural Building,
Organic Architecture,
Random Acts of Kindness...,
rocks and minerals,
Scandinavian Tribe!,
Shamanism,
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I am the light I see in You
Awakening is instantaneous, but embodying this understanding takes time. Life is not easy. It is unpredictable. It is tumultuous. But it is beautiful to walk with others when the emphasis is on Being rather than becoming. We need our brothers and sisters. The presence of others challenges our conditioning so that awakening can be embodied into every moment and every relationship.”
Richard Miller
about me
...I am a multifacetted human being .....I have been so many me this short span of life Ive been on earth...the me nursing of my mother(thanks mum) ...me lying in the grass ..I remember not being able to move not even turn my body over but content smelling the tall grass, insects humming, the sky so very very blue and mothers laughter. I must have been so little yet I might never have felt so expancive ever since ... ... I am 5 years old magic one with nature exploring communicating being. I am 7 just learning to read and worlds open up and I am absorbed I am someone else fliyng on the magic carpet ...riding the horse faster than the wind... I dream dreams that teach me about all there is and all there can be. I am a teenager and I am so allknowing and confident and the world is mine to revel in and it is here to satisfy my needs ... I travel I get stuck I run I stumble I fly high and fall low and miraculesly the path continues on and on and I am still here ow.
Having nursed my children I am experiencing their beginning of this miraculess intense scary incredible journey. I have friends and famely and some are not present and others I have yet to meet. I have fallen in love and out of love .
Im in control and then not at all. I have triumfed and given birth and I am traumatised and wonder if Ill ever get over it . I am giving and I recieving ..and I wish to share ( all the love and beauty and also pain and confusion) and only I myself is holding me back. Every moment I experience this or that . I am happy , I am content, I am scared , I am sad , confused ....I love ...I feel ..I think ,ponder and wonder and I am In Wonder. ....and years have pased and experiences dreams thughts are remembered and I think I have learned a litle on the Way . Of love and loss, of being happy, in joy , still and brave and fearless and in complete shock denial, confusion, angst and fear and ... choise ...not ot forget ...choise..... and I have dared to face "it " and not to mention me, sometimes straight up others little by little, and experience it and let me be. Just experience and let it be. I have aspirations and visions and glimpses of potentials of me yet to come ...and I am here in the now seemingly so far from perfection .
Yet all this comes no where near to tell who I am ....
There is this part of me though that is seemingly here always with this Pernille (as she knows herself by)...knows her so well and always observes and ...just is there. Present ... Is that me? Can it really be ?? ..that this, This is I , this Loving Caring Compasionate Allknowing Infinite Being ...ultimately Beautifull and always reassuring so incredinly Loving. . I believe it ..and I believe it is you to... and everyone and every thing around us. Always there.
Yet I am so merly human and I tend to forget (every day I confess)...I am attatched, I am stressed , I want , I am to busy , I am tired ...... I am AFRAID and often I believe I am something else ... a lone human being alongside other humans and creatures and elements fighting seemingly against all od sfor survival.
I am blessed though for always I have had this inherent sense of Knowing that there is more ...just knowing ...no need to prove I just know ..and it manifests as hope when I thought I had none, as prayers knowing they will be heard , of trust when it looks bleak... of knowing this to will pass, of exploring tecniques that will fill me when I feel empty or maybee more true empty me when I am to full ( meditation art dancing nature yoga seeking out loved ones) of wondereing what is my lesson now... and of remembering that there always is choise...and again and again I experience it ...I am not alone, it is not hopeless and I am supplied for. I am Loved . I am Love. I am on an infinite journey unfolding and revealing that.
A daily portion of love and laughter and tears
as required
Fun and Serenity
That I may get everyday
firmer and more gentle
That I may every day and moment
be in the now
nourishing
body mind spirit and soul
That all my relations are peaceful true and real
That when it is needed I am able to do what is needed
That I at all times are guided
able to listen to the guidance
in its many forms
and stay ever true to my self
as to a...
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Mon, April 28, 2008 - 9:39 PM
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We have not come to take prisoners
but to surrender ever more deeply
To freedom and joy.
We have not come to this exquisite world
To hold ourselves hostage from love.
Run my dear ,
From anything
That may not strengthen
Your precious budding wings.
Run like hell my dear
From anyone likely
To put a sharp knife
Into the sacred ,tender vision
Of your beautiful heart.
We have duty to befriend
Those aspects of obedience
...
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Mon, March 24, 2008 - 9:05 PM
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I find there is less and less to say...
Becoming more quiet ....
I observe ...
myself
and others ...
and all things that occur...
Breathing ....
Small talk interests me little ...
Really!
It does not...
Silence fills the gaps
sometimes comforting and nice
even beautiful ...
revealing our Selves to one another
Others acward and weird ...
( I cant be bothered to let that bother me..
I shrug and move on...)
in the silence I lis...
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