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i'm a silly cat who likes to purrrrrr and tickle yer chin. i like to fuck shit up with a positive attitude. i like to break the illusions i've made and roar like a lioness when i'm done.....i'm a bat whos full of rebirth and taking flight into the great vast void.....
damn. I'm one happy girl. Life handed me a bunch of lessons diguised as illusion and with every ounce of energy it took me to do it....I fired back with all my soul could muster....and then some more. The life I have been given has never, EVER let me down, I am blessed, blessed and than blessed some more. I never imagined as a kid that one planet could hold so much...I cannot begin to 'spress all the energies that have been placed right in front of me at the right times, and for that I am thankful, for that, I vow to not waste this life. I would say that the first 32 years of my life have been one giant test, one I gladly would take again and again, for a CALM SEA NEVER MADE A SKILLED MARINER. Yo, all that shit taught me sooooo much, I wouldnt trade it or wont regret it for second, I like where its brought me, it was my path and I dont like to go AGAINST, its the current I'm flowing with. So heres the deal....I am a firecracker. I've spent hours with fire surrounding me, hours in the air, hours on my hands, ours deep inside a paintbrush, hours watching a sewing needle flow into fabric, hours in the sweet embrace of my kindred kitties, hours following the curves of a beautiful woman, hours lost in the warmth of an amazing man, or perhaps both, hours alone on a hillside listening to the ocean and giving thanks, hours pedaling as far out on the playa as I can into nothingness in order to find EVERYTHING, hours feeling the texture of a beautiful vegetable or the smell of an amazing blueberry, hours holding a dear friend who needs nothing more than a warm heart pressed against theirs, hours crying tears of joy for the amazing friends and peacemakers that have stuck by me thru one of the hardest decisions of my life, hours contemplating why, hours contemplating how, hours meditating on why I NEED to get my gifts out, why I NEED to express, hours wondering how I can be still and dynamic in every second of every day.......life is good, life is what you make it, and I do NOT intend on letting it slip away without trying my hardest and giving it every ounce of my being in order to find my personal ohm:)
I am not a quitter.....go ahead, push me down, I'll just get back up yo. You only lose power when you give it away and to be honest, I'm not interested in power, I'm interested in self purpose...I want to HEAR others, not compete against them....TOGETHER we can be a thousand times more amazing, alone we can also be solid as a rock.....I am not looking for my answers in a nother person, I am looking for my answers in my spirit.....if you think you can't, than guess what? You cant...if you fall down, get up damn it, try again, we all make mistakes, if we didnt there would be nada to learn.....if you get a frown, give a smile, see what happens. I refuse to walk around with a chip on my shoulder, I'm trying to avoid that.....I would much rather walk around with a bird or fire or a giant notebook so I could put down all the blessings I get everyday and not sweat the small stuff. I'm human, we all are, we all bleed red. Lastly, my thoughts on love:
Love does not consist in gazing loveingly into each others eyes, but in staring outward in the same direction.

Love and Light, Peace.