I had a pretty mellow weekend. It was very nice to hang out with my son. It is odd being a weekend parent. It seems that right about the time we get comfortable with each other it is time for him to go back to his mom's house again. We went on a nice long bike ride through Wildcat Canyon. It was about a 9 mile ride and we saw some wild foxes along the way. I ride much faster than he does so there were several instances along the way when I just got to ride along by myself or wait for him and get into a rather nice meditative state. Being out in Nature always has a very calming effect upon me. I feel much more connected with the Universe when outside, especially outside in a rural setting.
Today, it was back to work at the job that I still currently maintain. The whole idea of having 2 days to myself seems incredibly weird to me, not only that but just feeling like my job is the source of my abundance, rather than God, is also incredibly obtuse. I am knowing intellectually that God is the source of my supply, not my job. Getting into that feeling place spiritually is where the challenge has lied. I believe that God is the source of my supply my ego based fears are the only thing that holds me back from feeling it fully everyday. The church I go to always says that it is done unto you as you believe, and I believe that God is the source of my supply. The abundance in my life couldn't be anymore obvious. I live in a country where it is much more difficult to stay skinny that it is to stay fat. How much more obvious could it be than that one simple fact. Yet, I seem to find myself always wanting more in all areas of my life, except for food. Interestingly enough though I don't consider myself a very materialistic person. As a matter of fact the more I work on my spirituality the less material plane I crave. The main reason I want monetary abundance is so that I no longer feel the need for money. I don't want fancy cars, big houses or electronic gadgets. I want to travel and volunteer my time throughout other places in the world that need a helping hand.
In other life happenings I've been continuing to teach myself the banjo. It is cool to learn an instrument. I've noticed that people that live a long life are always learning new things. I like learning new things, especially in a non classroom environment. If anybody reads this particular posting would you like to teach me something?
I recently put it out to the universe that I would like to meet 2 new people. The first one I would like to be my spiritual guide helping me on my quest for enlightenment. The second one I would like to be my business mentor. Someone that could guide me in making my business successful in order that I may help others as while at the same time helping myself. Or, the ideal sage/guru would be able to do both.
Gratitude. I am grateful for, my son, my wife, my dog, my health, my home, my money, my business, my stocks, my happiness, my local libraries, my blog, my computer, my friends, my family, my neighbors, my bike, my car, my ex-wife, my boss, my job, cops, robbers, government, anarchists, Buddhists, Christians, the earth, the stars, the moon, trees, my eyes, my mouth, my dick, my hands, spring, summer, fall, winter, global cooling, my church, people that make me feel uncomfortable, people that annoy me, people that get me feeling mad, organic farmers, organic fruits and vegetables, you, and me, my ego, my spirit, the one mind, my inner buddha, my inner christ. I am.