If anything is not coming for your maintenance, like money, food, or anything else, don't worry. When Srila Gaura Kisora dasa Babaji Maharaja was residing near Govinda-kunda, he saw that many persons were engaged in eating very delicious food at a picnic. He thought to himself, "I should also have some delicious food." And then he replied to himself, "You want delicious food? Very good; I will arrange that right away." He picked up some bitter neem leaves, ate them, and told himself, "You sho uld take this and be satisfied." Sometime he used to eat the mud of the kundas (ponds) and thus became blind, but he didn't care. He was simply absorbed in chanting, "O Radhe! Radhe! Where are You?"