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The Blahs
well here i am, not a very good blogger as i seem to be so very distant. No one to blog with but me, just me & my blog....missing my f**k-buddie, but need to sew, northern faire is in 2 weeks, need a new bodice. then there is dickens. need jackets and another bodice, so i'll just be a sewing demon between now & thanksgiving. be nice to have some company, looking for a new play buddie, need to get the spanking benches made as well. should clean house while i'm at it but what the heck, i'll only cover it with more thread & saw dust so why start now!!
Good storm last night, nice listening to the rain fall. 45 more pounds to reach my first goal. 125 down and counting. Need a comfort buddie? someone who likes picnics, reading out loud, poetry, costumes, role playing, you should e-mail me. I like to cook and miss my domestic partner way too much. He doesn't want me anymore, left me like a child who tires of its puppy when the new wears off, so i move on. His loss. I want a partner with a beard sans nibbles, two eyes, ten toes, 11 fingers, non-smoker, 420 is doable, (this my grocery list) sense of humer, stable job or income, i have wants, not needs exactly, other then to be primary.
so much to say, so much BS in it all. Tell me, who EXACTLY gets all they want, even the dirty rich have wants & needs. I own it all, at least all i want, (i'm a simple girl who wants simple local guy) I play at being "polly" but am i or am i just biding my time like everyone else in this place in space & time.
My words echo, falling on deaf ears in a blind world too far removed from a reality that screams harshness. A dark veil decends on my world, a cloak in the ether that hides me and protects me from the harsh prying eyes of a beast lurking there. I'm 50, where the fuck is my prince charming. Off listening to Pachabel's Cannon in D or to Handels Harp Concerto in B flat major, where ever, just not here.
oh well guess i'll go sew, at least i hve my machines.
OK Another Day Down
Well had a good weekend, met a very cool woman from Egypt and had some good beading conversations, met a fellow tirbe member and found out we have alot in common. lost my 100th pound last week, but gained it back along with two of it;s friends, have got to have a conversation with self over bringing in uninvited extra pounds!! Need to post a pic of self. Bernal Tribe has a good gun ban conversation going on. When was the last time anyone looked in the mirror and said thank you to themselves? for anything...Better today
Things are looking up, who gives a shit if i'm older, i'm me and that's that. On to beter things. Gardening - time to clean up the pots in the yard and prep for spring planting.Any urban gardners our there want to offer some advice on flower pot gardening, VERY LARGE flower pots i'm gardening in.