just for no reason I'll blog,
smash through the fog, free fall through the mist, let go of thoughts.. of things missed, focus on what's gained.

Love life no matter what! - never to be ashamed. You know! ..that's such a foolish game...

yet we've all played it - We all play small...those feelings where do they come from..Who is to blame. Such a silly question...It's all just the same...

Make of it what you will. React to the reality. Be sure to test it first... Make sure it's solid and has plenty of good mirth. And just as you act - cutting forth with your sword, your tools, your words...put a loving heart into it. Make of it some worth!
For how easy it is to give way to rage and want hurt.

Yet do not cage this ancient beast. As surely a part of you as the sun that rises in the east. Just add a sprinkle of intelligence as you let fly with the beast. Shout out a warning, that you're a warrior for peace.

That it's not punishment you harbour but protection. Yes please. Calm as a puddle, potent as the sea.
I see. I see you. I feel you at ease, when a thought changes you..
Upon your back - no peace.
So raise you're awareness to the terrorist inside. check the thoughts and weed out the lies.
Taking in and pumping out for all of our lives. Mind body and soul..it pays to be wise.
Look head, look heart, give kindness with eyes.

Straighten up with love, like a pillar in a hall, yours is to be true even when close ones may fall.
For only you can decide through the thick of it all, to temper the waves and answer the call.
Steadfast your feet - your own path to walk.

To care is to act with intention and grace
Don't say you care with a judging face.
So what if you do - not like the others
Live each day new over and over

wow...what a gift each day anew
Make love with your life what ever you do
relax have fun it's sexy and cool

So.....Did I get another job after that new year suprise???
Well yes of course I did...
But was it a good one..
In truth that remains to be seen

What a time it's been

So off I went and tried out for other welding jobs...I got them - piece of cake
but an inteesting thing happened. Neck pain....serious neck pain.
A few days later I explained my pain to some one and heard my own words.
"I'm having trouble supporting the weight of my own head"

It occurred to me that I was "thinking heavy"

The focus was all money / work etc.
But I'd had no holiday, Hadn't spent the time I'd planned with friends and parents on camping trips.
None of the softer things in life.

So I looked in some completely new directions for work under the heading "community & sport"
I got a few ideas and managed to confuse myself a little more.
I decided to honour my souls needs and spend time camping with friends and family.
I found a very wild place that seemed to empower me.
full of mountain views across the sea...wild seas, jagged rocks, snakes, foxes, eels, sting rays, wild dogs, eagles, deer, rabbits and so on.
I went fishing and slept on the beach beneath a truly awe inspiring array of stars, sometimes loosing all my kit for a dip in the cold waters, finding deep peace in the burning embers of camp fires and slow sinking sunsets that colored the sky a magic and amazing combination of pinks and oranges that made me feel small in a way that I cherished.

I came back home with head and heart in unison.

I'm no longer a metal worker/ welder as a proffession (perhaps I still will be as an artist)
Goodbye to the noisey smokey environments..of daily grind...
Further more I needed a job where I made a difference and worked with people.
This week after trying out with 5 of Australias top health clubs I am in training with whom I believe to be the best for me and vice versa

My new role...
Gym membership consultant.
selling the benefits of a healthy lifestyle to people of many ages and walks of life.

I now feel I'm doing something within my true nature that is also in line with my life coaching studies.

The pay is somewhat lower but my heart and soul are immensely lighter and happier.
I ask you..

What price would you pay for that?

So perhaps we do have to work it, but not always agressively..
So many people say "Use your head" or "Listen to your heart"
but in truth isn't a combination of both?

Last November / december seemed so hard.
I never would have percieved that I would take 2 months off in the new year and begin a new career in health and fitness.

I'm quietly overjoyed.
P.S. Finally got a good girl in my life too...and wouldn't you know it....She's as smart as they come
(lawyer) and a yoga teacher in training.

Thank you life. Thank you for everything

There is a pace at which life flows
At which weeds grow
The sun sets
Water flows
Nature is always moving
Sometimes fast, sometimes slow
Breathing....., immaculately......"in"...."out"....
with certainty

I love life

Storming / calming / challenging / soothing

disarming

Please:
Be aware, poised, relaxed

READY

Change is what you know

Work within these confines
A part of nature; you are...
...forget this never...
Ground down, power up!
And let your shit flow

;-)

Oh..hey it's 12:49am..it's my birthday (And a full moon)
No wonder I'm writing crazy shit.
I love you all tribers...Thanks for being part of my growth in 2007

Keep on brinin' it

88-year-old British grandfather to star in British ballet
By THE ASSOCIATED PRESS
Saturday, January 12, 2008

LONDON - An 88-year-old Briton is perfecting his pirouettes in preparation for his debut as a ballet dancer in Prokofiev’s "The Stone Flower."

John Lowe, a grandfather of 11, began ballet dancing nine years ago after his daughter became a professional dancer.

Now he is scheduled to perform Sunday at The Maltings theatre in Ely, about 120 kilometres north of London.

According to Lowe there is nothing effeminate about ballet dancing.

He says a person has to be incredibly fit to do ballet and that personally, it gives him a wonderful feeling.

Lowe adds that he always wanted to dance and that it’s never too late to learn.

WAY TO GO GRANDPA!!!

Ph.call New Years eve...discussing upcoming jury duty with my employment agent. At the end of the conversation he says. I got some bad news... "They (the company I served for a year incl. extra unpaid team strategies) want you to finish up"

I'm employed on a permanent/casual basis. You can get a ph.call anyday...

Oh!!!!!!!!!! Did they say why???

"No I was hoping you'd be able to shed some light on the situation for me"

Well I'd only be guessing...

And so began new years eve for me... The thought of having to find new work permeating my new years celebrations..

Although a little annoying....Everyone else is like "OH THAT'S TERRIBLE - WHY???? DID THEY GIVE YOU A REASON???"

As a life coach in training I'd like to share some things with you.
I let the emotions run...without geting swallowed up by them... You gotta be natural...I was dissapointed

Then the reasoning processes kick in. There's no looking back. that'll waste valuable time. I had been unsatisfied with being put on rotating shifts..and told myself I was going to have to do something about the situation anyway..

"Don't spend too long on this negative emotion - what's done is done. Look forward to what you must do and really want"

Currently. I feel calm................Believe in myself and would like to share an outlook that has taken me from some one who used to get panick attacks in this kinda situation to what is best summed up in a response that just came out the other day.

"If that's how they treat people I can't even call this a b l e s s i n g i n d i s g u i s e I really feel that it's only a BLESSING ."

I currently practice daily grattitude for what that job gave me in 2007. There's much to be grateful for. In doing this I believe in the possibility of moving into an even better job.

Put it out there - feel it with your heart. then use you head and body. Get into action.

Knock up a plan....and make a start...Never hold onto a dimminishing resource.

Resolve to turn your dissapointments into passionate energy! DO NOT GIVE AN INCH TO DESPAIR DURING THESE TIMES

The world is full of opportunity.

Just as I was typing another ph.call came in...with a test on Monday. If I pass it's staright into a new job on that day!

I'll fire off some CV's tonight just as a back up....I can believe all I want, but nothing is certain.

It's friday here...so once that's done I'll "let go"..enjoy my weekend camping with family and friends.

In the immortal words of glamour photographers all round the globe...You gotta "work it baby work it!"

(Shining stars tribe - recent response...)


A cool girlfriend once said something to me I really liked....We'd been on a beach and walked back into town..She said "Look at all those people Jed. Everyone of them is sex."

I smiled and giggled for a second , and was like..."Whadda ya mean??"

She said: "Well everyone of them came from a moment of passion when a man and woman came together...(she didn't elaborate on particulars and or exceptions)

.... "That's a lot of sex..right there in front of us!!!".....

She then got me to imagine different people who were walking in front of us naked and having sex..Like "that man with the woman at the bus stop!"

It was really quite fun.

we laughed so much, but it was so true
Sex is such a natural force and just as people might look different , see different, sound different and so on..
So too will they express themselves in their own unique sexual way...

It's true...some religions and cultures have played and continue to play their role in down grading one of the most natural and unstoppable occurances we come into this world with.

As a guy I feel who ever created this awesome set up we call life knew what they were doing... I mean all the beautiful and wonderous shapes and sizes that woman come in with their amazingly feminine souls and personalities too... I can only ever guess at what they feel when they observe us men...

Sex was always meant to provoke emotion and emotion is a terrific way of learning spirituality......

You don't have to look far to find so called priests and spiritual leaders and also agressive fear based personalities who've engaged in perverse ab-usive kinds of sexual acts on defenseless minors and so on.

Almost always sexual supression was a part of their conditioning.

Open your eyes and heart and see yourself naturally.

You are given a sex and are not only completely safe and allowed to express it.
You are absolutely free to enjoy it.
That's why it's called "The joys of sex"

Next time your having sex whether your going it alone, as a couple or in a group I hope you give it a truly happy and comfortable meaning.

There are times when we must stand alone, not one of us can say, "I've never had a fall."

I've learned a lesson to stand better, when each friend leaves as they must.
to follow their own path, leaving us seemingly with nothing... but the gravel & the dust.

And no one is an island. Where do you place your trust?

I've stood tall with naught but nature and my love is rarely lost

But it is truly by my friends that I'm most deeply touched.

Sometimes we all need space, May I never mistake friendship for a crutch.

So may I never be tossed & thrown to choose only one way....in moments feeling small..

I thank nature, my love for life and friends most of all..

Blessed upon me varyingly, they keep me feeling tall

I was working in the garden last weekend and had left the side gate open. I was vigourously hacking away at a vine that grows quicker than you can say "jack n the bean-stalk". (It's been pulling apart the roof of my shed so I decided it was time for a cut back...)

I was startled to hear a voice behind me.

I spun around to see a very old lady saying Hello to me..

Turned out she was an aquaintance of my aunts who I'm house sitting for.....She chewed my ear off chatting away in the fashion that elderly people do. I was a little annoyed to be held back from my gardening but reminded myself that I'd be old one day too.....and so..
Relaxed... and listened.

The sun was setting anyway......... and I wasn't gonna get more work done.

She looked good with that golden sun on her skin.......

I noticed her posture was very good for her years. This compelled me to look deeper into her eyes as I often like to do, sussing out people's life energies... She was still spritely for sure!

Some how she got onto the topic of understanding what other people are going through...saying that "people say I know exactly what you are going through..But they don't!" She insisted "or they tell you to just get over it - but what do they know???"

Whether I agreed with her or not. I liked her passion and tone...

We threw a few conversational things back and forth and figuring
"there are no accidents"
I began to accept and wonder why this woman had walked down my drive and was now having this deep conversation with me.....

I didn't come to any immediate conclusions as I was focused on listening to her and responding genuinely.

There is one thing that stuck out though...

She said:

Hurt people, hurt people.

.....it keeps resonating with me...

I've been doing chakra research recently and found a good healer in the process...
We did a session today...where I had to admit that for all my knowledge and good will, I was still struggling with forgiveness towards some one. Still struggling to see "a way" of communicating both to myself and towards that person (or the memory of that person)..in a way that would facilitate true peace and forgiveness. true freedom and acceptance. true letting go of the pain and the blame...

Hurt people, hurt people...

Sometimes it's enough to know that fact, and make some allowances

removing the daggers and healing the heart
hurt people hurt people.
there IS a path
making allowances, makes room to see,
makes room to breathe
Room for you to be you,
and me to be me.
Where I can forgive you
and you can forgive me.
Hurt people, hurt people..
it's ok....
Now I see....



Thank you old lady, ...while I was chopping the vine...

We often teach what we most need to learn;

Here's a poem as much for me as anyone else who might glean a little gem from it.

" I F "

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs & blaming it on you.
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you
But make allowance for their doubting too
If you can wait & not be tired by waiting
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies.
Or being hated, don't give way to hating
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise
If you can dream and not make dreams your master,
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
and treat those two imposters just the same
If you can think and not make thoughts your aim,
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken
And stoop & build 'em up with worn-out tools

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of a pitch & toss
And lose & start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart & nerve & sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will, which says to them:
"Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds & keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you,
but none too much,
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth & everything's that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man,
my son!

-Rudyard Kipling-