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Takeshi

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joined on 12/14/08
last updated 04/07/09
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Who I am

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Age
29
about me
I live in the rich landscape of North Wales (Gogledd Cymru). My home is the town of Wrexham, a place of differences between welsh and english. the town was built around the parish church which was likely placed here as some kind of outpost at the great dykes "watts dyke" and "offas Dyke".

I came to Tribe in search for some meaning of a symbol i was given by the angels of this earth. I have since come to understand it as the symbol for "yggdrasil" the world tree, which in turn is symbolic of creation. while discovering the meaning of the symbol I came to understand my nature in relation to this concept. I feel that my role is that of mediator.
I get the sense that I was a member of the ancient race that many would associate with atlantis. this feeling links in with the starseed idea of reptilians and felines, where I would be characterised as amphibian.
I have no clues of any previous lives on this earth and i do feel very old, spiritually, so I am unsure where that places me. It matters not right now, I have become comfortable with the idea of mediator and I also feel it is important to remain grounded. I feel like i need to remain materialistic for the time being. I have a task to complete on this earth so I want to concentrate on that.

for those of you who find this all a little hard to swallow, I feel the same way. all of this can be viewed through whatever medium makes you feel comfortable, fiction, metaphor, factual, whichever suits you. I say it how i feel it, but i have a good sensibility and know that many ideas and concepts can be confusing and can represent many different things. i'm not loopy enough that i can't admit that these ideas could be the fabrications of an overactive imagination. :P

I run a forum at www.japan-legend.com where we celebrate Japanese media. I love the Japanese culture, the atitude they have towards life is one that i can relate to very strongly.
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my brother has had a lot of messed up relationships and there is this child that was supposedly his but then people said it wasn't and oh, so much hassle with always his messed up girlfriends and their friends causing problems and shit.
so now all of a sudden he has decide that he has a daughter.
I felt pretty upset at the prospect of having a niece..
but i am so pissed off now.
the next day he disappeared and never said another word to me. i have guessed through overhearing many thing... read more
Wed, August 26, 2009 - 8:39 PM permalink - 1 comment
 
this is pretty wierd.
just recently i have suddenly found that i don't want to play my xbox. I feel like i'm fed up with everything.
i feel almost as though i'm on a knifes edge, tv programmes are what is keepig me company mostly now and i don't seem to be in a good mood. i feel a little depressed by some things and i am trying to work out what i want and what will raise my energy. however, as well as getting slight depressive episodes, I get slight episodes of joy. things and ideas that ... read more
Sun, July 5, 2009 - 8:00 PM permalink - 1 comment
 
I believe very strongly that in order to move through issues, we must accept our emotions, then move through them.
if we push away the emotions, it cause us problems, so we must einstead live with them. speak our mind in times when we can do so.
then we can move onto forgiveness.
for i believe it is impossible to forgive a transgression without first accepting the reality of it.
i felt anger recently. I have not felt that emotion for as long as i can remember.
I think it has done me ... read more
Fri, April 17, 2009 - 9:41 AM permalink - 2 comments
 
I had always blamed any problems in my life on my father. the man i never knew.
all the trouble i have had and problems I had.. I figured.. my father left when i was 3, so anything i experienced before then, mus be the cause of so many of my issues.
but I was wrong.
It's her.
I can't believe my mother is such a selfish bitch.
she purposely pushed away her entire family so we all go crawling back to her. she neglected me and my brothers so we would become needy and clingy so we woul... read more
Thu, April 16, 2009 - 7:38 AM permalink - 5 comments
 
My screenname was originally "Neil" but i decided to switch to my chosen name.
Takeshi has the same basic meaning as Neil.
'Neil' is Celtic for 'Warrior'.
'Takeshi' is Japanese for 'Warrior'.
I have chosen a Japanese name for msyelf because i plan to move to Japan and become a Japanese citizen.
In order to do so, I will need to take on a japanese name. that is the law.

so if i am on your friends list and you are thinking "who is that?" then the answer is "Neil".
but call me Take... read more
Fri, March 13, 2009 - 11:03 PM permalink - 2 comments
 
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My Recent Activity

Re: out of body? (in Shamanism) that sounds quite scary.
darkness and emptiness.

i guess it depends on your frame of mind.
discussion post on Fri, November 6, 2009 - 4:24 PM
Re: out of body? (in Shamanism) i'm not sure what a sensory deprivation is.
but i always liked the idea of trying some intense type of ritual like a heat lodge.
discussion post on Thu, November 5, 2009 - 8:11 PM
Re: Belief Structures / Enforment System (in Shamanism) }}}so then, Shamanism would be a religion? Most Shaman follow certain rules and practice rituals {{{

you make a fair point, but i think that many known as shaman, may do very different rituals to each other.
I think that to define it more, I ... read more
discussion post on Wed, November 4, 2009 - 6:41 PM
Re: out of body? (in Shamanism) today I experienced a similar thing.

before i awoke, i was aware of my body, but it was different.
in this state, I was not completely 'tied in' to my body. it was as though i was aware of it as a system that i control.
like getting into a... read more
discussion post on Wed, November 4, 2009 - 6:13 PM
Re: Belief Structures / Enforment System (in Shamanism) this makes me think of something i thought the other day.

religion is not a belief or group of beliefs, it's system of rules and rituals.

a belief is just our way of making sense of the things we experience.
it doesn't matter what you be... read more
discussion post on Wed, November 4, 2009 - 6:10 PM
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i decided to follow my feelings on the chakra system and produce this on the vitruvian man.