I just wanted to say "HAPPY MONDAY!"

love,
Jane

I think I am almost recovered from the best New Year's experience I have ever had. What I thought was going to be an intimate gathering of a few friends, turned into a full blown party of about 30 people, a cosmic space dog, tons and tons of food, rockin' drum beats, AND...I FINALLY GOT MY NIPPLES PIERCED!!! So, the party came to an end the afternoon of the 2nd lol I love my peoples.

I got an email today from an old friend who I recently re-connected with. Parts of it are so cute/funny, I just have to share. Number 9 is my favorite lol Here it is........


MISTY WATER COLORED MEMORIES


1. You played house with me when I was he only little kid in the neighborhood, and i always made you be the baby so i could take care of you.

2. every time you blew bubbles i popped them.

3. i took your wheelchair apart when you gave me rides on the back.

4. i gave you constant headaches because i screamed for the first five years of my life.

5. i stole your dog.

6. geneva-on-the-lake i met your evil twin.

9. you taught me what one dollar bills were made for.

11. we don't play house anymore but i really do take care of you "at least i used to"

12. we discovered that plastic wrap does hold up if your driving 60 miles an hour.

14. and the parties...ops can't put that in writing untill i'm 18. "hey i'm 24 now"

15. midnight maddness at jo-ann fabrics...hey, is that
_ _ _ _?

16. mac & cheese and rocky horror sundays rule! "i really miss that"

It started out fabulously. I was with some of my most beloved friends…and a scary dog that I feared would eat me in my sleep. When I awoke on New Year’s Day with all my limbs in tact and a Play Boy in hand, I knew I’d survive anything in the year to come and be able to smile about it.

Building my career as an Herbalist has continued to be the main focus of my energy this year. My efforts have been fruitful and I feel blessed to be making money by doing what truly gives me the greatest natural high. I don’t “treat patients.” I don’t “diagnose.” I empower people with information so they can take their well-being into their own hands.

In the early spring, I began a very important new project with a new friend. This project is a documentary about me and certain events in my life. Throughout my entire life, people have thanked me for inspiring them because as a person with a disability I’m such a “pioneer.” For years that comment simply baffled me. I often countered in frustration with “Why do I have to be the first person with a disability to do everything?” Duhh, Jane… I get to be the first person with a disability to attend the schools that I have attended, dance at the clubs I’ve danced at, modeled for the artists I have modeled, ravished the boys I’ve…well, you get the point…because I am who I am. Motivating and inspiring others is what motivates and inspires me. My goal with this film is to inspire others to be themselves and live life to the fullest extent of their abilities. I have total faith in the Universe, the creative genius behind the camera, and myself, that this film will be a success and lead to even greater things.

June 1st, my heart was shattered into millions of tiny, jagged pieces. For a couple of days I felt like my world was spinning out of control and all I could do was cry. For a long time, I thought if I cried, the world would somehow come to an end. Pretty conceited, huh? Well, the world continued to rotate through my sniveling and sobbing. Fortunately, my spirit is indestructible and I was able to turn some of my emotional chaos into order and come up with a survival plan. For the first time ever, I became my own number one priority.

Sirius Rising/Starwood…amazing. I can’t think of a more perfect place to heal, even if no one knows that you’re wounded. It’s like being submerged in a huge puddle of warm and fuzzy love! I felt more in touch with the Universe this year than in years past. Every time I needed a kind word, a hug, or a tire change…someone appeared in anticipation of fulfilling my current need.

September 4th…moving day. As much as I tried to focus on my new adventure ahead, the feelings of loss and failure consumed me. My perspective regarding the whole situation is much more positive now that I’ve worked through a lot of the emotional funk. I don’t need to be sad that I moved out of my dream house and didn’t take the only partner I’ve ever known with me. I can smile and be happy that I did live in my dream house and I can find joy in building a different kind of relationship with him. I’ve also learned that being on my own does not mean I have to be alone…and, I am much stronger than I ever gave myself credit for.

So, 2007 has been a roller coaster of year. Many lessons were learned. Much love and numerous blessings were received. I am grateful for all the amazing people in my life. Come on 2008! I’m ready to roll!

Namaste’,
Jane

My 18 yr old kitty cat laid in my arms yesterday, as she took her last breath and went to the Light. She took a good chunk of my heart with her. I'm still trying to get used to living somewhere without Him. Now my second security blanket is gone...my kitty. Miss Oliver saw me through many transitions. I swear she kept me safe as a child...my sanity anyway. Now it's just me. These are the times that I feel small...