Portland is just a dream come true. So many interesting and lovely people. So many green and wonderful spots to sit and contemplate just how divine existance can be ...... :) Off now to smoke a bit more

I just arrived in Portland and am (I KNOW PATHETIC) looking for friends. Look at my profile and if you think we could be a mix - give me a shout:)

This past week has plagued me with uncertainties. Do I go to the Sivananda Ashram, help build the buddhist temple near Berkeley, rent a place in Portland, stay in PA, etc. $$$$ is weighing in on these decisions but like a beacon a guy in Portland offers his couch. I doubt I will need to accept his -so so so kind - offer but it boulsters my resolve.

It's all good:)

Last month, being in a very good mental place, I saw my life for what it was and very quickly went about changing it. Most of it was unsalvagable (Job, some friends, lover, old lover, older lover, gay ghetto I lived in (Lauderdale). Donated all of my junk - packed a duffel and jumped on Greyhound. Came to PA to visit family before heading west. That was sort of a mistake:) I fell back into my old roles very quickly. Soon I was smoking cigarettes again, drinking vodca and being a bit fea... read more