*this is about a boy I can't seem to forget

Why is that you still haunt my dreams,
I welcome reality
I cant escape you it seems,
Sensibility tells me I'm alright now,
These thoughts of you drown me,
Breakfree
I don't know how,
Responsiblity tells me stop living in the past,
The fight for control against my thoughts and emotions,
It's almost within my grasp,
Why were you not so easily daunted?
Am I the only left in torment,
I wish it were me who haunted you till it was your energy that were
spent,
Spent trying to erase my image from your head,
I remember the way you sounded and all the things you said,
Who greater a fool than I to be so sure there was more,
How ridiculous and naive I was then when I met you at the age of 1
and 4,
Bitter am I now
Disturbingly disheartened,
Oh what sorrow
The heavy load never lightens,
you and me, me and you these thoughts race across my mind,
Trekking, Trekking its gets harder,
There is something I need to find,
I don't know what it is but I need to find it soon,
How sad it is to dance everyday to such a mournful tune,
I want to forget
I need to forget
I want to forget your name,
Because everytime I think of you all that's left is pain..