drowning in it now
i wanted you to hurt
feel it like i did
feel dead like me
but not this
i never meant it to be this ...
after all the words, the wishing, hoping
i take it back!
cant i take it back?
couldnt stand to look at you
in the end
could barely meet your eyes
when you said goodbye
and now
cant see you
cant look
cant bring myself to even imagine
you laying there
in that bed
sterile room
tubes and wires
unmoving flesh
what would i say?
im so sorry
sounds as cheap now from my lips
as it did then from yours
what now?
pray you'll wiggle a finger? a toe?
selfishly pray for forgiveness for wishing you pain?
maybe just wallow in the guilt?
wish i could tell you now the things i knew then
wish you could know my tears are for you
but there are no words
even if i could speak to you
even if i could look at you one more time
but i cant
and we both know why

"the earth is a conductor of accoustical resonance."

"good news! both my legs are broken, so they cant take me straight to jail!"

"i dont know what it is, i just fucking hate palm trees!"

"come on jack, you brought your tesla coil all the way down here in your little red wagon, tell me about it."

"i may be love's bitch, but at least im man enough to admit it!"

"just because we share DNA doesnt mean i have to like you."

"'any last words?' 'yeah, if i die tell them i said something deep and clever.'"

"i'm not good or real, i'm evil and imaginary."