i never imagined i would feel this way about missing BM 05. i sit in front of the screen, look at the pictures put up by folks i met on the playa last year, again and again, like the way you drink water on the playa, and i fell this pain .. like after a broken relation which meant a lot as the past images float up golden hued by the past and nostalgia and that is how i feel like for missing bm. i didnt go because i am writing my thesis and trying to finish, now i cant type a line in my thesis as the fire and blinky lights of the playa spin around in my brain and life seems so empty now that bm passed me by. yes there is next year but it seems so far away.