Dear Gentle men-
I am impressed with the maturity evident in each of you. There is something to aging-passing the 24 year mark and moving into adult-ness.
You all manage to retain your youthfulness--that is essential.

Your love for one another is evident, vital, supportive, and magical.
The influence you have on one another is intense.
By being aware of how your emotions, attitudes, and decisions affect one another, you take responsibility for the friendship/tribe connection.
Thank you for being the wonderful, magical hearts you are.
I am honored to know you.

I am compelled to communicate my feelings and impressions as stimulated by visiting with Raighan and Ilian this week.

I do understand the feelings I see in Raighan, feel from Ilian, and hear in Johnny.
In the past,I have breathed fear so completely it has left me paralyzed, infected my children, made me useless and selfishly neurotic, and caused me to miss a whole lot of delight.
I could have appreciated my days by changing my perspective.
I could have focused on the blessings and deliciousness of my life.
I could have had fun!
I wasted a lot of time and energy, infected those I love most---and, was not pleasant or nourishing for those around me.
...regrettable......

In the past, I was where you are......expecting apocalypse, tomorrow, or tomorrow, or, certainly, tomorrow (but, please, not yet.....)in the past...., self absorbed in my "intellectual mind" ,and vibrating with anticipation of disaster that gave me purpose.

There was a sense of appreciation for the starving children in Ethiopia, and the orphans of Kosovo, because I could care enough about them and their plight to find purpose in raising awareness of those issues. ....a convoluted "compassion" that is fucked up. I had something to teach others.
I had something to do---I could worry.
I had purpose because I cared.
It has come up in my work for young Veterans--the sense of "purpose"...
I see you in their faces, and I know I can make a difference by sharing what I have, as I share my love, and my comforts with you.
I wish to help them recognize their value and purpose, and give them opportunity to improve their world after they have destroyed it.
Because they will share the planet with you, I choose them healthy.
That is logical.
That is being a parent.

Raighan tells me he is "having a vasectomy and you can't stop me. It is my decision."
I imagine this thought--to be "socially responsible" -- is influenced by the state of the world, and a determination to avoid adding more "trauma" to an overburdened planet.
Commendable intention.
Dramatic action.
Self-centered action that negates regard for the choices of the woman with whom Raighan may choose to share his life.
Self centered youthful reaction that disregards the man Raighan will be in 5/10/20 years.
It is a dramatic action for a "maybe" circumstance.
It is a decision that can be deeply deeply regretted, affect loving relationships, deny instinct.
It has the potential to add more trauma to another..

Johnny---you are influencing your friends, my children.
The influence is educational, stimulating, and intelligent.
And, your fear is stimulating Raighan's fear.
You reflect it back and forth to one another, and that constant frame of reference magnifies the panic.
Because you are so focused on the fear, you are both MISSING THE MOMENT!!!!!!
and, your fear is stimulating dis-ease in you and those who relate with you--friends, lovers, customers, the suffering humanity you wish to relieve.
You are adding to the pain.

STOP IT !!!!
really.....get a grip and knock it the fuck off!!!

You are wasting your talents, your energy, your love.
You are infecting those you care for most.
You are gnawing yourself up from the inside, and frightening your friends.
You are missing your Life !!!!!!!

LIFE IS WONDERFUL !!!!!

STOP MISSING IT !!!!!!

STOP NOURISHING A NEGATIVE VIEW OF LIFE !!!!!!

BE ENTHUSIASTIC !!!!

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL !!!!!!!


LIVE IT


How to do that:
Breathe.....
Just for a moment-

simple enough

Breathe deeply and be alive

Feel where you are.
Be present.

Feel the people around you.

Remember those who love you.

Feel the love you say you have for them....for your sweetheart...... your friends.....your planet.....

BREATHE

and breathe again
just for a moment,
let go the panic

You are here, and there is a purpose in that.
When you are afraid, and focus on the Possibles as horrid and inevitable, you create that yuk......
You become the Master Crafter of all you fear...the Master of all you desire....

How about readjusting your crafting?

How might that affect the Peace you say you wish for the planet?

How disappointed will you be if the chaos and pain is gone??

What will you do?????

What is your value to anyone if the world is a comfortable, healthy place to be?

Why have you had to feel so disgustingly horrible for so long, if there is Hope, and Ease????

What is the purpose of your Life if there is no purpose for your battle???

If you believe and know that you are part of GOD, and in that you are responsible for everyone and everything, why are you continuing to create so much pain???

The dis-ease and angst you cultivate within manifests externally.
Why are you expending so much energy creating what you despise????

We are at the tipping point.
You are a catalyst for the change you wish to see.
You ARE the change you wish to see.
Be extraordinary!
Start living it!

For the sake of my children, and my children's children---for the sake of beautiful Abijahs and magical babies that are coming onto this planet now....for GOD's sake:

CHANGE YOUR PERSPECTIVE !!!!!!

pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeease............

Because I love my children more than any other element in this world and I see their purpose, I request you be a Hopeful, Enthusiastic, Alive influence.

BE AS PASSIONATE ABOUT LIFE AS YOU HAVE BEEN ABOUT TRAUMA

The mission of my children is to create a better world. Their task is to open their hearts so wide the brilliance of their love reaches into darkness, reminds others of their own brilliance, and stimulates Divine recognition in mass quantity.
There is a purpose for each of them--and there is a REASON I birthed them.
I did not WANT to have children.
It was THE BEST thing I ever, ever did.
They have been my greatest teachers, and have helped me grow into a decent human being.
They are my reason for being. And, I will battle Darkness and Dis-ease when I see it clouding their Knowing.
It is no small feat the Markowitles are tasked with achieving.
It WILL be fun and easy....

Each Tribester in your hearts is here to create a better world with you.
We are here to reflect the Divinity of others back to them--to share reflection of God-ness in one another.
We are here to create a Divine reality.
Start tapping into it.
It requires a conscious adjustment of perception, action, and reaction.

Put as much effort into shining your God-ness as you have put into creating a successful business, planting the ultimate garden, building the best Burning Man camp.

For the sake of my children....and your mother's child,.....and other mothers' children......PLEASE focus on the beauty in your life. Share that with the rest of us.

SEE HOW DELICIOUSLY NOURISHING YOUR LIFE ALREADY IS !!!!!!!

Whining time is officially over. Get your Life!!!!!


with sincere respect and great affection,
the momowitz