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I Am Waiting By Lawrence Ferlinghetti

Jeannie — Fri, 14 Aug 2009 23:49:15 GMT

I am waiting for my case to come up and I am waiting for a rebirth of wonder and I am waiting for someone to really discover America and wail and I am waiting for the discovery Of a new symbolic western frontier and I am waiting for the American Eagle to really spread its wings and straighten up and fly right and I am waiting for the Age of Anxiety to drop dead and I am waiting for the war to be fought which will make the world safe for anarchy and I am waiting for the final withering away of all governments and I am perpetually awaiting a rebirth of wonder I am waiting for the second coming And I am waiting For a religious revival To sweep thru the state of Arizona And I am waiting For the grapes of wrath to stored And I am waiting For them to prove That God is really American And I am waiting To see God on television Piped into church altars If they can find The right channel To tune it in on And I am waiting for the last supper to be served again and a strange new appetizer and I am perpetually awaiting a rebirth of wonder I am waiting for my number to be called and I am waiting for the Salvation Army to take over and I am waiting for the meek to be blessed and inherit the earth without taxes and I am waiting for forests and animals to reclaim the earth as theirs and I am waiting for a way to be devised to destroy all nationalisms without killing anybody and I am waiting for linnets and planets to fall like rain and I am waiting for lovers and weepers to lie down together again in a new rebirth of wonder I am waiting for the great divide to be crossed and I anxiously waiting For the secret of eternal life to be discovered By an obscure practitioner and I am waiting for the storms of life to be over and I am waiting to set sail for happiness and I am waiting for a reconstructed Mayflower to reach America with its picture story and TV rights sold in advance to the natives and I am waiting for the lost music to sound again in the Lost Continent in a new rebirth of wonder I am waiting for the day that maketh all things clear and I am waiting for retribution for what America did to Tom Sawyer and I am waiting for the American Boy to take off Beauty's clothes and get on top of her and I am waiting for Alice in Wonderland to retransmit to me her total dream of innocence and I am waiting for Childe Roland to come to the final darkest tower and I am waiting for Aphrodite to grow live arms at a final disarmament conference in a new rebirth of wonder I am waiting to get some intimations of immortality by recollecting my early childhood and I am waiting for the green mornings to come again for some strains of unpremeditated art to shake my typewriter and I am waiting to write the great indelible poem and I am waiting for the last long rapture and I am perpetually waiting for the fleeting lovers on the Grecian Urn to catch each other at last and embrace and I am awaiting perpetually and forever a renaissance of wonder

Billy Collins poem

Jeannie — Sat, 28 Mar 2009 20:32:29 GMT

I see I haven't blogged in almost a year ---but it's been a good year. happy with spring and new beginnings. This is just a poem that I really like. Choping Some Parsley While Listening To Art Blakey's Version Of "Three Blind Mice" And I start wondering how they came to be blind. If it was congenital, they could be brothers and sister, and I think of the poor mother brooding over her sightless young triplets. Or was it a common accident, all three caught in a searing explosion, a firework perhaps? If not, if each came to his or her blindness separately, how did they ever manage to find one another? Would it not be difficult for a blind mouse to locate even one fellow mouse with vision let alone two other blind ones? And how, in their tiny darkness, could they possibly have run after a farmer's wife or anyone else's wife for that matter? Not to mention why. Just so she could cut off their tails with a carving knife, is the cynic's answer, but the thought of them without eyes and now without tails to trail through the moist grass or slip around the corner of a baseboard has the cynic who always lounges within me up off his couch and at the window trying to hide the rising softness that he feels. By now I am on to dicing an onion which might account for the wet stinging in my own eyes, though Freddie Hubbard's mournful trumpet on "Blue Moon," which happens to be the next cut, cannot be said to be making matters any better.

Summer time and the living is easy

Jeannie — Thu, 26 Jun 2008 04:43:12 GMT

Winter was great ! Very mild for the most part and I've been very happy. Looking forward to some 'tree time' in the Sierra and a return to Backpacking. (He he ;-) we'll see how that goes as it's been a few years) Figure I'll start with a very easy overnighter and build up. Happy Trails Jeannie

been a long time gone

Jeannie — Thu, 10 Jan 2008 23:48:24 GMT

been some time since my last blog and quite awhile since I've had good net access to even visit. So much has changed in a few short months- sold my home in June- completed a divorce soon after - bought a motor home - sold both pickups - traveled to San Diego to stay for the winter - got caught up in the fires.. lingered about and decided to return north in time for winter :-) Got settled in north Nevada again (still living in the motor home).. Have insulated to reasonable comfort level and tarped the RV for the leaks not to mention the two dozen tie downs for the wind that comes through here... .. very hillbilly Hilton but comfortable enough for the winter for me...... Picked up a temp commuter car until i can find a more suitable tow able small pickup. (I think that's the plan) wondering just exactly it is I'm doing - where going- what life do I want to build and where... i suspect these answers will come as my spirit catches up with me... Good to be back on tribe though- feel at least virtual connection. Cheers and .. happy 2008

Todays tune

Jeannie — Tue, 03 Oct 2006 18:13:49 GMT

"One day I walk in flowers One day I walk on stones Today I walk in hours One day I shall be home" - Bruce cockburn

Sierra Dreams

Jeannie — Tue, 22 Aug 2006 19:58:36 GMT

Amazing Sierra trip !! Drove home just how much I need to make changes that bring me to this mountain 'home' more often. Keeping faith and intent. :-)

The shame of our generation

Jeannie — Fri, 04 Aug 2006 01:08:20 GMT

I went to lake Tahoe and did get the relief of being in the trees I needed, but was really saddened at the quantity of trash everywhere. It is beyond me how anyone could come to such a beautiful place and treat it like a toilet. Beer cans, bottles, cartons, socks, hundreds of cigarette butts, pieces of Styrofoam coolers. And bags of trash, food wrappers etc. In only 10 minutes without even trying my pack was full of trash to take out with so much more still left on the trail.

THE BIRD AND THE MACHINE

Jeannie — Fri, 24 Feb 2006 18:44:16 GMT

THE BIRD AND THE MACHINE By Loren Eiseley I suppose their little bones have years ago been lost among the stones and winds of those high glacial pastures. I suppose their feathers blew eventually into the piles of tumbleweed beneath the straggling cattle fences and rotted there in the mountain snows, along with dead steers and all the other things that drift to an end in the corners of the wire. I do not quite know why, I should be thinking of birds over the New York Times at breakfast, particularly the birds of my youth half a continent away. It is a funny thing what the brain will do with memories and how it will treasure them and finally bring them into odd juxtapositions with other things, as though it wanted to make a design, or get some meaning out of them, whether you want it or not, or even see it. It used to seem marvelous to me, but I read now that there are machines that can do these things in a small way, machines that can crawl about like animals, and that it may not be long now until they do more things - maybe even make themselves - I saw that piece in the Times just now. And then they will, maybe - well, who knows-but you read about it more and more with no one making any protest, and already they can add better than we and reach up and hear things through the dark and finger the guns over the night sky. This is the new world that I read about at breakfast. This is the world that confronts me in my biological books and journals, until there are times when I sit quietly in my chair and try to hear the little purr of the cogs in my head and the tubes flaring and dying as the messages go through them and the circuits snap shut or open. This is the great age, make no mistake about it; the robot has been born somewhat appropriately along with the atom bomb, and the brain they say now is just another type of more complicated feedback system. The engineers have its basic principles worked out; it’s mechanical, you know; nothing to get superstitions about; and man can always improve on nature once he gets the idea. Well, he’s got it all right and that’s why, I guess, that I sit here in my chair, with the article crunched in my hand, remembering those two birds and that blue mountain sunlight. There is another magazine article on my desk that reads "Machines Are Getting Smarter Every Day." I don’t deny it, but I'll still stick with the birds. It’s life I believe in, not machines. Maybe you don’t believe there is any difference. A skeleton is all joints and pulleys, I’ll admit, and when man was in his simpler stages of machine building in the eighteenth century, he quickly, saw the resemblances. "What," wrote Hobbes, "is the heart but a spring, and the nerves but so many strings, and the joints but so many wheels, giving motion to the whole body?" Tinkering about in their shops it was inevitable in the end that men would see the world as a huge machine "subdivided into an infinite number of lesser machines." The idea took on with a vengeance. little automatons toured the country - dolls controlled by clock-work. Clocks described as little worlds were taken on tours by their designers. They were made up of moving figures, shifting scenes and other remarkable devices. The life of the cell was unknown. Man, whether he was conceived as possessing a soul or not, moved and jerked about like these tiny puppets. A human being thought of himself in terms of his own tools and implements. He had been fashioned like the puppets he produced and was only a more clever model made by a greater designer. Then in the nineteenth century, the cell was discovered, and the single machine in its turn was found to be the product of millions of infinitesimal machines -the cells. Now, finally, the cell itself dissolves away into an abstract chemical machine - and that into some intangible, inexpressible flow of energy. The secret seems to lurk all about, the wheels get smaller and smaller, and they turn more rapidly, but when you try to seize it the life is gone - and so, by popular definition, some would say that life was never there in the first place. The wheels and the cogs are the secret and we can make them better in time-machines that will run faster and more accurately than real mice to real cheese. I have no doubt it can be done, though a mouse harvesting seeds on an autumn thistle is to me a fine sight and more complicated, I think, in his multiform activity, than a machine "mouse” running a maze. Also, I like to think of the possible shape of the future brooding in mice, just as it brooded once in a rather ordinary, mousy insectivore who became a man. It leaves a nice fine indeterminate sense of wonder that even an electronic brain hasn’t got, because you know perfectly, well that if the electronic brain changes, it will be because of something man has done to it. But what man will do to himself he doesn’t really know. A certain scale of time and a ghostly, intangible thing called change are ticking in him. Powers and potentialities like the oak in the seed, or a red and awful ruin. Either way, it’s impressive; and the mouse has it, too. Or those birds, I'll never forget those birds-yet before I measured their significance, I learned the lesson of time first of all. I was young then and left alone in a great desert - part of an expedition that had scattered its men over several hundred miles in order to carry on research more effectively. I learned there that time is a series of planes existing superficially in the same universe. The tempo is a human, illusion, a subjective clock ticking in our own kind of protoplasm. As the long months passed, I began to live on the slower planes and to observe more readily what passed for life there. I sauntered, I passed more and more slowly up and down the canyons in the dry baking heat of midsummer. I slumbered for long hours in the shade of huge brown boulders that had gathered in tilted companies out on the flats. I had forgotten the world of men and the world had forgotten me. Now and then I found a skull in the canyons, and these justified my remaining there. I took a serene cold interest in these discoveries. I had come, like many a naturalist before me, to view life with a wary and subdued attention. I had grown to take pleasure in the divested bone. I sat once on a high ridge that fell away before me into a waste of sand dunes. I sat through hours of a long afternoon. Finally, as I glanced beside my boot an indistinct configuration caught my eye. It was a coiled rattlesnake, a big one. How long he had sat with me I do not know. I had not frightened him. We were both locked in the sleepwalking tempo of the earlier world, baking in the same high air and sunshine. Perhaps he had been there when I came. He slept on as I left, his coils, so ill discerned by me, dissolving once more among the stones and gravel from which I had barely made him out. Another time I got on a higher ridge among some tough little wind-warped pines half covered over with sand in a basin-like depression that caught everything carried by the air up to those heights. There were a few thin bones of birds, some cracked shells of indeterminable age, and the knotty fingers of pine roots bulged out of shape from their long and agonizing grasp upon the crevices of the rock. I lay under the pines in the sparse shade and went to sleep once more. It grew cold finally, for autumn was in the air by then, and the few things that lived thereabouts were sinking down into an even chillier scale of time. In the moments between sleeping and waking I saw the roots about me and slowly, slowly, a foot in what seemed many centuries, I moved my sleep-stiffened hands over the scaling bark and lifted my numbed face after the vanishing sun. I was a great awkward thing of knots and aching limbs, trapped up there in some long, patient endurance that involved the necessity of putting living fingers into rock and by slow, aching expansion bursting those rocks asunder. I suppose, so thin and slow was the time of my pulse by then, that I might have stayed on to drift still deeper into the lower cadences of the frost, or the crystalline life that glistens pebbles, or shines in a snowflake, or dreams in the meteoric iron between the worlds. It was a dim descent, but time was present in it. Somewhere far down in that scale the notion struck me that one might come the other way. Not many months thereafter I joined some colleagues heading higher into a remote windy tableland where huge bones were reputed to protrude like boulders from the turf. I had drowsed with reptiles and moved with the century-long pulse of trees; now lethargically, I was climbing back up some invisible ladder of quickening hours. There had been talk of birds in connection with my duties. Birds are intense, fast-living creatures-reptiles, I suppose one might say, that have escaped out of the heavy sleep of time, transformed fairy creatures dancing over sunlit meadows. It is a youthful fancy no doubt, but because of something that happened up there among the escarpments of that range, it remains with me a lifelong impression. I can never bear to see a bird imprisoned. We came into that valley, through the trailing mists of a spring night. It was a place that looked as though it might never have known the foot of man, but our scouts had been ahead of us and we knew all about the abandoned cabin of stone that lay far up on one hillside. It had been built in the land rush of the last century and then lost to the cattlemen again as the marginal soils failed to take to the plow. There were spots like this all over that country. Lost graves marked by unlettered stones and old corroding rim-fire cartridge cases lying where somebody had made a stand among the boulders that rimmed the valley. They are all that remain of the range wars; the men are under the stones now. I could see our cavalcade winding in and out through the mist below us: torches, the reflection of the truck lights on our collecting tins, and the far-off bumping of a loose dinosaur thigh bone in the bottom of a trailer. I stood on a rock a moment looking down and thinking what it cost in money and, equipment to capture the past. We had, in addition, instructions to lay hands on the present. The word had come through to get them alive - birds, reptiles, anything. A zoo somewhere abroad needed restocking. It was one of those reciprocal matters in which science involves itself. Maybe our museum needed a stray ostrich egg and this was the pay off. Anyhow, my job was to help capture some birds and that was why I was there before the trucks. The cabin bad not been occupied for years. We intended to clean it out and live in it, but there were holes in the roof and the birds had come in and were roosting in the rafters. You could depend on it in a place like this where everything blew away, and even a bird needed some place out of the weather and away from coyotes. A. cabin going back to nature in a wild place draws them until they come in, listing at the eaves, I imagine, pecking softly among the shingles till they find a hole and then suddenly, the place is theirs and man is forgotten. Sometimes of late years I find myself thinking the most beautiful sight in the world might be the birds taking over New York after the last man has ran away to the hills. I will never live to see it, of course, but I know just how it will sound because I've lived up high and I know the sort of watch birds keep on us. I've listened to sparrows tapping tentatively on the outside of air conditioners when they thought no one was listening, and I know how other birds test the vibrations that come up to them through the television aerials. "Is he gone?" they ask, and the vibrations come up from below, "Not yet, not yet." Well, to come back, I got the door open softly and I had the spotlight all ready to turn on and blind whatever birds there were so they couldn't see to get out through the roof. I had a short piece of ladder to put against the far wall where there was a shelf on which I expected to make the biggest haul. I had all the information I needed just like any skilled assassin. I pushed the door open, the hinges squeaking only a little. A bird or two stirred - I could hear them- but nothing flew and there was a faint starlight through the holes in the roof. I padded across the floor, got the ladder up and the light ready, and slithered up the ladder till my head and arms were over the shelf. Everything was dark as pitch except for the starlight at the little place back of the shelf near the eaves. With the light to blind them, they'd never make it. I had them. I reached my arm carefully over in order to be ready to seize whatever was there and I put the flash on the edge of the shelf where it would stand by itself when I turned it on. That way I'd be able to use both hands. Everything worked perfectly except for one detail -I didn't know what kind of birds were there. I never thought about it at all, and it wouldn’t have mattered if I had. My orders were to get something interesting. I snapped on the flash and sure enough there was a great beating and feathers flying, but instead of my having them, they, or rather he, had me. He had my hand, that is, and for a small hawk not much bigger than my fist he was doing all right. I heard him give one short metallic cry when the light went on and my hand descended on the bird beside him; after that he was busy with his claws and his beak was sunk in my thumb. In the struggle I knocked the lamp over on the shelf, and his mate got her sight back and whisked neatly through the hole in the roof and off among the stars outside. It all happened in fifteen seconds and you might think I would have fallen down the ladder, but no, I had a professional assassin’s reputation to keep up, and the bird, of course, made the mistake of thinking the hand was the enemy and not the eyes behind it. He chewed my thumb up pretty effectively and lacerated my hand with his claws, but in the end I got him, having two hands to work with. He was a sparrow hawk and a fine young male in the prime of life. I was sorry not to catch the pair of them, but as I dripped blood and folded his wings carefully, holding him by the back so that he couldn't strike again, I had to admit the two of them might have been more than I could have handled under the circumstances. The little fellow had saved his mate by diverting me, and that was that. He was born to it, and made no outcry now, resting in my hand hopelessly, but peering toward me in the shadows behind the lamp with a fierce, almost indifferent glance. He neither gave nor expected mercy and something out of the high air passed from him to me, stirring a faint embarrassment. I quit looking into that eye and managed to get my huge carcass with its fist full of prey back down the ladder. I put the bird in a box too small to allow him to injure himself by struggle and walked out to welcome the arriving trucks. It had been a long day, and camp still to make in the darkness. In the morning that bird would be just another episode. He would go back with the bones in the truck to a small cage in a city where he would spend the rest of his life. And a good thing, too. I sucked my aching thumb and spat out some blood. An assassin has to get used to these things. I had a professional reputation to keep up. In the morning, with the change that comes on suddenly in that high country, the mist that had hovered below us in the valley was gone. The sky was a deep blue, and one could see for miles over the high outcroppings of stone. I was up early and brought the box in which the little hawk was imprisoned out onto the grass where I was building a cage. A wind as cool as a mountain spring ran over the grass and stirred my hair. It was a fine day to be alive. I looked up and all around and at the hole in the cabin roof out of which the other little hawk had fled. There was no sign of her anywhere that I could see. "Probably in the next county by now," I thought cynically, but before beginning work I decided I'd have a look at my last nights capture. Secretively, I looked again all around the camp and up and down and opened the box. I got him right out in my hand with his wings folded properly and I was careful not to startle him. He lay limp in my grasp and I could feel his heart pound under the feathers but he only looked beyond me and up. I saw him look that last look away beyond me into a sky so full of light that I could not follow his gaze. The little breeze flowed over me again, and nearby a mountain aspen shook all its tiny leaves. I suppose I must have had an idea then of what I was going to do, but I never let it come up into consciousness. I just reached over and laid the hawk on the grass. He lay there a long minute without hope, unmoving, his eyes still fixed on that blue vault above him. It must have been that he was already so far away in heart that he never felt the release from my hand. He never even stood. He just lay with his breast against the grass. In the next second after that long minute he was gone. Like a flicker of light, he had vanished with my eyes full on him, but without actually seeing even a premonitory wing beat. He was gone straight into that towering emptiness of light and crystal that my eyes could scarcely bear to penetrate. For another long moment there was silence. I could not see him. The light was too intense. Then from far up somewhere a cry came ringing down. I was young then and had seen little of the world, but when I heard that cry my heart turned over. It was not the cry of the hawk I had captured; for, by shifting my position against the sun, I was now seeing further up. Straight out of the sun’s eye, where she must have been soaring restlessly above us for untold hours, hurtled his mate. And from far up, ringing from peak to peak of the summits over us, came a cry of such unutterable and ecstatic joy that it sounds down across the years and tingles among the cups on my quiet breakfast table. I saw them both now. He was rising fast to meet her. They met in a great soaring gyre that turned to a whirling circle and a dance of wings. Once more, just once, their two voices, joined in a harsh wild medley of question and response, struck and echoed against the pinnacles of the valley. Then they were gone forever somewhere into those upper regions beyond the eyes of men. I am older now, and sleep less, and have seen most of what there is to see and am not very much impressed any more, I suppose, by anything. "What Next in the Attributes of Machines?" my morning headline runs. "It Might Be the Power to Reproduce Themselves." I lay the paper down and across my mind a phrase floats insinuatingly: “It does not seem that there is anything in the construction, constituents, or behavior of the human being which it is essentially impossible for science to duplicate and synthesize. On the other hand...” All over the city the cogs in the hard, bright mechanisms have begun to turn. Figures move through computers, names are spelled out, a thoughtful machine selects the fingerprints of a wanted criminal from an array of thousands. In the laboratory an electronic mouse runs swiftly through a maze toward the cheese it can neither taste nor enjoy. On the second run it does better than a living mouse. "On the other hand . . ." Ah, my mind takes up, on the other hand the machine does not bleed, ache, hang for hours in the empty sky in a torment of hope to learn the fate of another machine, nor does it cry out with joy nor dance in the air with the fierce passion of a bird. Far off, over a distance greater than space, that remote cry from the heart of heaven makes a faint buzzing among my breakfast dishes and passes on and away.

The Bear

Jeannie — Sat, 11 Feb 2006 23:36:54 GMT

In the huge, wide-open, sleeping eye of the mountain The bear is the gleam in the pupil Ready to awake And instantly focus. The bear is gluing Beginning to end With glue from people’s bones In his sleep The bear is digging In his sleep Through the walls of the universe With a man’s femur The bear is a well Too deep to glitter Where your shout Is being digested. The bear is a river Where people bending to drink See their dead selves. The bear sleeps In a kingdom of walls In a web of rivers. He is the ferryman To dead land His price is everything. ----- I Think this is by Ted Hughes

Rilke -The panther

Jeannie — Sat, 04 Feb 2006 20:36:04 GMT

His gaze from staring through the bars has grown so weary that it can take in nothing more. For him it is as though there were a thousand bars and behind the thousand bars no world. As he paces in cramped circles over and over his powerful strides are like a ritual dance around a center where a great wheel stands paralyzed. At times the curtains of the eye lift without a sound and a shape enters slips through the tightened silence of the shoulders reaches the heart and dies.

Blessings in the New Year

Jeannie — Mon, 02 Jan 2006 20:41:50 GMT

I like snow..... Oh yes I do..

Cool Poem

Jeannie — Tue, 27 Dec 2005 22:29:31 GMT

Staying Alive by David Wagoner Staying alive in the woods is a matter of calming down At first and deciding whether to wait for rescue, Trusting to others, Or simply to start walking and walking in one direction Till you come out-or something happens to stop you. By far the safer choice Is to settle down where you are and try to make a living Off the land, camping near water, away from shadows. Eat no white berries; Spit out all bitterness. Shooting at anything Means hiking further and further every day To hunt survivors; It may be best to learn what you have to learn without a gun, Not killing but watching birds and animals go In and out of shelter At will. Following their example, build for a whole season: Facing across the wind in your lean-to, You may feel wilder, But nothing, not even you, will have to stay in hiding. If you have no matches, a stick and a fire-bow Will keep you warmer, Or the crystal of your watch, filled with water, held up to the sun Will do the same in time. In case of snow Drifting toward winter, Don’t try to stay awake through the night, afraid of freezing- The bottom of your mind knows all about zero; It will turn you over And shake you till you waken. If you have trouble sleeping Even in the best of weather, jumping to follow With eyes strained to their corners The unidentifiable noises of the night and feeling Bears and packs of wolves nuzzling your elbow, Remember the trappers Who treated them indifferently and were left alone. If you hurt yourself, no one will comfort you Or take your temperature. So stumbling, wading and climbing are as dangerous as flying. But if you decide, at last, you must break through In spite of all danger. Think of yourself by time and not by distance, counting Wherever you’re going by how long it takes you; No other measure Will bring you safe to nightfall. Follow no streams: they run Under the ground or fall into wilder country. Remember the stars And moss when your mind runs into circles. If it should rain Or the fog should roll the horizon in around you, Hold still for hours Or days if you must, or weeks, for seeing is believing In the wilderness. And if you find a pathway, Wheel-rut, or fence-wire, Retrace it left or right: someone knew where he was going Once upon a time, and you can follow Hopefully, somewhere, Just in case. There may even come, on some uncanny evening, A time when you’re warm and dry, well fed, not thirsty, Uninjured, without fear, When nothing, either good or bad, is happening. This is called staying alive. It’s temporary. What occurs after Is doubtful. You must always be ready for something to come bursting Through the far edge of a clearing, running toward you, Grinning from ear to ear And hoarse with welcome. Or something crossing and hovering Overhead, as light as air, like a break in the sky, Wondering what you are. Here you are face to face with the problem of recognition. Having no time to make smoke, too much to say, You should have a mirror With a tiny hole in the back for better aiming, for reflecting Whatever disaster you can think of, to show The way you suffer. These body signals have universal meaning: If you are lying Flat on your back with arms outstretched behind you, You say you require Emergency treatment; if you are standing erect and holding Arms horizontal, you mean you are not ready; If you hold them over Your head, you want to be picked up. Three of anything Is a sign of distress. Afterward, if you see No ropes, no ladders, No maps or messages falling, no searchlights or trails blazing, Then, Chances are, you should be prepared to burrow Deep for a deep winter.

Solstice

Jeannie — Fri, 23 Dec 2005 22:50:55 GMT

What happeneed to that girl who used to run to the top of the mountains at the crack of dawn. dew still on the tent. bagle in pocket, song in heart. no time for breakfast daylight is burning and so much to see so many trails to explore !

Chill by the fire

Jeannie — Tue, 15 Nov 2005 20:01:00 GMT

Fall in Northern Nevada. Getting cooler but still no snow. Love the town and being this close to the Sierra. In a space of transformation (aren't we all?) This one is a turning point for me.... although an ox bow route, being pulled back in order to go forward.(?).. searching for who I am (was) and my sanity. I spent much of my youth in the mountains- whole summers. People would ask me if I was there to 'find myself' but it was there that I was myself, it is only now in time and confomity of jobs and mortgages that I have lost myself. So the journey back begins.