I give up. I am taking a bunch of clothes to the consignment store today because I know I won't fit back into them before they go out of style. This is ridiculous. I don't know how hard a person can try and still feel human but I jUst went to the stores this week and bought a bigger pair of pants to fit my fat ass into. Almost all my others are squeezing my waist and making me look fatter than I already do. I hate this, it's not fair for short people, it's like 1-2 pounds show very fast on me and if it's 10 lbs it's almost two clothing sizes up! Not to mention my wide ass looks like shit in most pants because I actually have hips that need to squeeze in there somewhere. I hate people who make clothes!
I don't even like junk food! What's wrong with me.
Oh and now I can't decide if I want to dance at all. I mean I really liked it at first when I started and troupe was so welcoming but now it's so competitive and there's nothing that turns me off faster than friends who are competitve. I mean that's not really friendly anyway and most dance groups seem to have at least a few of these types included that would I always have to deal with. So should I just sell my costumes and move on? Dance at home but still sell my costumes? God I finally got some beautiful costumes and I never got to perform in them. What a joke.