Apologies to those people who have sent in friend requests that I haven't responded to. It's just that after having been on some other social networking sites, I'm a little wary...moreso because I haven't been active on Tribe for quite some time, and I change my stances often, so I often wonder whether I'm still substantially the same person as the one who left whatever note whoever came across...lol. :) It's not anything personal.

I'm actually pondering whether I should start up a Tribe here for people who are somewhere in-between or outside the constructs of binary gender. Normally such people are referred to as "androgynous," though there are a number of other terms...there just seems to be a lack of support for people caught in this situation (such as myself), with the right to be in gender-based groups always held over our heads, or with the groups not being made up of people who substantially share our experiences. And there seems to be actually *no* group for queering heterosexuality, though I know a lot of us are caught in that very situation (such as if I were in a relationship with a man, and assumed to be straight, even though the relationship wouldn't really be what's normally thought of as "straight").

I suppose the idea is partially based off the idea of Bisexus (a community for bisexual people who are towards the middle of the Kinsey scale), but not entirely. It just seems that a space needs to be made. I'm good at making plans, just not so good at maintenance. :) If anyone comes across this and they want to be involved somehow, I suppose I can take personal messages. I just will probably have to get an idea of if you're trustworthy or not, before vesting you with authority...again, that's just me being wary. I have no idea who comes across this profile, so I'll probably want to get to know people first.

...but I'm making a blog post. WoOooo.

Anyway. I'm considering arts colleges. I actually spoke about this today with one of my counselors, who was helpful in ...helping... me outline some of the things to look for when thinking about attending one. I'm glad I took notes (which will not be uploaded here, but). The major consideration that I'm having to deal with is cost. If I go ahead with this, we're going to need to reallocate funds so that I can actually get needed financial aid. This means scholarships, loans, work-study, grants (I wish)...whatever I can do to make sure I can go to this school and stay. And hopefully, not have an overwhelming dent in my pocket when I'm done.

The most recent decision, made without my input, is that if I do go, I have to stay until I complete the degree. Which means, be *very very certain* that I want to be there -- no dropping out in the middle. I've already planned something of my next two semesters out, and am registered for the coming one. I'm guessing that during this time, I'll be doing some more studying on my own, and making sure through courses that Graphic Design is actually what I want to do. There's nothing more inspiring, though, than being invited to firms, where we can see what people who have the training actually do.

The entire prospect is scary. I still can't believe that people get paid to draw. It wasn't scary earlier, though; more, exciting.