Joshua.

Death anniversaries are always the most challenging I think, especially the first ones.
Joshua was one of the most beautiful, caring people I ever had the blessing to know. He was his children's hero and such a gentle giant. (Also one of the best guitar players I might add.)

I had the fortunate opportunity to be close friends with him for about 15 years and in a great relationship with him for almost a year before he was taken from us. I think about him every day and awa... read more

Wow, graduation and moving all in the same two weeks.
I'm exhausted.

I also got to be a guinea pig for the local cops today.. they needed several people to drink (free booze!) and then help them with their Field Sobriety testing clases. :) Funnnnn. So.. I got to do the eye test, the walk and turn and the one legged stand.. like 8 times!

Things are going alright. I'm much happier out here in the country. I still have to fix the horse fence so I can move them over... going to be w... read more

OK... I only have one HUGE test left to go..

I am 'officially' gradumanated..gradeated...graduated.. yeah thats it.. from the academy now and only have
my State certification test to go on Thursday. I am NERVOUS because the first time fail rate on this test is
HUGE!

I plan on doing a lot of partying afterwards!

WOW! I absolutely didn't realize it had been this long since I had written here. I have another blog that I keep up with on at least a weekly basis so I kinda throw this one to the side at times I suppose. BAD ME.. BADDDD ME!

Work and school have been keeping me INSANELY busy. Sometimes I start feeling pretty low... fatigued.. wondering if I can keep pushing on. I am not a quitter, never have been so I keep pushing on. Biting the bullet and driving on as Aaron always says. I NEED A BREA... read more

How do you handle the passing of someone you love?
It leaves such a very deep hole in your heart, an emptiness. All of the wondering.. wanting details, not knowing. Not knowing if you are ever going to know. Such is how the unknown situations go. Unfortunately, his daughter in the picture with him there, had to find him dead.

My heart is breaking right now for this sweet gentle giant soul and for his family that I called mine.

Joshua Dowdell was one of my first friends I made i... read more