ARE YOU FREAKING OUT?!

This seems to be the question that most people are asking me as the big day approaches. And truth be told, the answer is a definite...

Nope.

I'm solid. Who knew?

For so long I was always a bit frantic about the Big Stuff. I didn't want to take too much responsibility. What if I screwed it up? How do I know if it will all turn out Ok?!

Well, I don't. I just decided about a year and a half ago that being afraid that something wouldn't turn out right was no way to live. I don't have all the answers, and I don't know how this will go. But I'm going to do it anyway. And damn it if it wasn't just the most liberating decision I've ever made. I can't WAIT to be married. For the longest time, even in relationships, I often felt lonely or wondered what was next and how it was going to go.

Not anymore.

I can honestly say that I can't remember the last time that I felt alone. I have a Partner now. Someone who is with me even when she's not. It's about the safest feeling in the world, and I love her so much and it all so damned easy. That's not to say our life together isn't ever work, but it always works out. I've never been so committed to anyone or anything. This weekend is going to be such a celebration of that love and commitment, and I wish that everyone we loved could be there. We couldn't invite everyone, but it will be perfect nonetheless. And we've got the rest of our lives to share it with you.

So No, I'm not freaked out. I'm about as calm and happy as I've ever been.