Rediscovering Spirituality

At this time in my life, I now have a clear head to rediscover my Spirituality. That would surprise many according to my profile here, but this is true. Recently my partner asked me "Does G-d speak to you?" I was silent for a full minute. Before I could even answer him, I thought "I'm going to Hell, because, no, I do not think so" - all this secretly in my head. Well, I'd like to believe that he does, I have been so preoccupied and frazzled in Life in general, for many reasons, that I have not had a clear head to LISTEN to him. I am working on changing that now, so, let's see what happens...

Finally I Am Starting To Understand Myself...

Finally! At this point in my Life, I am starting to understand myself, and why I have made certain questionable decisions in my past. Recently diagnosed as having "Bipolar Disorder", my curiosities about myself are becoming clear. I have spent my Life proving to the world that I am not an idiot, stupid, nor irresponsible. My problem is that my mind is always spinning at 100 miles an hour, and, I come across to others as frazzled and dizzy-headed. You don't just quit a good-paying career becuse you "don't like the way things are anymore". Well, I once did. Anyway, I am hopeful, that, with proper treatment, I am starting on the right road to recovery, for myself, to live and lead a better, more productive Life. My partner hopes so, too...! (The photo above is a representation of a Man who is on this Better Road.)

So, It's Not All My Fault

Finally, I have learned that one can struggle to get ahead in Life, and, try as hard as one can, sometimes it's NOT all "My Fault". Being diagnosed as Bi-Polar, and, knowing that there is help available, I will finally (and hopefully) be able to settle down a bit, and really focus, for the first time in my Life. I no longer have to put myself down for not doing better for myself. And, maybe, relieve myself of a vast amount of Guilt... We'll see how it goes from here.....I now have New Hope for Myself...!

To Be Desired, Without Making Apologies for Who You Are.....

Another one of my favourite images here. I have to hold back from being too "racy". I know this profile of mine comes across very eclectic and dizzy, when I demonstrate that I wish to be the "Betty Crocker" in my home life with my partner, and, at the same time, exploring interests (only on the internet so far) that are so vast and seemingly unrelated, and certainly clash with the former. Very few people truly understand me; even my partner is often perplexed by me. But, we do a lot of communicating, which is the foundation of a healthy relationship. (O.K. - start the music now and sing with me: "Someday My Prince Will Come....") - as they say on the Internet - "LOL"

What's Your Opinion?

O.K. friends, what's your opinion? In this photo, I have proportionally enlarged my lobes to a full 1 inch. They are 7/8" already, and, I like even numbers. I have also added a couple small tattoo elements, one further up the side of my neck, and one behind my ear. I also miss the labret piercing I used to have (below the lower lip). Feel free to share with me your comments.

So This Is "What 40 Looks Like"...

Another Birthday. Well, here I am at a new "Cross-Road of Life", that my partner describes, where I am at in my life right now. Just turned "the big 4-0", I was very curious what I would be like, where I would be in my Life, when I turned 30. So, I have High Hopes for this next decade in my Life... more on this, later.

Happy New Year Tribe Friends!

Wishing you all a Merry Christmas, Happy Chanukkah, and a Happy and Healthy New Year! Let's all look forward to Wonderful Times to come, full of laughter and smiles, in 2008!

My Man Turns 53 !

He's My Daddy! ~ We celebrated my partner turning a sprite 53 years young recently. He is a perfect example of a well-adjusted man, who has survived many tough challenges in his Life. I aspire to develop more like him as I age... but, in my own style. We don't see "eye-to-eye" on everything, however, we also seem to contrast, as well as compliment, each other, very well.

I Have Come To A Cross-Roads....

I have come to a "Cross-Road" said my partner, last night. I came home late from work, to celebrate my lover's 53rd. Birthday. I just received a promotion at work. In a field that is not my chosen desire in life. Desktop Publishing full-time, out here in the country where I live, seems to be near impossible. Now my "other" career is moving upward. What to do? - I ask myself. And, I must decide NOW, as I turn 40 next month..... (new photo of me with 7/8" machine tunnels & 4ga septum ring, which my partner thinks makes me look like a monkey...)

In The Words of Jessica Rabbit...

Do you recall the movie "Who Framed Roger Rabbit?". The main character, Roger, was a dorky yet talented fellow ( a "toon" rabbit). He was married to a Vixen-looking creature named Jessica Rabbit (a human-like "toon"). At one point, she had to explain to a Private Investigator, that, "I'm Not Bad, I'm Just Drawn That Way". Isn't that so true? One should not judge a book by its cover.