On monday I found out that circus soc were supposed to be represented at the Raising and Giving social, but because there was no communication, only one person was performing..I voluntered, on tuesday I was confirmed to do it, and the performance was today.

I wanted the chance to perform, even though I didn't have a routine, an outfit, even a song. I've been worrying about the cabaret performance in a months time so much, I wanted a chance to perform and screw up and it to be fine.

I didn't really make a routine until this evening - though I had an idea of what I wanted to do. I spent ages making myself look lovely, and got a nice dress on, and danced to the song in my bedroom (which isn't big enough to hoop in)

The performance itself went fantastically. It wasn't flawless, but what was great was how comfortable I felt doing my thing. Last time I was doing a routine, I was in a total panic, and that time I'd spent longer preparing. This time, I was so much more confident and at ease with the energy focussed upon me, and that's what was so great. I think after this the cabaret performance will go much smoother - in fact I like the routine I made and the song, so I'll probably use that again, and now I have a whole month to get it down.
Yay! I just feel great about the whole performance, like I've grown, like I can still grow.

(and the applause made me feel just a bit great!)

Hoop Love

Ella