joined on 09/18/06
last updated 02/19/07
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about me
I look for something positive in any situation, even if the rest sucks. Curious about life and people. Trying to learn how to give to others with the same enthusiasm with which I receive from them means learning to trust that I have something of value to give... Honesty + integrity; but trying not to be too serious - sometimes you have to poke me and remind me to "Smile, dumbass. Relax." Learning not to be afraid of doubt and fear - trusting the journey and the lessons. I love a cool breeze carressing my shaved head on a warm day. I love intense sensations next to soft ones, sharp stings followed by a tender touch. Transgression. Second skins and black gloves... red nails and rope. Life's a journey, and everyday we travel new ground. - Gratitude for so many gifts. - fashion fetish (W and Zink; Tierry Mugler, Jean-Paul Gaultier) is society's repressed erotica and some of the best porn. I love talking to people, touch makes it better. - The privilege of playing with a compassionate sadist - receiving the gift of her skillful attention - the intensity of those exchanges makes me feel most alive and in touch with who I am. - Obsessed with peeling the onion of life...
finally fell off the fence
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"fff" That means I finally saw that I need to stop torturing myself and half-living just because it fits the values I was raised with. Who proved those were healthy? I finally wore out. I couldn't keep straddling the fence without serious dama...
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conundrum
(blog entry)
Here's what's constantly bugging me at the moment. How would my life be different if I could have really come out as kinky to myself and the rest of the world when I should have, before I got married, before I got old? What direction would I hav...
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excerpt from Self-Made Man by Norah Vincent
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Anyone who knows me at LRS or some other venues could see how I might be interested in the experiences of a drag king, esp. if she's reporting on her adventures investigating contemporary U.S. male life and culture. Norah Vincent is a lesbian wri...
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How to Make Your Man Behave... (or Dogs are from Mars, Cats are from Venus)
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I found a how-to-be-happy book at a local coffeeshop written by Karen Salmansohn. She's written about 2 dozen books of the self-help variety that I usually shun, but I bought this one used. It's sprinkled with enough grains of truth to be helpfu...
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masochist's creed?
(blog entry)
I've been wrestling with personal shame and demons over my sexuality most of my life. The past few years I've moved forward a whole lot, at last. I wish it hadn't taken so long, because I like where I'm going. Three years ago, when I was still ...
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"fff" That means I finally saw that I need to stop torturing myself and half-living just because it fits the values I was raised with. Who proved those were healthy? I finally wore out. I couldn't keep straddling the fence without serious damage. I can't keep living in a way that makes me think about hurting myself all the time - that's not good for the people I love. So we're negotiating how we will split up, at least our sexual lives. Mine belongs elsewhere, to fly free or crash, it ...
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Here's what's constantly bugging me at the moment. How would my life be different if I could have really come out as kinky to myself and the rest of the world when I should have, before I got married, before I got old? What direction would I have gone in? I know, you can't do jack with "what if's." I know that. But here I am, kinky, vanilla-married, with kids. At least my wife knows and on paper tolerates some of my explorations, though it sometimes seems it'd be simpler if she was just...
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Anyone who knows me at LRS or some other venues could see how I might be interested in the experiences of a drag king, esp. if she's reporting on her adventures investigating contemporary U.S. male life and culture. Norah Vincent is a lesbian writer who posed as Ned and joined a men's bowling team, went to strip clubs, and dated women, among other things, during her 18 month project. Her courage and insights are amazing. The quote below (not the "misogynist" part - the part on power) is e...
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I found a how-to-be-happy book at a local coffeeshop written by Karen Salmansohn. She's written about 2 dozen books of the self-help variety that I usually shun, but I bought this one used. It's sprinkled with enough grains of truth to be helpful when I'm feeling crappy and want a quick fix.
She has another book, "How to Make Your Man Behave in 21 Days or Less Using the Secrets of Professional Dog Trainers." I had to get it. The idea of a woman consciously exploiting her male's weak...
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I've been wrestling with personal shame and demons over my sexuality most of my life. The past few years I've moved forward a whole lot, at last. I wish it hadn't taken so long, because I like where I'm going. Three years ago, when I was still quite stuck in my muck, I did manage to come up with a "quote of my own." I came across it today, and I still like it: "In the end, what we mostly want is not to suffer our desires alone; we want company." It may sound a little negative, but I thi...
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