eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

New troupe, new tribe, new videos

Tatiana — Fri, 17 Apr 2009 22:42:45 GMT

Hey! It's been a while... i had a moment there with tribe, but am enjoying it again now. let's see if it lasts :) The year is full of news and plans - all very exciting!!!!! We have a new troupe: The Zoryanna. Check our website here: www.thezoryanna.com and our new tribe here: http://tribes.tribe.net/thezoryanna We have new videos up on youtube as well - you can see them in my channel here: www.youtube.com/tfguedes There are more news to come soon :) Love y'all!

my first solo

Tatiana — Tue, 01 Apr 2008 08:49:59 GMT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V-EiZDTP9Pc please be kind :)

so i quit....

Tatiana — Wed, 30 Jan 2008 14:57:47 GMT

no, not the dance. (not yet anyway). i quit my job. yup. oh i am scared alright. 7 years with the same company and now - change! hoping the work permit gets approved, hoping i live up to my name in the new place, breathing deep and keeping chin up and looking forward to change, welcoming it in my life. since i quit, almost 4 weeks ago, my shoulders are the softest i ever remember them being. coincidence? i also cut down on dance classes for the moment, as yoga teacher told me that was causing strain - ATS arms being totally unnatural to the humam being, and my anatomy not adapting well. doing lots of yoga warm ups, continuing with the qigong, a new pillow, keeping neck warm at night, and not overdoing the ATS arms when i go to class - it's all working and i am getting better each day.

the pain, the frustration, the sadness, the anger

Tatiana — Fri, 11 Jan 2008 15:48:27 GMT

i've had tight shoulders since i can remember. mum has them, dad has them, might be hereditary, who knows? but in the past 6 months or so the pain is almost unbereable. i've been sleeping with heat packs and hot water bottles under my neck to be able to stand the pain. i've been treating with acupunture and i do see improvements, but as soon as i try to dance, that's it. tribal is arm-intensive and at class yesterday i had to keep lowering my arms as i could not stand the pain. i broke down in tears when i got in the car to go home because i can't picture a life without dance, but i don't know how much longer i can work through the pain - i am no patrick swayze :) the acupunturist told me that if i stick to yoga and the qigong exercises he gave me i will see improvements. i know a physio, osteopath or chiropractor won't help as i treated with 1 year each already and it did nothing to improve. my posture is excellent. the tension comes from years of being a very stressed person and although i am much less stressed now, the damage is done and i don't know how to repair it. we are dancing at tribal london and i just hope i am able to work through the pain and perform well. after that i don't know what i will do. i am so sad and frustrated and angry and i know that all will contribute to making it worse...

myspace

Tatiana — Mon, 03 Dec 2007 14:55:46 GMT

hey guys, I am on myspace too on the following links: myspace.com/tatyguedes myspace.com/rashanitribal myspace.com/tribalfit see you there!!

end of tribe

Tatiana — Thu, 29 Nov 2007 10:59:09 GMT

with so many rumours that Tribe will pull the plug anyday, I am leaving my personal email here for those who want to stay in touch - and I hope you do :) tatyguedes@gmail.com I am also on Facebook and just joined Bhuz love taty

Fundraiser for a friend - please help

Tatiana — Mon, 23 Jul 2007 10:53:56 GMT

Hey guys A friend's daughter is very very ill and the family don't have funds to support the treatment needed. We are having a benefit night in Dublin on August 24th at Voodoo lounge from 8 PM. It will be around 10 euros in, lots of live bands and bellydancing, plus raffles. Please do come along and tell your friends as help is needed. If you are not in Ireland and want to help, contact me so we can organise something. Many thanks!

Solace and Geneva in Dublin selling out!

Tatiana — Wed, 28 Mar 2007 08:51:23 GMT

Hey undecided ladies out there! The Dublin workshops with Geneva Bybee, Solace and Blue Damzel on May 19th are selling out fast, so if you still want to come I suggest you book pretty quickly! It's only €90.00 for the whole days, which in pounds is close to nothing!! So get booking online at http://www.pedralta.com Hope to see you there!

transition

Tatiana — Thu, 15 Mar 2007 12:45:03 GMT

my yoga teacher has been focusing on opening our dorsal spine... which is great, as years of sitting hunched in front of the computer left me with rounded shoulders and with something close to a hump on my upper back. i always had good posture. my mum was always poking me to making me sit straight, plus i danced since i wa a little child and always did lots of gimnastics so good posture came with all that. and the computer took it all away. tribal bellydance as i am sure you all know focus a lot on posture, so i have been making a conscious effort to work on my posture, paying attention to it all day, trying not to cross my legs etc etc etc. right now i am going through this transition phase though... before, when i tried to sit with good posture my dorsal would hurt a lot and eventually i had to round my shoulders again. since myself and yoga teacher started working on stretching it, i can't sit hunched anymore as it hurts - BUT it also hurts to spend too much time sitting straight. so i keep basically lifting and dropping my chest at different times of the day to try to deal with the discomfort. i can see the guy on the desk beside mine giving me funny looks... i also signed up for swimming lessons. i decided that before i am 30 i will fight my fear of water. that will also help with the upper back, so another good reason to dip! go me!

JoY of joys

Tatiana — Tue, 13 Mar 2007 10:53:17 GMT

So last weekend was my first time at the Jewel of Yorkshire in the beautiful beautiful beautiful village of Saltaire. Nell and I had Friday off and we just spent the day walking around Saltaire and Shipley. Nice sunny day too it was. Saturday was the day to take workshops with the amazing Ava Fleming. Man, that woman has some technique! You can SEE her abs working all the time when she is moving, it's just mesmerising. The show on Saturday night was something else! Not my best performance I have tosay, but I think we pulled it off in the end. Wendy's solo as usual was awsome! Lots of beautiful dancers, the lovely Kay Taylor, Michelle Pender with her folkloric dance and the amazing Bondok who made me cry with his expressive dance. Sunday's workshop with Michele was great. She moves with such ease and attitude! Looking forward to doing a gypsy number now! I wish I had taken more workshops. My budget for the weekend was pretty tight unfortunately, so that's all I could attend. Being a tribal dancer, Tribal Ford is still my favourite event, but JoY comes on a close second and I will be coming back next spring!!!

already?

Tatiana — Fri, 01 Dec 2006 16:02:55 GMT

so it's december and the year has gone by so fast i am sure i missed some scenes. so today it's december 1st and it is my dad's birthday and i wish i could make him happy on his birthday but i can't. so i called him instead so he'd know i was thinking of him and he was happy for a few moments anyway. xmas is too close for my liking. was never mad about it and since i've been away from home i actually don't care for it. i do have some gifts bought for some people tho as i do love to give presies to my friends anyway, so this time of the year i have a good excuse. rashani have a show on december 13th and that should be the last of this year - and what a year for rashani! several high profile performances and media appearances - we certainly can't complain! next year will be busy too, with lots of performances already planned (yay!) and i am sure lots more to come. i am booked to so many workshops already i kinda lost track of it all, so like every year i bought a diary which i have all best intentions in the world to use next year - unlike all previous years, will it happen? i've moved house and the new one is great so far. plenty of space for yoga and dance practice, so i am happy. i am still single but open to what life may send my way.

moving on and on and on

Tatiana — Wed, 01 Nov 2006 16:13:14 GMT

it is time of change for me. every year around my birthday something drastic happens in my life, and even more this year. the weekend before my birthday i ended my relationship. it was a tough decision because i do love him, he is a very special, kind guy and i hated hurting me and myself in the process. but i was not happy, we are very different people who live in different countries and things were not where or how i would have liked them to be. on the day of my birthday i found a new place to live - big and bright and with friends, with lots of space for my yoga and my dance. so excited to be able to move in with friends and to have space to practice at home! and today i finally received the contract for a new job - i had been looking for a while (a long while actually) and today i sign the contract. money is not that much more but i could not stay in the current job much longer. so the wheel turns and my luck changes and life surprises me and everything is bright again.

waning moon

Tatiana — Fri, 13 Oct 2006 14:35:41 GMT

this friday the 13th i am waning with the moon, my energy getting lower and lower, my sadness getting higher and higher. and sometimes my thoughts scare me and i think i am a horrible person. and sometimes there is anger and jealousy inside me and i don't want either to come out so i try to drown them and all my energy goes to that. and there is the guilt of feeling such feelings, of acknowleding them lying dormant inside, and the certainty that one day they could come out. to know that you meet people and one day it will just happen that they will turn left and you will turn right and that will be it, the last time you see each other. and the knowledge that even your closest friends don't want the same things as you, that you are, in reality, such different people, that you come from all different parts of this big scary world, makes you sad that one day you will be far far away and all you will have will be some photos and some memories of the past. and such memories will be blurred and not very accurate and only a sepia version of what reality was. and you will remember also partners, affairs, stolen kisses and some will still send a chill up your spine, others will make you smile or cry, and others yet will make you go "what was i thinking". and the only thing you have is right now because the memories you have now are already sepia, wrinkled versions of life and the future, you wish you knew it but you don't, so you just try to hold on to right now with teeth and nails and legs and if you blink for a wee bit longer, puff, that's gone too.

sucks

Tatiana — Tue, 19 Sep 2006 14:14:20 GMT

my job basically sucks. i've been here for 5 years now, i've worked many late nights and sundays for free, and every time i ask them for anything i get a NO as an answer. right now i am very frustrated and actively looking for a new job before this one kills more of the goodness i once had in me... so if anyone knows of any jobs for a project manager in ireland, let me know!!!

Wedding

Tatiana — Fri, 08 Sep 2006 09:42:38 GMT

I am off to Scotland this weekend for a wedding - it will be in a castle and castle attire is mandatory for the weekend! very excited to play fairy tale all weekend, carrying a lot of stuff with me to play with! back only on wednesday, talk then xoxo

FWC rocked (or raqs'ed)

Tatiana — Tue, 29 Aug 2006 13:05:27 GMT

it is hard to find words to describe how it felt to dance to such an amazing, receptive audience. it is hard to say how sorry i feel to the people who were turned down at the door as the show was sold out before it started - but how happy i am that it sold out! every single butterfly in my stomach went flying when we got on stage and saw the eyes, claps, smiles and even tears in the audience, and to see some familiar faces there was reassuring. the 2 hours flew by us, we had a great time on stage and back stage too, and i cannot wait to do it all again!

ready, steady...

Tatiana — Thu, 24 Aug 2006 11:34:43 GMT

so saturday is the final rehearsal - we will dance the whole lot twice and practice the changes of costuming too, so we can make sure we have enough time, all costuming needed etc etc. the saturday night we are off to festival club night where we will briefly improv to wha the DJ plays - should be good fun, and tehn sunday is the big day - ta-dã!!!!! wish us luck

so worth it

Tatiana — Wed, 16 Aug 2006 09:11:46 GMT

so yesterday Rashani performed at the opening ceremony of the Festival of World Cultures. we did a simple short set, starting with Wendy's solo with zills, followed by a slow trio with veils and a fast duo with veils. we were 3 balls of nerves due to our hectic lives and schedules at the moment but the dance went good actually. we posed for photos after and felt like superstars. not knowing the best was yet to come. heading to the bar to look after those nerves, wendy and I got stopped by an indian gentleman who was there with his family, who said he had loved our dance, and could recognise moves from indian dance in it. he congratulated and thanked us for dancing. choking back tears we moved on a bit further to be stopped again by some girls from algeria who said they recognised the dance from their country in our dance, and that they were happy to see that so far away from home. aftet that, this quite cheerful group of peruvian ladies stopped to chat to us to the end of the night and it was amazing. these compliments coming from the cultures we borrow from to make up our dance made me feel like i had accomplished something. and i know now that the only way forward is to keep on dancing.

tidal waves

Tatiana — Thu, 03 Aug 2006 15:12:06 GMT

what moves me... the moon, always tribal bellydance, more and more each day yoga, yoga, yoga my hair (i've fallen in love with them at last) sewing, my latest passion read, everything, always, as much as possible long talks about everything, accompanied by coffee and laughter varnished toe nails wolfes, specially she-wolves my girlfriends my folks and my brother, always, always, always goddesses, fairies, witches, mother nature what stops me... this absurd physical lethargy the routine that surrounds me all those months that last longer than my wages hypocrisy, burocracy, lies, neurosis, double standards lack of space to move and to live in at the flat the knowledge that i came to do the world to do something, but i still haven't figured out what

started...

Tatiana — Tue, 11 Jul 2006 09:28:30 GMT

my suhaila practice this morning! yay! i'll have glutes of steal in no time my dears!!!

really...

Tatiana — Fri, 07 Jul 2006 12:43:16 GMT

...i do try to post more but i have this thing called a job that takes an awful lot of my time - must do something about that... so i am back from holidays, it is nice to be tanned and looking and feeling rested and healthy and ready for action. which has started full on. this week was full of practice for our show on july 22nd; have another session tonight and one tomorrow morning - it is getting together and it will look neat, i am sure! i finally have my practice schedule ready - must look at my map as i must have virgo somewhere.... - so i start this sunday and let's hope i keep up. other than that, work sucks but that's another story...

arse

Tatiana — Fri, 09 Jun 2006 09:25:56 GMT

geneva kicked our butts in class last night and oh did we like it! beautiful dancer she is and lovely lovely girl. already looking fw to dancing with her next tuesday. must start suhaila's practice every day. must must must. and who is going to goddess camp in august? memememememememe!

how to describe magic in a few words?

Tatiana — Tue, 06 Jun 2006 11:06:47 GMT

as i laid in bed last night, my mind racing over the amazing weekend that was coming to an end, i tried to put in words the feelings that were warming my heart and giving me goosebumps. so i thought: magic comes in the shape of women of different sizes and shapes and colours who share the love of something. and in this case, that something is dancing; keeping alive through moving the body. and last weekend, these women took the shape of samantha, gina and joy - domba! - who kept smiling and teaching and dancing despite everything else. and the shape of heidi whose energy could be felt in the room. and if i could say one word to them, it would be the word i said most last weekend: thanks. and to the beautiful ladies of rashani: thanks. and to the beautiful dancers of the world and of ages: thanks. and to la loba for creeping out from inside me: thanks. i am blessed to know such great people. i am blessed to have a body that is able to dance. thanks. thanks. thanks.

tribal ford and all

Tatiana — Thu, 25 May 2006 08:51:53 GMT

can you believe tribal ford is tomorrow? i am so excited i am struggling to concentrate in work today. have to relook at the schedule to see which workshops i will attend, there are so many and they all sound so good! rashani international will perform on saturday night and i can't wait to dance with all the lovely ladies that are part of the troupe - it will be a great weekend! last night rashani dublin performed at the debut of this open mic night that is happening every wednesday in bad bob in temple bar (dublin, ireland for those of you who have no idea where i live...). great, great, great night! the host was the sweetest dude, the crowd was respectful and interested, the venue was great, the dance was fab - i just got such a great buzz from that! we will probably perform at it regularly - let's hope anyway - and use it as an experiment to try out new costumes, new combos, new stuff in general. it is all happening, all thanks to wendy marlatt, our kick-ass teacher and troupe director, who is pursuing every opportunity of dance around here!!!! on june 3rd she is hosting Domba! in dublin for a whole day of workshops - amazing or what? and on june 17th we have a whole day of workshops with the BDSS - organised by the Muses from Cork, Graziela and Adriana. can never have enough dance!!

there's always time

Tatiana — Tue, 09 May 2006 15:39:23 GMT

so i haven't been posting here as often as i hoped i would... from the last post a lot has changed. work has got so busy i did long long days for a full 2 weeks and am only now catching up on rest and practice and all. so the plans for daily practice went down the drain before i had a chance of making them habit. so here's to starting again. soon anyway, after my wrists heal. have two new tattoos, one lotus flower on each wrist, but they are very sore and not healing as well as i wished, so limited hand movement for the moment. but there is lots to look forward to; on may 18th i fly to france to meet my beau and spend 5 days with him there. soon after there is tribal ford and some kick-ass workshops, plus performance with rashani internacional. rashani are dancing lots this year, i am so very happy to be part of this troupe. there will be some big events coming up, but for the moment they are secret. as soon as i can talk about them be sure i will.