I swear that this isn't all I think about, but it seems to be all this blog wants to bear =)... so, in keeping with the theme:

I "feel" two parent forces to humans. My brain comes up with all sorts of stories when i try to explain this feeling to myself, but i like to keep the ones i actually believe as close to raw symbol as possible... so my favorite is that we have a "spiritual father" and a "spiritual mother." To me, Mother feels to be the plane(t) itself. In a very real way, we are made out of her. The Father feels to be a "seed from elsewhere" (everything points to "from the heavens".. whatever that means), that organizes the stuff we're made of into a Conscious Life-Form, and provides us with the will to exists, and to continue to exist, and to be hungry for bigger and better ways to exist.

Both of these appear to be necessary pre-requisites for existence, and i have another -- underlying -- feeling more difficult to explain. It says that "even these two forces are ultimately One, in a way you cannot yet perceive." As a way of acknowledging this feeling without truly understanding it, i call the "Mommy and Daddy" forces the Two Eyes of God. This way i can acknowledge the Two as Two, but still recognize them as One... that's my goal right now. "Transcend Duality;" see and understand One, without needing to break it down into parts.

All of my rants about evil are directly connected to this idea. I'm aware that the "parameters of existence" are different for different people, but in the culture i have the most experience in... ONLY ONE (IF EITHER) OF THESE TWO FORCES IS RECOGNIZED AS "GOD."

I think the "other half" is instinctually felt on the whole -- so it cannot be sincerely denied; but, because it doesn't fit into the accepted (warped and incomplete) image of "One God," it becomes an Opposing conception of a Powerful Enemy to this imagined "One God."

Since I first reached out to my parent Force(s), and first felt an response... my soul has wailed "THIS IS WRONG!! God HAS no enemies! What you condemn is ALSO of God." I feel, instinctually, that spiritual existence should be about collective and cooperative growth; but i've witnessed it be, instead, about unnecessary strife... an internal war agreed upon and externalized. What i've seen of established religion seems, to me, to be a centuries-old attempt to pluck out one of "God's Eyes."

What makes this situation even more miserable is that the Half of God, Existence, and Everything that is being condemned is PRECISELY THE HALF THAT IS READY AND WILLING TO BE SHAPED BY A HUMAN'S INBORN CAPACITY TO CREATE. It is the Great Mother, the Dark Womb that gestates and forms dreams into being. So the Womb answers, and spits out whatever twisted shapes its condemners choose to envision and conceive of.

We've done this to ourselves.

I, for One, am done with this Way of Doing.