i haven't done a Landmark seminar since Feb, though i did get to do some assisting in Ken's integrity seminar.

even though i haven't been in anything, i've felt it grow within me.

i realize that all the times that i've felt people hurt me or offended me or angered me or in any way did me wrong, it was really just a decision i made, a long time ago, that such things would be hurtful, offensive, infuriating, or just wrong.

so, wow. *taking a very long deep breath* it's my choice to be sad or angry.

the proof of this is that not every person would feel the same way that i do in the same situation. that's proof that we each make our own choices on how to feel . . . and, of course, on how to react.

this is not a new revelation, but something that is finally starting to stick.

i'm not perfect, oh heck no. i still blame people for doing bad things and get angry and sad and pout and all that junk.

but, eventually i do realize that it's all within my control. . . within me to be sad or happy, angry or peaceful.

i'm such a huge work in progress. i have so much more to do. i don't want to be out of time so soon.

okay.... some people know and, for others, this is going to be a big surprise.

i'm sorry for leaving it here, but it's the fastest way to tell my tribe friends and i'm feeling rather lazy today.

see, well, i had chemotherapy yesterday. yeah, i know, i'm not very good at breaking this news easily. it's been 4 weeks, so i just had chemo #3 (2 weeks on, 1 week off).

the cancer did a really nasty spread with over 100 nodules in my lungs, a big tumor and a few smalls in the liver, more in my spleen and spreading in the vertebrae (where it had already metastasized in 2001).

most of you know that i'm optimistic and have a fighting spirit, so don't get yourself too down just yet. there are miles to go before i sleep.

*hugs you*

kimberly/aubi/auburn

i couldn't help but feel the magical essence of today as i woke up. . . nope, no tree, no surprises, no wrapped gifts. . . not even the religious beliefs anymore . . . so what's left? just the essence of the holiday and the special beauty surrounding it. . .

it helps that things are going so very well. . .

la vie, c'est bon!

girl v. 4.3i.

old school rap.

check this out: www.youtube.com/watch

and this too: www.youtube.com/watch

mmmm..... love!!!!!!!!!!

Go Cubs goOOooo!

Go Cubs gooOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!

Hey, Chicago! Wadda ya sa?

Cubs are gonna win today!!!

YAY!!!! GO CUBBBS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!