Painfully so somedays...there is a boy downstairs and I smile every morning when I see him...I'll never go in and talk to him. Once I saw him outside across the parking lot...

And I'm a flirt. I've been that way my entire life that I can remember. I'm quick to smile and bring a smile to others. I can find sunshine and happiness in most situations. I can talk to anyone. But can I figure out if they are flirting with me? No.

More importantly can I figure out a way to ask them out... read more

Heading off to the East Coast again on Sunday....home for a week and a half...although I must say I was happy to come home to this cooler weather. It was only in the high 90's here. Not the high 90's with horrid humidity. It was like a sauna there. And now I am off again. Yesterday they said it was 115 degrees. I suggested they turn the temperature down for next week for me. Of course this is going to be a fabulous trip at a resort and lots of spoiling. At least that's the way I'm lo... read more

Wow...I got noticed...by more than one person even. That makes me happy. Not that I don't get noticed. I do. I live to get noticed. But it can just be the subtle things that make all the difference. I'm totally terrified to be going to DC, but at the same time I'm all excited. I contacted some groups over there and made contact. They seem really nice, but what will they think of me in person. I am a bit of a handful. And I've been told they are way more serious over there. Well the... read more

Blue skies and pretty sunshine make me happy. It was a glorious weekend. Think of how many sunny, warm clear 4th of Julys we have had in Oregon. Yesterday was pretty amazing. We do live in a great country. The fireworks flashing in the skies everywhere as I drove home last night all around me was truly spectacular. I was happy to be here.

I thought I would narrow down my options here as it gave me a place to see them in writing versus just bouncing around in my head. Of course inevitably it is all a bunch of fantasy and desire, but how much can it hurt.

There seems to be a lack of companionship in my life. So I thought if I figured out what I was looking for I could stop making snap decisions and gut wrenching errors.

Ideally - the love of my life - my soul mate
Realistically - someone who cares for me and mine

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