My Life as the World Gave it to Me. . .

My World is Chaotic & Pleasurable. . . .

Accendolacerta — Sat, 02 Aug 2008 19:41:53 GMT

So, we managed to get ourselves into a space, at least for this month. Assuming everything works out, we won't have to move again for a while. We ended up in Riches old space, which is hilarious to me!! Ideally we would find someone to split the entire space with us after Sunny moves out, but we'll see how everything works out. Pepper (the cat) is so stoked at the size of the house, I'm fairly sure he'll have no desire to go outside due to that simple fact. I'm also noticing he's been avoiding needles. . . .not surprised, he had a cat mate for over 5 years that looked exactly like her, but was WAY MORE of a bitch than she is. . . . Aeries is skidish, but finally standing his ground, as far as Pepper being upstairs in his area. . . . SO, on top of having a week off from being sick, Thursday night I was up every 5minutes or so, sick out either end (I know, isn't my conversation pleasant!) yesterday I spent the entire time laying around, with random, quite literally, random occurrences of SEVERE pain in my stomach. Today I seem to be much better, I even managed some meat, which I seem to be holding down. I've started moving all our shit into one area so it isn't in the way, and we managed to Ferret proof an area so that the weasels are not running around Jakes old space. Still trying to find a nanny job. My current schedule and being sick so often is not helping the process. . . . . SO, I still need everyones phone numbers again, thank you to those who have already gotten them to me!!!! I'm excited about living in Oakland, and being so close to the city and everyone we know. I know Tygre is going to stoked herself. . . . .and I find it quite amazing that we ended up moving into a house with someone we met at a Misha party. . . . .amazing people. I love knowing them and being around them. . . .

Contact Juggling meets ballet meets contortionist gymnastics!!!!

Accendolacerta — Sun, 20 Jul 2008 05:21:36 GMT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Viu7U8_IhD4

Moving is Eminent

Accendolacerta — Mon, 16 Jun 2008 03:33:49 GMT

So there's a chance we'll be having to move sooner than planned. would love to get into a space where we know people. Looks like we might have to stay in santa rosa until we can move (that is, if we are needed to be out of here early) ughness. . . .lol Was SUPPOSED to go the pirate fest this weekend. Not sure what happened. Kie had to be in Windsor to help his grandmother. we stayed at his brothers place, which was empty of people due to them being in taho, and I got sucked. . . . . . .it isnt that i didnt want to be around people. . . .oh i did and do constantly, but something about having a place to sleep and be without the occupants of the house being around was appealing. . . . . . . .i think if we live WITH people it will definitely need to be in a pretty open space. . . . . . Kie videoed me doing poi tonight so that i could see how it looks. . . . .is it just me or am i DEFINITELY sexy when i do that?? probably just me. . . . i have this thing with seeing myself on video. . . . . . .it isnt that its bad. . . . .its just that the last time i was video taped was while having sex and that was really strange. . . . . .so me and video are sort of at odd with eachother. . . . .not bad, just weird. . . . . .anyway, I'm going to be sending one to my mother, cuz she has no idea what im talking about apparently. . . . . . . . .and she checks her email at some point. . . . . . . Was going to call my father, decided to email him instead. I really dont find the possibility of having to say even "hello give my father the phone" to my step mother very appealing at all. hell, even hearing her voice in the background will irritate me to no return. . . . . .that woman is vile to me. . . . . .I dont normally talk very ill of anyone, unless it is, in fact, true, but seriously. Have to work earlier that usual this week, so ill be off to sleep soon. not sure what ill be doing next weekend. friday is Midsummer, so ive got that day off. . . .Ive also got the entire week after that off due to the possibility of my sister being in town. . . . . . .thats exciting, i think sat is game night somewhere for kies belated bdgift. . . . .summer thing is sunday, that might be kewl. . . ..great excuse to be in the city, OUTSIDE and listening to loud music. . .. ..i have no idea what ill do, havent made up my mind yet. . . . .any ideas??

The life of Amphibians. . . . .

Accendolacerta — Sun, 01 Jun 2008 20:51:14 GMT

This weekend has been a slow one, yet it's been nice. I got quite a workout yesterday doing poi, so my body is nice and sore today! Each time i go outside I poi. . . . . .it's very fulfilling. The rate in which the price of gas is increasing is starting to effect my driving mood. It's crazy that I drive further for work, using more gas, than I do visiting my friends by the city and driving around there. . . . . .Worse case scenario: I stay a few nights at Kie's brothers place in Rhonert Park. Which, I would rather not do, but whatever. We are getting very anxious to move. Well, I've been ready, but he is now joining me in this feeling. We have officially decided (yes, I know I said it wouldn't happen) that we would like to live in or around the city. We would prefer to live in a communal situation with a good amount of space, but know that it probably won't be possible to get into during the months we are looking at being able to do it. We don't know anything about certain neighborhoods, where is better than where, or yadda, yadda. . . . . . . .So don't any of you be surprised if we bring it up with questions and what not when talking with us. . . . . . I've got a great costume in my head I'm going to be trying to work on. I've been trying to find a way of describing it. . . . .but I haven't been able to find even a picture that shows the basic idea. I will say this, I will have wild hair and be using dried pigs ears (the ones dogs love) to be my own. . . . . . yay for me!!! Any who I've got until the Celtic new year to figure it out. . . . . .this is also the latest we would like to be moved by. . . . .

Kie Comics

Accendolacerta — Sat, 24 May 2008 23:15:44 GMT

In an attempt to get something Kie does out into the world, I will be posting photos of comics he has drawn up. Feel free to comment, feel free not to, whatever. . . .

Fun Shit. . . .

Accendolacerta — Fri, 23 May 2008 17:30:37 GMT

Anyone wanna go to summer thing with me?? I think it's the 22nd of June. . . . . .anyway, why not, free music!!! The new job is much better. . . . . the 1hr 1/2 drive to and from work isn't too bad either, but when I wake up in the morning I am fucking EXHAUSTED!!!! I now want nothing more than to not be home on the weekends, have some fun, it sucks doing nothing but working, eating, and sleeping during the week. . . . . Three day weekend turned into a four day weekend. I randomly blew chunks in one of the sinks in my classroom yesterday. I think I must have thrown up at least 8 times between 335 and 5. . . . . .one of which was while driving on the highway. . . . . I do NOT recommend doing this. . . . . . .I did manage to not kill myself though, stopped in Petaluma and sat for 2 or three hours not moving, mucho better by the time Kie managed to come and get me (no way I was going to try and drive again). Im excellent now, must have been food poisoning, anyway, they didn't want me into work today so now I have a four day weekend!!!!! Not sure what I'm doing. . . .would love to end up by the city, just have to get ahold of people. . . .

What do you have to say??

Accendolacerta — Sun, 18 May 2008 07:01:59 GMT

http://www.eyeblast.tv/Public/Video.aspx?rsrcID=2036

It's GONE. . . .ALL GONE!!!!!

Accendolacerta — Fri, 16 May 2008 16:03:26 GMT

Kie's 30 today. We are going to Sonoma to eat seafood with his family. He shaved his beard off today. . . . .It was awesome, the whole 5 minutes before he had me braid all that lovely hair and chop it off!!!!! I wanted him to wait until later today or tomorrow. . . . . . .But he didn't want to go to work looking "all weird" He really looks weird now. . . . .isn't even long enough to spike!!!! No getting a good grip either. . . . .now what hair will I pull?? *sniffs* I already miss the hair. . . . . .I have a fantastic braid of Kie hair at my disposal chilling on the dinning room table downstairs though. . . . . .hmmm, what could I do with it. . . . . .I could make a doll. . . . .*laughs maniacally" Too bad we didn't get good pictures of it being long. . . . . . . .'supposedly" he's going to grow it out again. I'll have to try and post a picture of it now. . . . . . . .you'll freak when you see it . . . . . On another note, looks like he's going to have weekends off. . . . . . . .maybe I can get him to the city with me. . . . . . . .I think it would be good for him to get some socializing with awesome peeps into his system. . . . . . Got my ears pierced yesterday. . . . . . . last time they were done I think I was 8 and they were just normal earrings. . . . . . .I went for 14 gage. . . . . . .that's pretty thick for me, my barbell isn't that big I don't believe. . . . . who knows, I forgot as soon as the hole was in my tongue. . . . .anyway, they rock!!!! and my left ear hurts. . . . gooooood, hehehe

Gory Enough for My Liking. . . . .

Accendolacerta — Wed, 14 May 2008 04:54:33 GMT

Though I did not know Sweeney Todd was a musical, I enjoyed it. . . . . . .I mean, I like musicals, just didn't seem like the sort for it. I love the wardrobe, ofcourse, and there's nothing more arousing than watching Johnny Depp murder random people. . . . . Creepiest part, I'll have to agree with Ed. . . . . .the scene with all the sunshine and color. . . . . .

I'm Torn

Accendolacerta — Thu, 08 May 2008 14:47:03 GMT

between a few things. . . . . . The expectation to live in the typical two-three bedroom home in a neighborhood you wouldn't have caught me in while growing up, The extreme desire to live communally with individuals I can, at some point, call friends. People completely comfortable with eachother, artistic, energetic, nonjudgmental. . . . . . The need for control, stability, a few nights without parties. . . . . . . . NOT parallel parking. . . . . hehehe

Fucking Amazing. . . .

Accendolacerta — Thu, 08 May 2008 02:18:11 GMT

Talk about bringing reinforcements!!!!! You HAVE to watch this. . . . . .Water Buffalo, Crocodile and Lions. . . . http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LU8DDYz68kM

Weekend Excursions. . . .

Accendolacerta — Tue, 06 May 2008 16:28:30 GMT

This Weekend Was FANTASTIC!!!! I met the most AMAZING individuals, some for the second time . . . . .Hung out with the most awesome group of fire spinners, slept in THE most comfortable van there must be. . . . . attached myself to an outrageous woman(or two), made a few great connections, forgot a couple of names, made what I can only HOPE to be fantastic friends, and picked up a few new, INTERESTING habits. . . . . . . Sunday was way to slow but I was glad to be there anyway. I was mostly a Zombie yesterday, more so than Sunday, though my day went by surprisingly fast and smooth. . . . . .mmmm fast and smooth. . . . . SO, If it's planned out right, looks like a good number of my weekends will actually be full of some form of excitement . . . . . . . though, perhaps not for a couple weeks. I've always said living in a large city would drive me crazy, I'm more nature oriented than that. . . . . .Didn't take long for Kie to use my new found friends and desires in an attempt to talk me into an inner city move!! He's right about a few things. There ARE more of the jobs I want around there, it pays more, and it's certainly closer to most of the people I've chosen to surround myself with recently, including a few I know he would love to see more of. Still . . . . . the city?? Really?? I'm not entirely sure how I feel about it. I would certainly love to be closer than I am now!! We'll see where I end up come August. . . . .

Nothing Better to Do Than Type. . . .

Accendolacerta — Wed, 23 Apr 2008 17:31:51 GMT

You should call me Keep me company Enjoy Life, Even when you're down I'm bored, as usual Nothing better to do than type the randomness that flows through my cranium. . . . . Europe Beckons The Green of an area not close While the cat stares at me with non judging, "pet me bitch" eyes The hunt for a new job has started, I can not continue working somewhere I am not Happy As soon as this box that is around me has effectively been ripped and hacked to shreds Perhaps Hashing is in order, debauchery, Free the will I've been away from groups of people for entirely too long, has it changed the way I perceive the world around me Maybe I just need to shower. . . . . .

Wonderous Lies. . . .

Accendolacerta — Tue, 22 Apr 2008 16:55:31 GMT

I always feel like I should be interacting with more people than I do. What's holding me back? It's strange we pass by numerous individuals each day without even a hello. When you do speak it's "uncomfortable". We are only in this world for a short time, the next one will be entirely different. So why do we bother with societal expectations? We tell ourselves it's the way of life. We say "What choice do I have". We blame it on the amount of money available to us. We could all be encouraging, caring, providing, interacting, supporting, relying on one another. Each person you let close to you. If you want to be around each other, make an effort.

SUPPORT THE NORTH AMERICAN~~~~Deadliest Catch Season 4

Accendolacerta — Thu, 03 Apr 2008 18:16:02 GMT

Everyone help support Travis and the crew of the North American. Travis Arket is a pretty good friend of mine, and I'm totally STOKED to see that his crew made the final cut for season four!!! It starts April 15th on the discovery channel!! If you would like to know more about Travis, or anything else they are doing here are a few websites. . . . http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=116271932 <~~~~ one of his (many I'm sure) myspace sites www.travisarket.com <~~~~ really its a blog site, I would say it's the first one he had but really it's the first one he told me to check out years ago. www.fvnorthamerican.com <~~~~~~ it isn't up and running yet, but this is the official site for the whole crew and what not. . . . last but not least, his team has been chosen for some rickshaw thing (i still dont know what that is but im sure I'll be finding out) http://rickshawrun08s.theadventurists.com/robothouse WELL, tata for now. . . .just had to spread the word for a friend. . . . . . .

Spring Break

Accendolacerta — Mon, 31 Mar 2008 17:48:26 GMT

SO. . . . . .I once again went to Arizona for this trip. We once again went to Vegas, only this time my mother joined my grandmother and I. MUCHO!!!! experience. . . . . . . THIS time we went to see a couple shows. First we went to the Improv Comedy Club (sunday night) (I forget which casino that's in). Ron Murray is hilarious, so is Doug. . . . . .I forget his last name at the moment. Jim Pardu isn't as funny though. He mostly does audience heckling, which all in good fun but gets old after a few minutes. My mother got picked on, that was great!! She has this ridiculous laugh, there's a few different ones, one of those laughs where, when you stop laughing at the joke you start laughing at her laugh!!!! We were right at the stage, so heckling was had for her. The second show we went to see on the trip was ZUMANITY!!!!! (wednesday night) Now THIS is a MUST SEE SHOW. First off Cirque du soile (I'm sure that's spelled wrong) fucking ROCKS!!!! Second, this show has Kie and I, and everyone else we knew in Europe (and a few here) written all over it!!!! Don't see this show if you are afraid of any sort of sexuality. Don't see this show if you are afraid of your body, or anyone else's body, being exposed freely. Definitely. . . . . .FANTASTIC!!!! I felt like ripping my clothing off, joining the show and having lots and LOTS of sex the entire time. . . . . .too bad Kie was in California. . . . . . . . .damnit! Got to walk to strip at night this time, and stopped by the fountains and saw THREE water shows. . . .that's pretty fucking awesome too. No one hit on my the entire time (excluding the guy that tagged along with the guy hitting on my mother the first night) gods, he must have been a couple years younger than me and he REALLY wanted his hands in my mothers breasts. . . .it was great. . . . . .few other guys hit on mom while we were there. Good for her. Made friends with one of the street artists doing spray paintings. . . . .he's pretty kewl. Mike Fletcher. . . . Well, on that note I'm getting off line. Need to prepare myself for my first day back at work, yay. . . . . .Tomorrow Kie is going to try and get the car registered and all that jazz. . . . .good luck. I might have a better job in line, just depends one what the details are (same company different location). Later. . . .

R.I.P. Barbara. . .

Accendolacerta — Sun, 07 Oct 2007 02:18:42 GMT

Our Kitty Barbara was last seen leaving the house Tuesday night. I was so busy that night I only got to play with her a bit, never got the chance to just sit with her on the couch for hours like usual. Kie left for California Wednesday and she still had not come home, same Thursday and Friday. I went out every morning and called for her. She has never not come when I call her. . .never!! She always does. . . . I talked with Kie this morning. He told me to go down three houses in either direction of the house and see if maybe she got stuck in someone’s garage, or tool shed . . . since she likes to get into places. I went next door first but no one was home, so i went to the next house and a lady answered. I told her my cat had been missing for a few days, she asked if she was dark with brown, I said yea, black with brown spots all over her . . . . . she looked like she was going to tell me something along the lines of I’m sorry I took her to the shelter. Instead she tells me there was a cat that got hit by a car out in front of the apartments, it was dead when she found it, someone must have come and collected it, and she told me she was very sorry. She even told me there was a purple collar. She said to check with the people in the apartments, that maybe they would know something more. I told her I lived in those apartments. I held my composure until i got to my back porch then just started balling. I saw her Tuesday night, every morning, day, and night since then I’ve been out there calling her, I’ve been by the ditch I’ve been everywhere. . . .I never noticed ANYTHING that would suggest she got hit by a car. When I say I started balling I mean I was screaming, coughing, hollering. . . .I walked around out front to see pepper, maybe calm down, didn't help, I went to Joel's to see if anyone was home, no one, when people started pulling into our driveway I was balled up in the front lawn screaming and crying so hard!!!! I stood up and noticed a spot on the road, went and looked and saw Barbara's rear end sticking out of the bushes. . . .Bastards!!!! She had a collar on, WITH info; couldn't someone have checked and let me know before stashing her body under the bushes?? That of course cased me to be even louder, I lost it, I've never cried so hard in my life, not that I can remember, not even durring the divorce did I feel this much pain and hurt inside. I saw Jeremy pull up so I went out back to meet him . . .(his father’s funeral was today too) and told him what happened, through tears. . . .He and his friends took me inside, while another of his friends got a trash bag and went and got her so I wouldn't have to. When Joel got home we went next door to his place, I've been there since now. I got a hold of Kie, he thinks the lady I talked to is the one that hit her. He told me to make sure the bag isn't in the sun, and that we would bury her and have a ceremony when he gets home. He gets home tomorrow night so that's not long. I know she's already decomposing though; there is fur and maggots stuck to the ground where she was. . . .I'm so upset I don't how to handle it. All I can think is "why couldn't it have been Pepper. . . . I love pepper I don't want him dead, but she was fantastic, she was brilliant, smart, fucking weird, she was the best. . . . .I miss her so much already!!! I fucking told him. . . .I told him nothing good ever comes from my animals being outside. . . .But it was such a great place for them to get to go out, and he grew up with his cats outside (dad allergic) and nothing ever happened to his. . . .he talked me into it. They have only been going out for 2 months; she was only 2 years old. . . .She was the best companion animal I have ever known, my entire life. I wish Kie were here. I'm so PISSED. . . .I've been breaking out in random fits of crying on and off all night so far. Some last for only a few seconds, some last so long it hurts. . . . .I loved her so much. . . . .I miss her so much. . . . I'll be compiling pictures of her and creating something to remember her. . . .keep an eye out for it, I will be sharing. . . Salamander

My Prolonged Absence. . . .

Accendolacerta — Fri, 27 Jul 2007 20:35:08 GMT

So, here I am. . . .yes, I've not written any sort of blog for quite a while. If you hadn't noticed, I'm not really into it. best way to see whats going on with me is to email or call me. i like being more personal anyway. Few things i'ld like to bring up right quick: My ex husband has a girlfriend. im ecstatic at that fact, its a heart breaker when hes not happy. i opened an old email he sent me earlier while i was cleaning out my email accounts. one cant help but to think that if our communication, understanding and 100% open support of each other was what it should have been, maybe it would have worked. there's still this little part of me that naggs in the back of my mind, the thought of him actually thinking i left him for kie. . . . .tares me apart. though, i truly have no way of proving that to him, or anyone else for that matter. they either believe me, or they dont. i dont blame anyone for not, after all, i did such a fantastic job of secluding myself from everyone. perhaps someday ill get over that little instinct, it happens when my world is falling apart, and instead of helping, it makes it worse, and leaves room for judgments that shouldn't be there. ANYWAY, i hope and dream that one day our paths cross again, I really would love to meet the woman that is making his world the place he wants to live in. on another note, ive been trying to get into contact with everyone ive pretty much ignored these last few years. not sure if it will work. those i continue to not hear from, even after the apologizes and admitting i was wrong, i will unfortunately be deleting from my contact files. i can not continue to dwell on people from my past if they want nothing to do with my future. it hurts, i care for so many so deeply, but my email does not and probably will not ever change, so when/if they change their minds, ill still be there to reach. for those of you who don't know, Kie and I are actually together. we have had to move twice since we moved to Alabama. the first time due to my father proving to not only care nothing about my actual well being, but them wanting to sell the house and blaming anything and everything on me. thats my prediction at least. the last thing i heard, they were trying to set my brother against me, which has, once again, proved to be pointless. the second time because our room mate not only proved to be completely worthless as an individual working within society, but because we could not afford to support is lazy, drug infested ass. great guy to know and hang out with, absolutely NOT compatible to live with. on that note, we are moving once again. we never planned for this living arrangement to last very long, certainly not as long as it did. matter of fact we called it the "Sleepover at John's" in the beginning. it has been reminded thats the case the longer we live with these people. great to know, absolutely disgusting to live with. matter of fact, i have not known anyone to be more worthless in society than these two. im not typing this to bad mouth them. but any one who is 100% content to work and do nothing with themselves but consume mass amounts of drugs, is no one a future teacher should be living with. friends, yes, roomies, hell no. the place we are moving into is fantastic!! its in an area of town we really enjoy, surrounded by trees and all sorts of greenery, parks, walking distance from a small strip that reminds me of home. you know, private theater, cafe with internet (complete with a sexy punk rock looking chika) yadda, yadda. the cats can go outside, we'll see how that works out, and the ferrets can once again roam the entire house instead of a room the size of a small kitchen. Current Problematic Occurances: We are, as usual, stressing over money. we managed to save enough to pay the deposit, which we did. we are confidant we can save for rent, but the start up fees for utilities are of course outrageous. we are planning for the worse of course, having to pay deposits on all three, water, gas, electricity. im going to round up to about $400 leaving a bit of leeway. we'll see how that goes. Next, we need a truck. a guy i work with ahs one and is going to help us move. but hes got a cover on it that opens much like a trunk, and it doesn't come off. so he can only move things that will fit laying down. so ive got to find another person with a truck for the stuff that wont fit and my entire garden. tomatoes, eggplants, cucumbers, herbs up the ass. . . .these can NOT be laid down. they have been through enough trauma. i transplanted them from the garden out back into 5 gallon buckets to take them to the new house. the smaller plants i can put in the car. but the tomatoes are entirely too tall. and the pumpkin in in a small kiddy pool. hopefully we can talk our room mates dad into letting kie borrow his truck next weekend. cross ur fingers!!!! i managed to get my mothers information for my Fasfa. are you thinking what i thought?? "why should you need it, ur 23, live on ur own(not with parents) and have been married." well, evidently if you are under the age of 24, as soon as that divorce paperwork is finale you are automatically considered dependent under ur parentals and their finances. even if you don't live with them, receive any money from them, or even talk with them on a regular basis, hell, we are in different states all together!! well i got it, and sent it in. NOW they need a signed copy of my mothers tax forms as well as mine, and a sheet asking about untaxed income (welfare, social security, child support) signed by each of us. how they expect me to get such things from a woman living in ARIZONA before the 15th is beyond me. not to mention even if i do get it, evidently my grades last semester weren't enough to bring my GPA up from 1.something to 2.something so ill need to write a letter of appeal about that. all this before they can even tell me if im going to receive aid for this year or not. ill be lucky if i manage to be eligible for another student loan because of how close to the semester it is. its almost as if they don't believe that my mother and i combined don't make enough money to put me through college. bureaucratical assholes!! they have already billed me for $550 and thats not including the cost of books ill be needing. worse case scenario, ill have to try and place a forbearance (spelling?) on my account and take the next two semesters off. which would really set me back. Random thoughts on other aspects of life. . . Work is going fine. i really want to take more classes and have enough time off to get the work done though. it is convenient being on campass, but im there every day from 730 to 100 and ever other Friday 730 to 500. i really don't have time to take more than one or two classes, and kie only works two days a week. ive got an idea that might work, it just depends on the people i babysit for (their daughters are in my classroom). i make more money watching them 15hrs a week that i do working 30 hrs a week at work. cross ur fingers it works. well thats all for now. just a brief cap. i have a week off, after nest week. we start moving next week. ill write again when i get the chance.

HOME!!!!

Accendolacerta — Mon, 09 Apr 2007 19:00:04 GMT

Im thinking of starting a "Get KIE and SAL back to california" fund. . . .any thoughts??

haps continued. . .

Accendolacerta — Sun, 30 Jul 2006 18:26:57 GMT

Well, here i am again. i know i took a day longer to finnish posting than i said i would. a few things have changed since then. . . . Well, I quit my job at the retail store. see, teusday i was supposed to work, but had to take kie to court (he got pulled over and cited about a month ago for driving without proof of insurence, we had litterally that day found out we were no longer on davids insurence) so i tried to call dorathy around 0630 to tell her, couldnt get ahold of her, so called the next person on my list, brandon. he says hes got no choice if i have to go to court, so its okay. then i called friday to get my schedual for this next week (she hasnt been schedualing me AT ALL, because she claims i havent told her about the schedule for the new place. but i DID, i told her that ill call each morning and if they need me ill go in, and if not ill go in and work for her, and she said that was FINE, except when i call her she says not to come in) and she says "your schedule is teusday 5pm to 10pm. (which brings me to another point. when she hired me she did it knowing my school schedule is abouve everything else. i told her i cant work that late, we close at 7 anyway, on days i have class the next day. i have finals this week, im not fucking working untill 10 o'clock pm. . . .) and i say "thats it?" and she perceedes to tell me how im unreliable, even though i constantly get there at 8 am, supposed to leave between 3 and 5, and stay untill fucking 7pm, she also says that im her best person for the job and that she relies on me to get the stuff done, and i cant be calling at 0630 in the morning saying i have to go to court!! company policy states i have to call AT LEAST a 1/2 hr before im scheduled to come in. i gave her ass pleanty of time to find someone else to cover my shift. and i didnt even realize i was going to have to take him untill 6 that morning anyway!!!! well she said something, i cant remember what, but as i went to respond she hung up on me. . . .BITCH, i have dealt with that shit too long, shes rude, shes contradictory, she doesnt know how to do her job, and she fucking hung up on me. . .im deciding if im going to call her or just not show up teusday. . . anyway, im going to turn in that application for the school cdc job tomorrow or teusday. . . . thinking of going hashing today. they were expecting me in like november or december to start up, but i just havent had the time to do it. theres one every sunday at 5pm, and im highly considering going. ofcourse its pouring down rain outside, so ill have to call and make sure they are still going. i would be highly surprised if they cancled it just because of some rain. . . .then again, the lightning gets pretty fucking bad. . .our power went out lastnight, it got so hot in the house due to none of the ac units being on. i was so afraid my babies were going to die of heat stroke. had to take jasper to the vet friday, his poor little self was so hot, he just layed there with his belly in the air in the passenger seat the entire time. except on the way home, i had to hold him because his moving around while im trying to drive was NOT helping. . . .we really need the air conditioning fixed. so, fred is still acting as though this whole divorce bullshit doesnt hurt. i dont get him. . . .hes the one who said he wanted to still be friends. ive tried even to not email him and attempt real converdation. . . .at that attempt i figured i could do the myspace shit and pop the occasional "hi, hope youre doing well" on his page, but hes against that. . . .sometimes i feel as though he would have been better off had he never met me. . . .but i know that cant possible be true. . . .hes grown so much since i met him, not quite in the direction that would have coaxed me along, but in a direction at least. . . .im proud of him, but at the same time dissapointed. . . .i guess the best i can do is attempt to mend the friendships affected by those turn of events and (though its against EVERYTHING i stand for) hope he find happiness somwhere, and allows me to show the overwhelming joy i feel when he is so. . . . SO, ive got to go for now, i need to figure out my class schedule for next term, then attempt to get ahold of my fucking ricockulous father to pay for them. . . .if not ill have to use my grant money for it. . . . Sal

the haps. . .

Accendolacerta — Sun, 30 Jul 2006 18:25:26 GMT

Okay, I know I hardly ever post on this damned thing, but today is a day of post for me. . . . SOOOOO, summer term ends wednesday, im freaking out about two of the three classes im taking. in english, ill be lucky to get a c. . .in history, well, lets just say ive failed each test, and i have one more, its a lecture class so theres no other hmw or anything. honestly i think thats my problem, if there were home work i would have more of an oportunity to engrain the fucking information past my obviously thick skull. . .im doing surprisingly well in math, though we dont have time to get to chapter 5, so those of us going on to 0800 will have a pretty bad handicap, shes going to try do a workshop for those sections beggining of next term. Work is work!! im currently working 2 jobs, thats right, you heard me. . .not one but TWO. . . .i work at a retail store called tuesday morning, mostly on the weekends lately, and the cdc on gunter afb, whenever they decide they need me. i really wanted to get 176 hrs in with them so ill automatically jump from flex to regular in six months. but if it continues as is, it wont be happening. i picked up an application for the child care place at the school. if i get that, depending on what it pays, i might quit the retail store. something about unloading trucks and rearranging a store CONSTANTLY doesnt seem so appealing. . . . .i dont know, just a quess. . .Kie is STILL working at crockmiers in the mall, STILL bitches about his pay, but hasnt looked into another job yet. he would really like to do banquets a few times a month, but we'll see how that goes. he STILL hasnt gotten his ged, his mom sent him money to get it, we didnt spend it, and didnt spend it, and he didnt get it, then we needed the $ to pay some damned bill. . . .i HATE bills, with a fucking passion. I want to find the guy who invented this whole "bill" bullshit, and beat his fucking face in with a Blaster Neural Whip . . . . .if you can guess where thats from. . . My car needs new front tires, and it needs a check up. . . .blah blah blah. . . .it just keeps pileing up. hopefully the dry rot on a particular tire doesnt blow it out as im doing 70 or 80 down the interstate stuck between two semi trucks. . . . the pets are doing fine. barbara has been going in and out of heat and pepper keeps trying to stick it in her, but just cant get it right. i know hes fixed but jesus. . . .he arches his back way too much. its horrible to watch, and barbara just lays there screaming about it with her ass in the air!!! im always urged to walk over and help them out. . . .just get ur rox off and end it already. . . .it makes me feel bad for them both. kione and jasper are fine, jasper is getting better, but finding a positive reinforcement to litter train and yadda yadda him is still proving to be dificult. kie more than a few times earlier in the month mentioned finding him a new home cuz hes such a problem. i told him i would beat his ass if he tried it. lol. . . I finally dreaded my hair. about a month ago actually. they are coming along nicely, though they sure are messy. ive been keeping them pulled back much as possible. the left side is dreading much faster than the right. i beleive its because i sleep on the right side. ive got shampoo but i havent used it much. it leaves a slight scent, which indicates residue. . . .ive been trying to make the 20 bucks or whatever outragious price it is, to get the shampoo i know for a fact is residue free. . . . well, ive got to go and eat and roll my hair more, and finnish whtching devil's rejects. . . .ill either continue this later or tomorrow. . .

SWEETNESS. . .Im addicted to sweet tea once AGAIN!!!!

Accendolacerta — Fri, 16 Jun 2006 17:07:04 GMT

Okay, so school is going alright. . . .i got a 94 on my first math test, not sure about my history test (i suck at taking notes and its a lecture class) and ive got a paper due in english on monday. im supposed to analyze a short story. . .ick!!!! kie isnt in school yet. the animals are doing fine. pepper and barbara litterally wrestle through the house. Kione is doing great, she has a new friend, and the house hasnt gotten too terribly hot for her yet (we have to keep it under 80 degrees). Work is okay. the CDC on gunter finally called me back. i go for orientation tuesday. if i can get garenteed hrs for tuesday, thursday and friday, ill quit my job at Tuesday Morning. if not, ill see if i can juggle both of them on a call every morning basis. . . . cross ur fingers that it works out. kie still works at crockmiers in the mall. he talks about gettin a new job but hasnt done anything towards that yet. Kimie (one of our two soon to be room mates) is supposed to be moving in this weekend. VERY excited about that one. . .will certainly help with the bills, i plan on heloing her look for a job. other than that, life is life. kie has gotten himself worked up over an idea he has for the future. i back him up on it 100%. soon as i know more, youll know more. i signed the divorce paperwork. dad and rachel wanted to make sure i wasnt being screwed over before i signed them. but they were/are so self explanitory i didnt feel they needed to see them. hopefully i can still go to my pap appointment the 22nd before they drop my sponsorship. . . .i let fred know i had an appointment and asked him to let me know if they do so i can find out how much one will cost. money is still tight. we havebeen getting just enough to pay bills, but have no extra for stuff like more food and other things (we ran out of laundry soap the other day) but theres a dollar store down the street. . . well, gtg, literally TONS of home work. . .love you

I'm a SEXY Pirate!!!!

Accendolacerta — Fri, 02 Jun 2006 02:17:59 GMT

I scored as Captain Jack Sparrow. I'm Roguish,quick-witted, and incredibly lucky, Jack Sparrow is a pirate who sometimes ends up being a hero, against his better judgement. Captain Jack looks out for #1, but he can be counted on (usually) to do the right thing. He has an incredibly persuasive tongue, a mind that borders on genius or insanity, and an incredible talent for getting into trouble and getting out of it. Maybe its brains, maybe its genius, or maybe its just plain luck. Or maybe a mixture of all three.

Moving??

Accendolacerta — Mon, 24 Apr 2006 16:24:37 GMT

So, the apartment that Kie and I were trying for fell through. The guy bumped us up on the list from 42nd to 3rd cuz we know Joal, but the lady that was before us decided to take the apartment. . . . .I was really hoping to get that one and I know Kie was too. . . . .it was perfect for us, in the right area, and we would have had a friend for a neighbor. . . . .oh well, today after he gets out from work and I'm out from school we are going to go and drive around that area to see if anything else is availuable. . . .it really is a great area. . . . .no worries about getting shot at or robbed. . . .lol School is still going pretty well. I skipped my theatre class today, I was just so exuahsted for some reason, and Kie didn't want to be to work an hr early today. . Finals are about two weeks from now. . . .trippy how fast it flew by. Summer is going to be a shorter term. I'll be taking English Composition II, U.S. History I and Elementry Algebra. I won't even be gettin credit towards my degree with that math class, or the next one. . . . .I took the placement test and have to start at the bottom, so my first two classes are basically shit towards graduation, but oh well. . . .long as I manage to pass math. How am I?? I couldnt even get past high school math, Let alone college math!!!! we'll see. . .wish me luck!!!! Work is going okay. I started working on register the other day. But my primary "function" is to do recovery. Basically I'm one of the people who has to go through everything on the shelf and pull it down if its got certain numbers on it, discount it if need be or stockroom it. then replace everything on the shelf all nicely and organized like. Except that the store is a reck, theres not enough room for all the shit thats in there, and the customers just throw everything on the shelf anywhere it will fit instead of putting it where it goes. MOST of the employees just throw shit whereever too!!!! It's fucking ridiculous. . . .I still have'nt heard back from the CDC people. Matter of fact, I think I'll call them right now. . . . On another note, Kie's naked day is the 16th of May. I've been trying to find something to get him, but I can't really offord anything yet. Not untill we've at least got an apartment and the car is fixed and I have my own insurence. . . .THEN I would theoretically be able to offord something I WANT to get him. . . . . .I'm thinking about having him request the day off but I dont know what else to do. . . . .oh well, I'll have to ask him what he wants to do. . . . That's it for now. . . .Im just trying to pass these classes and get onto the next. Waiting to hear back from my father about the money. . . .they said they would be paying for my school expenses. . . .I emailed them everything yesterday. . . . .hope they dont turn back on that deal as well. . . .later you guys, luv ya!!!! Sal

I dont know what to do now. . . .

Accendolacerta — Fri, 07 Apr 2006 16:47:11 GMT

so, kie and i are kicked out of my parents place, basically. they've decided, since i havent kept up with my part of the deal (no idea what they are talking about though, theres a few things i didnt do, but none of which are a huge deal) that they are going to fix the house up and sell it (its falling apart and i dont think they want to pay for it). Kie and i, since the only reason we came here was to NOT pay rent while going to school, want to move to santa rosa. since i have to move between terms, so i dont have to pay my loan back before school is over, we were planning on the beggining of august. BUT, theres no way we'll save $5000 to move accross country and get an apartment in that short amount of time, so we are planning on december, after the fall term here. (i have to call a lady monday to see if i can start working, shes waiting on a background check) sounds good yes. . . . well, (and kie doesnt know this YET, cuz hes at work) my parents want us out of the house soon as possible cuz they cant start doing work on the house while we are living in it. WHICH MEANS, in order to save enough money to move, the right way this time, we are going to have to get an apartment. which we dont have the money for. . . .litterally, and how are we supposed to save the money to move if we have to pay rent on an apartment we dont plan on keeping?? SO, what the fuck are we supposed to do?? (not to mention we have one cat and a ferret, the ferret my parents can NOT know about) kie says if it was him alone (said this this morning actually) he would sell a bunch of his shit and use that money to move. . . .(drive cross country in the car instead of having a uhal) BUT, this is the first time i have owned anything that hasnt been taken from me, gotten rid of without my consent. . .ect, and damnit, im not about to sell everything i own, basically, just to get to california. . . . .if only i had relatives that would pay for my move. . . . .bastards. . . . .bout the only thing ive managed to get out of them was this. . .and now they are taking it away. . . . .what the fuck!!!! SO, when kie gets off work i have to tell him that they want us out as soon as its possible so they can work on the house, and hes going to be pissed, im going to have to talk him out of calling them and bitching at them and causing more problems then we already have. . . . .and its going to be hard. dad says if kie has monday off then we will get together and decided whats going to happen, cuz they leave friday and they want a plan, and to have everything figured out before they go back to europe. and IF i can talk kie into not freaking out on them tonight when he gets home, it will sure as hell be hard to keep him from saying anything on monday!!!!! as far as the fred thing goes. . . .whatever, the sooner the divorce, the better. . . .the way i want kie in my life and they way he, oviously, wants to be in mine, not being divorced has its downfalls. . . . .(i doubt anything will come of it, we are dealing with my parents, not the military). . . . .i hate this. . . .if i had the money to use, i would leave in august . . . . . .oh well. . .