Just Thoughts

Life is wonderful in Eugene
Where the grass is always Green

I am Home now

Beautiful Eugene... I am back and so happy. I am writing everyday and painting, and all my wonderful friends are like angels of light in my vision. I am going to lay in the sun and dance and sing till the sun falls behind my side of the earth! And then I will dance some more...\
Peace and Blessings

New Kitten!

We got a new little baby in the house, a beautiful little rainbow of colors and life, and dddddddddddddddddddddddddddddrfffffff.... as you can see, she wanted to say hi by standing on the keyboard. I 'm so happy!

Waiting for Summer...

I am craving the forast so bad, and the sun and the warmth... I miss being in the forest and trees so bad. I am reading "The Legecy of Luna by Julia Butterfly Hill, and it is so insiring. It is really causeing a lot of creativity and strength inside me to unfold and be felt. I feel very awake to a lot of spiritual and earthly energy right now. It is a wonderful thing, but it is making me not as happy as I would like to be in my current surroundings. Well, just a few more months...
Blessings and peace to you all...

Connection and Rebirth...

After about five months of loosing it, and getting really deep in some depression, that somewhat reminded me of being 16 again, I feel good. I don't just feel good, but I feel that after all the shit and all the manefestations and meditation and art, I can breath. It is really hard for me to be in the city, away from the forests and the silence, but it is growing on me in a positive way. The rebirth is happening, but it is the connection with other like minded people I miss. I had so many friends and such a social life in Eugene. But it has been good for me to spend this time alone. Look at how far I have come! I am so happy.... Writters block..... Peace

When shit hits the fan...

You must find the gifts, and the positivity. We are all sacred creatures created by this beautiful earth mother that lays under our footsteps always. All hardships are lessons, they create the relatship to our higher power that lies in us all. Believe

Cell Phones Suck...

But I have one, and I droped it in the toilet.... Anyway I should be getting a new one any day... But I lost all my numbers, so if I had your number or you want me to have your number, please send it to me!
Thank you...
KaliFlower

There Is A Negitive To Every Positive

When at last you think it is perfect, the smooth path to it all starts to go up hill.... You take that exhale and then learn that you will have to exhale a lot more if it is going to work. We all have to give up something to create something new. But how much should you give up? How many times am I going to be confused and indecisive? The world is a fucking stage... And this play is way to dramatic.

I am young, but my life time is only so long and I want to do so much. I want to be free and live in a yurt in the country and garden and make babies for the rest of my life. I want to travel and help people in disfuctional countries. I want to teach High School, I want to be an artist, I want to be the leader of a wonferful and beautiful revolution of minds and actions. But when you add all that up, I just want to help and be a positive being on this earth. When I die, I want to look back and say "Fuck yeah. I did it, I have made a difference."
Love is Life and Life is Love

MAKE LOVE NOT WAR!

Waiting and Hoping

I have been looking for a job for what seems like forever. I think they are going to hire me at Barnes and Noble, but we shall see. I think that it would be a lot of fun to work in a big book store, I would get a discount on books! sweet... But I am just trying to stay optimistic at this point. I know I will find something, but it needs to be soon, I have to pay a lot of bills next month, so I neeed to get my shit straight.

I met a chill guy yesterday on the train. He is really into animal rights and we had some great converations. We ran into each other over by the Rose Garden and then again downtown when I was comming home. There are a lot of people in Portland that are active in the Fur protestes and I am learning that it is a very big thing. In Eugene there aren't a lot of big fur stores so it has never really been a topic in my mind, but theis fur store just closed in Portland because there were so many protester outside the store every week. I checked out some websites and read some stuff about it, and it is really scary, it is like a fucking an animal holocaust. And if we know that they are doing this to animals, how many humans have they done this to? It is all so scary. But on a happier note, this guy was beautiful... Hopefuly he really is cool and not just some guy trying to get down the pants of a little hippie chic, hahaha.. Think positive.

Snow...

I woke to a white world! All of Portland is under about three inches of snow and I love it. Everything feels so clean and fresh, and the city was so silent, but ti made me miss the country. I have been in the big city for only a few months now, but I am going crazy without the forest. Peace