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Okay, so I listed what I love to do, but who am I? Well,
I'm a playful, sensitive, passionate, high-energy, honest (which sometimes gets misinterpreted as cold or harsh), semi-stubborn Capricorn with a Leo moon and a Sagitarius rising. In the Chinese zodiac, I'm a horse. I've got some polar opposite energies spiraling through my psyche, and that creates a very interesting, vibrant, strangely balanced cacophony that is me. I've been an intelligent freak most of my life, never really fitting into the dominant paradigm, although I sure did try for a few years of adolescence. I often alienated my peers by being myself...they thought I was trying to act too smart by questioning seemingly obvious aspects of our culture, so I often pretended I was dumber than I was just to fit in. Once I realized that was a complete disaster, I embraced my uniqueness and truly came to realize how much I enjoy being me. Now, I rarely compromise at being me.

As a child I used to imagine that these amazing underground parties/worlds existed, with really diverse, interesting people who expressed their passions and souls in a infinite number of wild and colorful ways...Luckily, I found that world, and now, I know I'm home. Wherever I am, I am home. Home stays in my heart, so I'm never homesick.

I love to touch the inner divine energy...that place where I feel totally whole, radiant, and alive. I strive to embody that wholeness in almost every breath(that'll probably take a few lifetimes to actually achieve). I am a channel for the divine energy, and I love to tap into that infinite source. It feeds me and can keep me up for days without drugs or alcohol.

I am often intense; I usually know what I want, and I go after it without hesitation (most of the time). I am open-mindedly stubborn...I have strong opinions, but I'm always open to having that opinion changed with good enough reasons to do so. I am usually eloquent and strong-willed. But I do have my insecure, shy moments, and I'm not afraid to cry. I love learning new things. I'm a quick learner, and that has a tendency to make me kind of lazy. I work on that...and I love to challenge myself.

I am often flamboyant, a little ostentatious, and a bit flirtatious. I am observant, analytical, passionate, dedicated, determined, ambitious, kind, emphathetic, impatient, I think too much, and I can end up being too stressed...I actively work on releasing that everyday.

I'm a good listener, and I don't hold much in. I almost always tell you what I'm thinking, out of respect for you and for clear communication. I strive to do that in a kind, tactful way...but miscommunications do happen, of course. I like to think I have a good sense of humor, but I often don't get sarcasm, and I truly dislike it when sarcasm is used as a passive-aggressive tactic for criticism and complaints. I appreciate clarity and radical honesty.

I love life, my family, my friends, and myself. I am very blessed!

But, enough already with the I, I, I...it's not all about me. It's way bigger than that!
We are spiritual beings having a human experience. Our rent for payment on this earth is service. We have the ability to transform our passions into positive, transfomative change in our world. The goal: to live our passions and make sure those passions help make this world a more beautiful, loving, positive, artistic, peaceful place. We are the ones we've been waiting for! We must be the change we want to see in the world. Therefore, one last "I"-- I strive to set a positive example and live in a way that can enable at least 7 generations into our future to live healthy, happy lives on this planet. We are participants; not spectators in the world. We have a responsibility to live with integrity, honor, and compassion for all organisms, not just the humans.

Well, that's probably a little more than the tip of the ice berg of me, but it's a start, anyway...