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Alisander

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joined on 07/25/05
last updated 11/18/05
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My Bio

Gender
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Age
33
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about me
Simple person in a complex life is the best way to put it. People could call me a social chameleon but I believe that with all my interests I just fit into most situations. I have two wonderful boys and that is my real job because everything else I do is secondary to them.
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Thoughts and Rantings

Have you ever had that feeling that something was different? The odd sensation that the world has changed? Well, I have been dealing with that for the past few weeks. I kept looking around to try and discover what part of my world had changed. I searched all around me then finally I saw it. It was me. In just a short time something in me has changed. The drive to please others is gone, the need to be surrounded by people has changed. I have realized that rather than living I need to live with... read more
Thu, February 9, 2006 - 8:19 AM permalink - 1 comment
 
You know what. I am $%#ing tired of being used as a floor mat by certain people. You know who you are! Your the one who always call and ask for help and like an ass I don't think twice. Now that's seems harsh but I am an ass because when I need help there are only a rare few that are there! Those are the people I can count on. I am just tired of doing thing and not even getting a thank you! What didn't your parents teach you manners!!! Well to all those who have and will be there for me I say... read more
Tue, February 7, 2006 - 12:45 PM permalink - 0 comments
 
The boredom is taking hold
How I yearn for the past experiences of my life
The anticipation!
The fear!
The excitement of not knowing
But alas it is no more
Every day I live the same placid life
Doing the same menial tasks
Never taking risks
Losing who I am
I have signed my death warrant
But not for my physical self
For I sold my soul for stability
Boring stability
My job
My house
And all the financial responsibility it entails
No more do I run with the wild
I stand quietly... read more
Tue, January 24, 2006 - 11:22 AM permalink - 2 comments
 
I have thought about this question for a while. In fact I think everybody does! Well, I have figured out the answer. It has only evaded me for two decades. I am who you want me to be! I am the friend you can call when you’re in need; I am the parent than makes you feel secure! I am the asshole that cut you off last week. I am the person of your dreams. I am the one that got away. I am the lost soul that will never find happiness. All in all I am all of these things and more. I have lived out ... read more
Fri, December 16, 2005 - 1:19 PM permalink - 1 comment
 
Just because it looks (or sounds) like I am having an aneurism...doesn't mean I am. C'mon if it looks like a duck, quacks like a duck, and walks like a duck... it will still taste like chicken! Now that my lame comment of the day is out of the way I can tell you all everything is great in my life. I miss all of you that I haven't been able to see lately because I have been beyond swamped and I will make a better effort in keeping in touch :-)
Tue, November 1, 2005 - 12:15 PM permalink - 1 comment
 
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Forgotten Dream


The time has now come
For me to say goodbye
To all that know me
For I’m about to die

It’s not a time of sorrow
For my soul will still be here
But the mask that covers me
Has begun to disappear

I thank you for caring
For the superficial me
But the cracks in my being
Are now too easy to see

I am sorry if you loved me
As whom I am today
But the pain is now too much
I cannot bare to stay

The darkness has overcome me
The pain has ripped my heart
So the façade I now wear
Must now be torn apart

My looks will not alter
My face will stay the same
But the person living inside
Must now hide the pain

Protecting my simple essence
My soul lets out a scream
For who I am today
Is now a forgotten dream!

 
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