I've been so busy with everything that I sort of forgot I had a Tribe account. Sorry. But lots of things have changed. Since I last visited (in April or something), I've moved back up to New York, gotten engaged, and found out I was pregnant.

I'm due to have my first baby, Ava, on November 3, 2006. Just three more weeks. I'm started to feel pretty terrified. Let's hope I can get this right.

Everything is going well... I'm on maternity leave which I thought would be incredibly boring but... read more

It's been three months since I've written, or really even visited Tribe. So here's what's been happening since the beginning of January:

Scott and I got back together and got engaged. I moved back up to New York and today I have an interview at the YWCA for a teaching position in their preschool.

Last Monday, I found out I'm pregnant. Right now, we can't afford it. But we have the resources and friends and support and love that we need from our family and friends to get by.

The baby... read more

On Tuesday, January 3rd -- a week and a half ago, just this year, I tried to overdose on prescription pills. I swallowed two handfuls of Topomax, an anti-seizure/mood stabilizing medication, hoping that would do the trick.

Thirty minutes later, my head was pounding, my eyes were burning straight through my skull, and my stomach felt like it was shriveling inside my body. I called 9-1-1.

When I got to the hospital, I had two seizures. This may sound cliche, but my life literally passed... read more

Scott and I decided to start "dating", which means we're going to revert to our old ways, just like we used to be in the beginning before we lived together. We're going to be exclusive, but he won't be my "boyfriend", I guess, simply, because he doesn't want to feel tied down, although that's what he is to me.

I'm seeing him tonight!

Scott and I broke up yesterday morning, so for the time being, I am living with my mom in Jersey.

Besides the fact that now I have no friends, no job, barely any money, no boyfriend, and minus one pet, the thing that sucks a lot about this situation is the fact that I'm having my mother call my would-be employers, Lisa and Glenn, and tell them that I won't be coming to work on Monday (or ever) because we no longer even reside in the same STATE.

This fucking hurts and I just want to sl... read more