DAMNIT TRIBE!

Why does tribe do this? Why is it in a state of constant flux? Its insane!

My tribe is working, but won't register new posts, and won't register that I've read any posts....aargggghhhh.

I don't even know if it will register this flamin' blog is here! I love tribe, but by the Gods its driving me mad!

I Wanna Marry You!

Thought that would get your attention! So I want to become a Civil Celebrant. But, I want to extend that to be able to officiate weddings.
I don't have the emotional fortitude to do funerals, at least not yet anyway.
I've looked up, and I can get qualified online *yay* to do Civil Ceremonies, so I think I'm going to look at really doing it! I have wanted to do Commitment Ceremonies for the GLBT community for ages, and I kinda feel this is a progression of that- to be able to do legal ceremonies too. To be able to bring people together is something wondrous and amazing, and I want to be a part of that.

So, if anyone wants to donate to my 'Educate Amara' fund to put me through my courses- buy something off my site- or just send me a donation ( I take paypal ROFL!!)...*I am kidding about donating-but in reality-if you buy from me- you will get the satisfaction of helping me achieve my dream!*. Earning and saving the money for this course will be worth every sacrifice- I really want to do it- and I know I will be good at it- and my brain is at *fart* stage- it needs a good booting to get it into gear- something the courses will
do- I'm sick of watching my brain turn to MUSH!
This is going to be so much fun, and will help my family, and help me regain a purpose.

Musing on Costuming...

Well I've been trying to come up with cute outfits for dancing (and poi)....and I've decided on a few items I want (Tops from the adorable Mirahmar, skirt and top from Angelia), but there is one item I cannot seem to find, or find someone close enough to make it for me.
It is a skirt like the ones these gorgeous girls are wearing: www.youtube.com/watch

Because of my weight, I have an 'apron' or 'spare tire' around my lower torso...and when I'm wearing pants, it is very obvious. I have plans to get some funky pants, but really like the idea of a skirt like the one the girls have on. A skirt that covers what I need, but will show off my funky pants!

So I'm going to continue scouring, and asking (read:Begging) any seamstress I know to help me make something like that. It is my costuming mission :D

Make Me An Offer....Really!

Seriously- I want to sell some of my beautiful wares to you...really I do. I don't want it gathering dust here, and its beauty being wasted on the inside of a box- and I'm just feeling generous. I will do lay away happily- pay me a 20% deposit, and its yours to pay off over a couple of months if you want to. I don't care how small your payments are ($5,$10...whatever). I just LOVE these items- honestly- I want to see people wearing them and enjoying them. I have discounted prices on Ebay at the moment too- so check those out- you might get what you want in your price range!

But...if you see something on my website (Excluding Eye Kandy) that you want- make me an offer...All serious offers considered. If I accept your offer I will let you know via email and/or Tribe PM. Don't be scared to haggle with me...

Lets have some fun and get you into some seriously beautiful costuming!

Happy Australia Day!!

Happy Australia Day to all my friends! Check out my post in the Foul,Drunk and Hostile Bellydancers Tribe for more information about Australia Day....

A bit of fun useless information for you...
"Aussie Aussie Aussie, Oi Oi Oi", also spelt "Ozzie Ozzie Ozzie, Oy Oy Oy", is a cheer often used at Australian sport events. The cheer is usually performed by a crowd, uniting together to cheer for their national sports team or athlete. The alternate is for an individual to chant the line "Aussie, Aussie Aussie!" and the crowd to respond with "Oi! Oi! Oi!"

The full version of the chant, as heard prior a free outdoor concert at the time of the Sydney 2000 Olympics and quoted by Luba Vangelova of CNNSI,[1] is as follows:-

Man: "Aussie, Aussie, Aussie!"
Crowd: "Oi! Oi! Oi!"
Man, again: "Aussie, Aussie, Aussie!"
Crowd: "Oi! Oi! Oi!"
Man: "Aussie!"
Crowd: "Oi!"
Man: "Aussie!"
Crowd: "Oi!"
Man (much faster): "Aussie, Aussie, Aussie!"
Crowd (equally fast): "Oi! Oi! Oi!"
The chant gained popularity from the time of Sydney's Olympic bid and was widely used from the onset of the Olympic Games, being heard at many public entertainment venues, and also on public transport. (taken from Wikipedia.org)

Its a great chant- when a whole stadium does it- it just energises you- and instills pride...much like cheers in the US.

AUSSIE AUSSIE AUSSIE!!!!

When stupid stuff makes you cry...

Okay so I'm going for my daily dose of Lolcat (www.icanhascheezburger.com) and I see this one...and I think about all my wonderful Tribeys...my beautiful sisters and brothers and how much you all mean to me.

So this ones for you...I'd love to officially Nom Nom Nom Nom. *giggle*

I has a Sad. Exactly. (I'm miserable and angry- be warned)

Thats it. I'm having a sad. A sad that has led to the demise of my faith in honesty, kindness, a faith that there is a purpose to everything, I once believed in a higher power....I have lost my faith-but if there is I wish they'd open their ears because I need help to endure and now.

The one thing I have realised is no matter how much we say we care, and how much we want to care- words are just words and it doesn't matter what anyone says- my pain won't be eased, I won't stop feeling like I do, the pain won't just miraculously stop.

And I've realised I can depend on one person and one person only. Me. I've also worked out that the world is a cruel, nasty, hateful, spiteful disgusting place. I have waited so long for the triumph of the truth, for justice to be served, for the truth to win....and I'm still waiting. The truth means nothing. The good guys don't win, they don't get diddley fucking squat.
So people dribbling shit about 'oh it will get better' and 'it will all work out' piss me right fucking off. Its been 20 fucking months so far...and its not one fucking goddamn sonofabitch iota better than it was back then...In fact, it has gotten progressively worse. So to all those 'oh you're tough- you'll be righters' who've pissed in my ear for 20 fucking months you can go fuck yourself with a spiked club. I'm not tough, I'm not fucking alright- I'm pissed off, I'm stuck and I fucking hate the world for what its done to my family...I'm not coping, I'm not even remotely close to fucking happy so you can kiss my fat fucking ass.
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