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angelartz — Tue, 19 Aug 2008 18:05:03 GMT

Just a little update from our trip so far...on day 20 of no work and all fun and it's been GREAT! Shambala festival was AWESOME! totally serene in the mountains, very thoughtout structures and on a river! who could ask for anything more at a party? well, there could have been more art, but its not burning man after all....I'm really not sad about not going to BM this year, since this month has just been full of abundence! but I'll be thinking of A LOT of you this coming week! I got to visit lovely Misha in POrtland for a few days and met up w/Gina a couple times randomly in Portland and in Nelson, totally crazy coincidences! So much to say, but I'll just say that it's been great, relaxing and health-filled! We stayed at this AWESOME hotel in Vancouver for 5 nights(our most expensive part of the trip) it was like having our own condo apartment in the city, right near everything...the sushi was amazing everywhere we went, close to Stanley park, walked everywhere and even found sone psytrance the last night we were there at a club. Herb is in abundence up here! but we aren't smokin everyday which is a nice change! the berries are OFF THE HOOK up here, like a pound of blueberries for 5$ ! and pesticide free! lol We are now on Vancouver Island visiting family, the most "chill" part of our trip which is kind of nice! we are at a beach town and thursday we go to lesquiti for a couple days, its a small island you take a boat to and it's off the "grid" so everyone is totally self-sufficient and i think telephones are the only thing connected in most houses. we are camping at his cousins place there....surrounded by more water and beauty, eating things from the gardens. This trip has made me realize how much I miss being so close to nature and WATER! I love being near the ocean....the bay just isn't the same....i want to have my own garden, i want to move up here! looks like we will in 2011. That's the year we are planning on making the move! This trip has done so many beautiful and wonderful things for Donovan and I's relationship. We both realize how deep our spiritual connection runs. I realized that I've never had such a deep spiritual relationship like this in my life. We are both so present and so non-attached it just breeds love constantly. I think I truly needed someone completley opposite of me like him to really see that other side of me, and he needed the same...life is such a trip! (and we did do some actual "trippin" a couple times) We both feel so solid, so grounded right now, him getting his own place in the city right now is not even giving me the hint of worry on our relationship, I know it will just be filled with more growth and love. I decided to to the ramadan fast this September. Sept 1-30th (we'll see if i make it that long!) but it's no food or drink during daylight ours!! So basically just eat dinner at night. I've been wanting to do a fast for a long time, and I don't start school until October so sept will be the perfect month to do this. I really feel the flow of the law of attraction and love and light. It's been amazing. love to all of you!

smashed

angelartz — Thu, 10 Jul 2008 02:15:11 GMT

Today someone decided to take an illegal left turn on my ass as I was driving through a green light perfectly legal on my way to Pho84 in downtown oakland for some lunch with my girl Em. This young dude in his girlfriends new honda crashed right into me, he hit the pedal hard to try and make it through turn before i went through...luckily I braked in time to not be killed. Had I not braked I'm sure I would be in the hospital right now. Everyone was physically fine, but my car (and his car looked worse then mine, and he drove off before the police got there for the report.dumb ass)....my car is in the shop with thousands of dollars ahead of her to be fixed. Luckily none of it was my fault and i'll probably be seeing a doctor soon since now my back and shoulder are hurtin. We both have insurance etc etc... I had an ear ache since last night....something tells me this was a premonition. It is still killing me softly. Hopefully I'll have my car back in tip top shape before our road trip in it at the end of this month. Sucks that I rented a dvd far away yesterday for the first time in maybe a year.... I guess the universe was just telling me that I don't need to drive. I need to get a new bike (just took the old one in, and its going to cost more then it's worth to fix it) so tomorrow I go get a new bike! I'm depleted, i'm sad, i'm angry at this stupid person. I got acupuncture this afternoon and it helped a bit. I'm just really grateful to be alive. I hate stupid drivers.

I get to regularly steal my friends dog!

angelartz — Sun, 01 Jun 2008 21:06:18 GMT

My BFF Mollie had a baby a couple months ago...and poor little coconut (boston terrier!) doesn't get enough attention now. I told her i should "steal her more often" and she was like "please do!" so today is my first day. she is so sweet. 1 1/2 yr old, cuddler, stays away from my cat (unlike another boston terrier *cough* jake---Gyzmo). Donovan doesn't want a dog and really I'm not in a space to have one...but i love and miss them so much, so now I'm going to take advantage of this little babe! they make me so happy!!!! I love animals. Off to go for a hike on this beautiful day!

MOZILLA rocks

angelartz — Fri, 23 May 2008 22:26:11 GMT

I just realized that every time I scroll over the first letter of a word, it gives me the translation in spanish!!! note: nota; notar; tomar nota de tribe: tribu respectful: respetuoso considerate: considerado community: communidad; de grupo upload: cargar I'm so going to learn spanish quicker this way! yay!

I can't tell you how EXCITED I AM!

angelartz — Thu, 22 May 2008 19:41:15 GMT

I am seeing Flight of the Conchords next week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love their music!! they make me laugh so freakin hard. I actually don't care for the shows that much, I mean I watch them just to hear the songs kinda thing..... I paid the most I've ever paid for tickets, so please don't ask how much! oh, and Jermaine is my man!!!!!

I'm such a procrastinator!

angelartz — Sat, 17 May 2008 05:03:35 GMT

here we are, the most gorgeous weekend for months, and I need to stay in..not make any plans and just write papers and read all weekend. I just log into tribe to distract what i really need to do on this damn computer. Please bitch at me if you see me online. Luckily D is outta the house tomorrow so I can concentrate. I'm just using that as an excuse of course. I've been a real stress case around here the past couple weeks, lol! I loved these classes that are about to end....world religion and theories in personalities. I just hate writing philosophy type papers, I love to read about it, and hate to write about it. ah well....I think I need a beer right about now, and I don't even like beer!

my new name

angelartz — Fri, 02 May 2008 04:30:51 GMT

SOOOoooo......when I was 18 I got a red heart tatooed on my ass, since i considered myself a carebear!!! yeah, I know I know it's totally cheesy and proves I was the original 80's kid...which is was! I'm finally embracing that child in me again and changing my name on here to Carebear-Angi!

SHAMBALA BABY!

angelartz — Mon, 28 Apr 2008 04:00:27 GMT

Yay! we just bought our tickets to Shambala Festival 08! it's 5 days in the beautiful Canadian Forest in Salmo Bay, BC (about 8 hrs east of Vancouver and 3 hrs north from spokane WA) and I am stoked! the pictures remind me of a psychadelic reggae on the river or something.... We are taking a month off, camping and driving and making our way up to the festival in August, the n heading to Vancouver for a week, then visiting family in Vancouver island....and visiting friends on the way (def. Heather-0000 and Sparks in Seattle, and Misha and maybe FMM in Portland area!) I'm so excited! we've been talking about going for a couple months, but buying the ticket's just set shit in stone! I'm SO STOKED! WOOT! and the BEST thing I read from the website is it's an ALCOHOL FREE EVENT!!! and limited to 10K people, which is just awesome. I have never been to an event this big w/no alcohol (i'm sure lots of pot and psychedelics which is just our style...) no BM for us this yr, but I'm not sad about it! rich forest, river (WATER!) psycadelic music and non stop dancing with no alcohol sounds just like what we need! Here is a pic from one of there galleries. http://www.shambhalamusicfestival.com/

Interesting morning.

angelartz — Thu, 24 Apr 2008 20:49:47 GMT

This morning, as I was driving out of my driveway, there was this Mexican worker a few doors down...he stopped to look me right in the eye and then started sweeping this big pile of trash/leaves etc....this strange-most beautiful song came on in KALX (stream it if your not in the area....amazing underground radio, well it's outta Cal, not that underground but the music is always amazing) it was this piano and violin duo (one of my favorite combos) and it was just so freakin beautiful. I then drive by a woman and her 3 kids./toddlers, she looked real tired. Trying to keep them together and just freakin tired. I really felt like giving her my car right then. So this amazing song is playing and I start crying. For no real particular reason...and I realized that I am rich. Rich according to most people in the world. I have a nice car, nice home, right now only working part time and making ends meet fine. How many people are in my position in the world? out of the 6 billion?...so i cried...driving to work in this odd life we call reality. Realizing that in my lifetime, I may not have the opportunity to drive alone in my car and cry and listen to beautiful music. Realizing that my generation WILL see a shift on how we use fossil fuels and how driving was taken for granted...how buying local and organic food is amazing.. It just made me feel so grateful, so loved and so....rich. I'm just so grateful for the life I have in this moment. I guess it was my way of knowing it wasn't always going to be like this, how I know I can feel people's pain, the worlds pain and still move on and do what I gotta do ya know? I'm just love, your love, I'm love. I love me, I love you. thank you.

bugs

angelartz — Tue, 08 Apr 2008 16:30:06 GMT

I can't log onto any of my yahoo accounts. It says my passwords aren't valid. then I try to change my password and it says it can't so it will "email me further instructions" wtf!? I'm so pissed.

leaving at noon to SoCal

angelartz — Fri, 28 Mar 2008 15:51:27 GMT

Tomorrow is my bro's wedding. Things will be fine. He just informed me that the wedding is on a hill at his friends house and so he needs someone to "bus" people up to the wedding. Luckily I don't have a car down there and wont be doing that.lol. I will have a good time. They are getting roasted chickens, rice, beans, salsa and carne asada from a place we like down there that's cheap and good. What I'm making for Appetizers and Salads: -cheese platter with yummy crackers (how could you not have cheese right?) -Veggie platter w/home made ranch-dill dip (I'm thinking radishes, celery, carrots, blanched broccoli, cucumbers, jicama) -Chile-lime Fruit Salad (you know, the kind you can get in the fruitvale/mission/LA area with chile-lime-salt) -Ceasar salad with home made croutons I was going to make another "healthy" salad, but realized I'm catering to people who don't really eat healthy, so this will be just fine. My brother didn't even *want* appetizers (we're talking anywhere from 60-100 people) and there is only going to be champagne...I might just have to pick a case up of red wine while we are at costco, I really don't like champagne (well...cheap champagne, lol). So, wish me luck please! and send me some mojo tomorrow will ya? I most likely wont be checkin in much, since both my folks have slow dial up and I hate staring at slow computers in the present moment. lots of love...it will all be fine...it will all be fine,...

wow.

angelartz — Fri, 14 Mar 2008 18:18:10 GMT

This lady who has been coming into the clinic I work at just said to me " anyone who comes your way will be a very relaxed soul" I just thought that was cool....not sure if it's entirely true, but mostly true.lol

YAY!

angelartz — Wed, 20 Feb 2008 00:36:34 GMT

I just came back from an interview at JFKU, the University I applied for my MA in holistic health education and I got in!!! I mean, I knew I would but we all have our doubts at times. I start April 1st! (it's a quarter system) and since I'm already taking 2 other pre req classes I'll start full time in June!!! YAY!!! more about the program if anyone is interested: http://www.jfku.edu/programs/programs/holistic_health/ I feel like this huge weight has been lifted off my chest!

universal human cycles

angelartz — Sun, 17 Feb 2008 21:37:09 GMT

Constant Change + Balance with Harmony are ever present, ever revolving and ever magical.

when you have time please!

angelartz — Fri, 08 Feb 2008 19:17:04 GMT

So if you don't know here is the quiz...I would love if you would answer if for me(o: and then if you repost it I will answer if for you. 1) Are you currently in a serious relationship? A. 2) What was your dream growing up? A. 3) What talent do you wish you had? A. 4) If I bought you a drink what would it be? A. 5) Favorite vegetable? A. 6) What was the last book you read? A. 7) What zodiac sign are you? A. 8) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where. A. 9) Worst Habit? A. 10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride? A. 11) What is your favorite sport? A. 12) Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude? A. 13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me? A. 14) Worst thing to ever happen to you? A. 15) Tell me one weird fact about you. A. 16) Do you have any pets? A. 17) What if i showed up at your house unexpectedly? A. 18) What was your first impression of me? (hmmm...careful!) A. 19) Are you monogamous, or non-manogamous? A. 20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be? A. 21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience? A. 22) What color eyes do you have? A. 23) Ever been arrested? A. 24) Bottle or can soda? A. 25) If you won $10,000,000 today, what would you do with it? A. 27) What's your favorite place to hang at, outside of your home? A. 28) Do you believe in ghosts? A. 29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time? A. 30) Do you swear a lot? A. 31) Biggest pet peeve? A. 32) In one word, how would you describe yourself? A. 33) Do you believe/appreciate romance? A. 35) Do you believe in God or a higher power? A. 36.) Do you like to be touched? A. 37.) What is your top trouble spot for bodily aches and pains? A. 38.) What do you like to talk about? A. 39.) Describe a great evening or outing. A. 40) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

the dark materials.

angelartz — Tue, 29 Jan 2008 01:14:14 GMT

I'm a geek if you didn't know. Especially prone to sci fi and FANTASY mostly. Saw the Golden Compass (by myself actually) the first week it was out. I was impressed but left feeling unfulfilled.... Last monday i bought the 1st book "the golden compass" and then 2 days later i finished the "subtle knife" and about 20min ago i finished the last book "the amber spyglass" IT WAS SO GOOD! Very compelling. I feel like i haven't been on tribe all week, that says a lot. lol. I started school last week and felt like i had to get my "creative-free" reading out of the way.....since i need to start studying my courses: Theories in Personalities and World Religion! fun fun. I've been lost in a wicked, beautiful world for the past week. I realize that i do have somewhat of an addictive personality with some minor control issues. lol.

back from harbin

angelartz — Mon, 21 Jan 2008 00:32:35 GMT

ahhh.....what a nice weekend. After all that sun bathing and soaking and almost breaking up with my man i needed a face mask ya know? Things are good. This year is about growth and getting rid of old patterns (as my lovely friend liesa drew a card for me said as well) I'm feeling peaceful, and realizing i haven't felt this way in awhile., it's refreshing.

thanks friends.

angelartz — Tue, 18 Dec 2007 04:46:33 GMT

I have strep throat, and no, it's not easy to diagnose just by looking jake, you have to take a test, there are millions of different kinds of bacteria/viruses etc. I'm kinda relieved i'll be able to swallow food again in a couple days! I knew it was something odd since usually herbs work for me, and this time NADA!....so, thanks for pushin me to go to the free clinic amy and thanks for showing me that! Luckily i have the next 2 days off to relax. (((hugs germs all over friends in a good way)))))

damn.

angelartz — Mon, 17 Dec 2007 21:59:16 GMT

i think i have strep throat....what's a girl to do with no insurance?...

i'm sick

angelartz — Sun, 16 Dec 2007 18:08:13 GMT

been at least a year since i've been this sick. On the way home from a party last night and my glands were swollen. I blame all the sugar i ate that started it all....taking lots of herbs and resting today, shit i have my last final tomorrow..sigh* Had nightmares all night, couldn't breath....can't swallow my throat hurts so bad. Just needed to get some love and healin sent my way friends.

answer this!

angelartz — Thu, 13 Dec 2007 21:07:21 GMT

How are you feeling friends? in this MOMENT? i'll start: Feeling very antsy, jittery, and horny like i need to go somewhere and do something, but i can't since i work til 6.

GROSSEST THING EVER.

angelartz — Wed, 05 Dec 2007 20:00:51 GMT

Just finished my last anatomy-physiology lab this semester....a fetal pig dissection, and not only that, we (not me) had to take out the intestines/digestion area! my lab partner thought it would be cool to see what was in the stomach....brownish goo dripped out and i almost puked. The smell of fermaldahyde reaked the room and i just left the classroom thankful i am not going to be a nurse (like good ole dad dreams for me) and i will not be a doctor of any kind...and looking at animal parts is WAY grosser then human bodies (i didn't have any kind of this reaction at the bodyworlds exhibit). Fuck i'm glad the semester is almost over. Oh, and i decided a couple days ago to eat 98% vegetarian again, and to only eat meat as tonic/medicine in soups from now on, or know exactly where the meat is from (organic.free range) since i'm still slightly blood deficient in chinse medicine i can't go cold turkey yet, but this lab really made me want to never eat pork again. Poor piglet....ya know, pigs are smarter then dogs (or just as smart). sigh* *wipes sweat off forehead*

Am i the only one at work today?

angelartz — Fri, 23 Nov 2007 18:48:26 GMT

sigh**** at least i can catch up on tribin!

Body World's Exhibit

angelartz — Fri, 16 Nov 2007 23:59:14 GMT

D and I are going to see the Body Worlds Exhibit tomorrow in San Jose, if you haven't heard about it, it's AMAZING and you get to look and see lots and lots and lots of cadavers of all shapes and sizes. Look at the muscle system, nervous systems, organs etc. Very educational and informative! http://www.bodyworlds.com/en.html It's a great way to learn about the human body and I also get extra credit for going since I'm taking Anatomy and Physiology this Semester! We saw the show last Dec in Vancouver and it was really amazing...but since I've been taking this class it will be in a whole "new light" So we decided to book a hotel in San Jose and explore the Downtown area....we haven't really been there at all (I've just driven through) so, it's the beginning of my birthday week of yummy goodness!!! Yes, i know that looking at lots of cadavers isn't the idea of fun most people have! Go see it if you get a chance! It will be in San Jose until the end of Jan.

Ang-ology

angelartz — Thu, 11 Oct 2007 21:25:44 GMT

Let others know a little more about yourself. Repost this as your name followed by "ology". MOUTH-OLOGY Q. What is your salad dressing of choice? A. Depends on the salad. Usually i make my own oil/vinegar/mustard/lemon/lime kinda deal.....but i have a few places i get ceasar salads at...yum! Q. What is your favorite fast food restaurant? A. um…. i only eat fast food like 2-3 times a yr. That would be in n out! Q. What is your favorite sit-down restaurant? A. I have WAY too many, i do live very close to berkeley...there are at least 10 restaurants top favs. Q. On average, what size tip do you leave at a restaurant? A. 20% Q. What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of? A. all kinds of rice...esp brown rice :) Q. What are your pizza toppings of choice? A. it changes...usually spinach and bell peppers. Q. What do you like to put on your toast? A. a little butter...and lately fresh home made strawberry jam from the farmers market. TECHNOLOGY Q. What is your wallpaper on your computer? A. right now a pic of me and D at BM this yr.. Q. How many televisions are in your house? A. zero Q. What color is your iPod? A. black BIOLOGY Q. Are you right-handed or left-handed? A. right Q. Have you ever had anything removed from your body? A. wisdom teeth Q. When was the last time you had a cavity? A. a full on cavity? at least 10yrs..i've had partial ones, last time was 2 yrs ago. Q. What is the last heavy item you lifted? A. probably pumpkins...went to the pumpkin patch on tues! fun! Q. Have you ever been knocked unconscious? A. nope. RANDOMOLOGY, pt 1 Q. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die? A. no, i prefer to live each day like my last, thank you very much! Q. If you could change your name, what would you change it to? A. i've been thinking of changing my name actually, haven't decided to what yet. Q. What color do you think looks best on you? A. burgundy/alizorum crimson /orange....and a light teal Q. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item by mistake? A. yes, quite a few times....a rock, a bug, a pebble...i've learned to really try and be present with my food.lol Q. Have you ever saved someone's life? A. Yes, from drowning (i was a lifeguard) Q. Has someone ever saved yours? A. Yes, when i was 4, i almost drown...i also fell down the stairs and cracked my 3rd eye open when i was 4...it was a tough year. :) DAREOLOGY Q. Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100? A. Yes, but would do it w/out money involved as well :) Q. Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000? A. maybe, prob. not...have you seen how much the U.S dollar has gone down!? Q. Would you never blog again for $50,000? A. yes, but i would still journal Q. Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000? A. maybe, if i was dressed up enough to not look like me... Q. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000? A. no Q. Would you, without fear of punishment, take a human life for $1,000,000? A. no DUMBOLOGY Q: What is in your left pocket? A: a couple of herbal pills for immunity, called astraglus 10+ (i haven't been sick this yr yet! Q: Is Napoleon Dynamite actually a good movie? A..i need my chapstick! Q: Do you have hardwood or carpet in your house? A: mostly hardwood, and some rugs. Q: Do you sit or stand in the shower? A: stand most of the time, sit sometimes...or if i'm not feeling well... Q: Could you live with roommates? A: yes indeed, i could and have before..depends on who though, i loved living alone, i also love living with my sweetie Q: How many pairs of flip flops do you own? A: 4 Q: Last time you had a run-in with the cops? A: ticket for runnin a stop sign in the middle of nowhere earlier this yr. Q: What do you want to be when you grow up? A: happy, me, well loved Q: Who is number 1 on your top 8? A: lame myspace question! LASTOLOGY Q: Friend you talked to online? A: Z Q: Last person to call you? A: angela Q: Person you hugged? A: Donovan FAVORITOLOGY Q: Number? A: 3, 7, 21, 47, Q: Season? A: autumn Q: Book? A: yes Q. Website? A. I really hate defining favorites Q. Month? A. November Q. Alcohol? A. good wine CURRENTOLOGY Q: Missing someone? A: yes Q: Mood? A: content Q: Listening to? A: at work, audio visions, its like new age stuff Q: Watching? A. ugh, the screen. Q: Worrying about? A: what's for dinner...hmm RANDOMOLOGY, pt 2 Q: First place you went this morning? A: to the bathroom?.. Q: What can you not wait to do? A. breema intensive this weekend! and my girl Laura Rose is in town! Q: What's the last movie you saw? A: In the theater, Hairspray. At home, torrented Heroes, Sienfeld Q: Do you smile often? A: yes. Q: Are you a friendly person? A: oh yes Q: Someone you wish you never met? A: yeah. But it’s okay, I can block it out.