Living as an Angel

What do you want?

angeloflove — Wed, 09 Jul 2008 22:45:03 GMT

And why do you want it? And why do you want that? And why do you want that? And why....

How needs are like leaves

angeloflove — Thu, 03 Jul 2008 00:30:21 GMT

Read more at http://AuthenticIntention.com/blog ~~~~~~~~~ When I first moved into my house several years ago I decided to put a vegetable garden along the side of the yard. The only problem was there a gigantic rose bush right where in the prime location. The leaves were spotted and mottled but it has prolific and aromatic flowers on it. Since I couldn't tolerate the idea of just killing this beautiful plant I decided to transplant it to another area of the yard. I wasn't sure how it would do but I made the choice to give it a shot anyway. So I started digging and digging and digging. I dug down about 3 or 4 feet and there was still a big long root that clearly went much deeper. But I could only get down so far through the hard clay and finally had to just cut the root - it was still about an inch thick at that point. I transplanted it to the new location and trimmed the rose bush up fairly significantly to give it a stronger chance of survival. I took care to make sure the bush was well transplanted, had plenty of compost in the hole for nutrients and was well watered. And then I waited. For a few days the rose bush seemed to be doing fine and I was grateful for the successful transplant. Then over the course of about a week all the leaves completely fell off!! I was devestated but knew I'd still made the right choice to put the vegetable garden in and move the plant. Then to my absolute surpise a couple weeks later - all the leaves started to grow back. In fact, they grew back healthier and stronger then before! Now years later this rose bush is still thriving and growing and remains a beautiful, healthy part of my yard. Emotional needs are a lot like the leaves of this rose bush. Needs are an essential part of being human. There is nothing wrong with having needs for love, affect, sex, companionship, frienship, trust, etc. It is NORMAL and HEALTHY to have these needs and we ALL have them. These needs don't go away over time, the don't get smaller or less significant in our lives. They are in important part to being a healthy and thriving human being. When we don't have these needs or these needs aren't being met we get sick and we can even die without some of our needs being met. It took me a number of years to really understand that concept - needs are normal, healthy, and appropriate. For many years I'd felt like needs were the enemy - something to be afraid and ashamed of and put aside as much as possible. When I finally had that realization it began to make all the difference in my life. I began to change all sorts of patterns and habits and ways of relating to people. I finally let go of the shame of asking for what I wanted and being honest and direct about it. I started speaking my emotions directly and clearly without fear. It changed my relationships...but some of my relationships didn't change. There is more to relationships than expressing your needs and wants clearly. There is more to relationships than feeling healthy and asking for what you want. It is also important to remember how your clear expression affects the other person....and remember that they may or may not feel the same way. It is also important to remember that being clear, honest, direct and unashamed.....is not how many people are used to relating. For many, at least in my experience, this can become an overwhelming sensation. It can lead people to do and say things they don't actually want or feel. That doesn't make it my fault for being clear and direct, but it's something that's important to remember. It's also important to remember that being clear and confident with your needs doesn't necessarily mean you are being healthy about them. Shame is just one way we treat our needs poorly. We can also hold onto them to tight, expect one person to meet them completely, speak them to early or inappropriately, or forget that we are responsible for getting our own needs met. When we treat needs with a healthy approach we not only speak them clearly but we hold them lightly and we take care to nourish them on our own in spite of what anyone else wants to do with them. We treat them respectfully and protectively and remove ourselves from harmful situations when warranted. When we do all these things with health our needs become strong and nourish us - much like the leaves of the rose bush. Sometimes to get there we have to cut them all off and just turn inside for a while - much like the rose bush. The needs will come back strong and healthy when we are ready. I've recently been through a period where I was doing this again - holding on to tight, speaking to early, and expecting one person to meet all my needs. This was a disservice to us both and there is much hurt on both sides. It wasn't intentional and it's not how I've behaved in every relationship in the past - but I did it in this one. I was even aware of it to some extent and made a conscious choice to continue with it because of the strength of my feelings and the reflection I thought I was receiving. A choice that ultimately contributed to a painful and messy ending. I am remembering now that in order to honor my needs I must do it at all times. There is no setting them aside and "waiting" for someone else to figure out where they are being healthy or not. If anyone's needs are not brought with health it becomes important to step back and reassess the situation, try a different approach, or walk away. I didn't do this, but you likely won't find me making this mistake any more. However, as I have been dropping away my needs for a while, turning inward, reassessing myself and my choices, my decisions about how to be and how to live I was reminded of this one simple truth. Unhealthy behavior on the part of one person does not excuse unhealthy behavior on the part of the other person. I had been taking on that responsibility for a while....and now I'm not. Because when we take responsibility for our actions and we stand in our power of truth and honesty we can realize that each of us is responsible for our own actions....and we each have to take time to make ammends, be honest, and express what mistakes we made. The blanket "Oops, I screwed up" answer is insufficient and itself an unhealthy expression of needs. By claiming our mistakes, by expressing what we would like to have done differently, by being honest and specific about how we acted - we honor ourselves and those we connect with. By doing these things we bring our needs into a place of health and care. By doing this openly and clearly we respect the other person. Sometimes we have to do it more than once if one person isn't ready to receive those words yet. It's all part of the process or learning and growing and making amends and holding our integrity. This is often much easier to say than it is to do, however. That's why it's even more important to actually do it when necessary!! I will do this for myself. I wonder if it will be honored in return though. Then I will let it go and move on.

Just Words...And Just Integrity

angeloflove — Tue, 01 Jul 2008 09:45:56 GMT

Read more at http://AuthenticIntention.com/blog ~~~~~~~~~ Communication is 7% the words we use, 38% vocal queues (tone, volume, pitch, rhythm, etc.), and 55% body language (facial expression, movements, stance, etc.) 7% - that's all the words we use count for. That means 93% isn't about what we say, but how we say it. That puts a pretty heavy burden on the thoughts and emotions that go on behind the words. It also puts an equally heavy burden on choosing our words very carefully. In our society we use the phrase "You have my word" to give someone a promise. The meaning behind that phrase is that "what I say is what I do." A pretty heavy weight for only 7% of communication. It has to be carried off by the other 93% backing it up! But we place such importance on the words we use because they are the only part that we can readily transcribe. We turn words into contracts, laws and many other agreements. We use words in cards, letters, emails and books to communicate information, to tell a story and to transfer knowledge. Words are the foundation of our modern society. In our country we have a document of words that defines how we live, how treat each other and how we govern ourselves. The words have withstood over 200 years of interpretation - now that's pressure!! So while words make up only 7% of communication they carry far more weight than the tone or body language with which they might have been debated minutes, days, years, or centuries earlier. This is why words are so important! Then we have actions. The common phrase here is "actions speak louder than words." Well if 93% of communication is about something other than words I guess that makes sense. So where do words and action come together?? Integrity. Integrity is about matching our actions and our words....and when they aren't matched, fixing it. It can be easy to get out of integrity sometimes. "Well what I really meant to say was....", "Oopps....I mispoke", "I thought I said...", "I'm sorry I didn't do what I said. I guess I was sad/confused/hurt/scared/etc." There are dozens of reasons why we can get our words and actions, our integrity, mismatched. It's a human condition to be out of our integrity at times. The best we can hope for is to fix it as best as possible. Sometimes people get hurt when we are out of integrity. Sometimes people get hurt a lot when we are out of integrity and we do things that are inconsiderate or unkind. In this case we have to ask ourselves what our real intention for action might be and how it might have been different. When we are out of integrity we will often find that something we did becomes something we regret. It doesn't mean it's undoable, but it does mean we have to live with the consequences sometimes and make ammends where possible. And when we attempt to make ammends and the person who was hurt isn't ready to receive it....sometimes we have to repeat it when they are ready. Integrity is about matching our actions to our words, doing what we say and saying what we mean. Integrity is about matching the 7% to the 93%....and fixing it as many times as necessary when we mess up. It's worth remembering next time you accidentally hurt someone.

Burning Up....and All In

angeloflove — Mon, 23 Jun 2008 19:24:46 GMT

The fire of transformation has gripped us all. But what does that mean? How does it affect us? How will it change us? Find out at http://AuthenticIntention.com/blog

Live together, Love together, Play together

angeloflove — Wed, 11 Jun 2008 18:35:06 GMT

A community full of more love, compassion and spiritual growth than I have ever witnessed before. A community seeking to transcend the limited world and live limitless! In so doing we create an intimate dynamic between us, each building off the other. All I ask of those who live intimately with me is to be commited to the process of growing together - because that's the only way it works. Though it is rarely easy - it is almost always worth it! Read more about the struggles and rewards of intimate living here: http://AuthenticIntention.com/blog

Crucible of Love and Friendship

angeloflove — Sat, 07 Jun 2008 10:23:45 GMT

Johnny Cash, Ring of Fire, speaking from the heart, living and loving inside fire, the crucible, being fully alive, living in fullness, stepping it up, giving instead of receiving, friendship, joy, love honor. All-in. All....in. It really doesn't get much better than this: http://AuthenticIntention.com/blog

Living in joy - dropping the ego

angeloflove — Mon, 02 Jun 2008 07:48:46 GMT

I am dropping the words, dropping the hooks and dropping into myself. Want to know more about the endorphins I am experiencing? http://AuthenticIntention.com/blog

Allowing mystery, Allowing faith

angeloflove — Tue, 27 May 2008 09:50:58 GMT

In not knowing we begin to accept the Divine into our lives. In not knowing we find faith. What else did I learn in the dark, alone, feeling not ok? Find out here: http://AuthenticIntention.com/blog

The Inner Rhythm

angeloflove — Mon, 26 May 2008 06:13:38 GMT

Drums, power, blood, self-awareness...flow. What more could you ask for?? Read here to find out more: http://AuthenticIntention.com/blog

George W. Bush's Resume

angeloflove — Mon, 26 May 2008 02:00:59 GMT

I will be available in January 2009, am willing to relocate. RESUME GEORGE W. BUSH 1600 Pennsylvania Avenue Washington, DC 20520 EDUCATION AND EXPERIENCE: Law Enforcement: I was arrested in Kennebunkport, Maine, in 1976 for driving under the influence of alcohol. I pled guilty, paid a fine, and had my driver's license suspended for 30 days. My Texas driving record has been 'lost' and is not available. Military: I joined the Texas Air National Guard and went AWOL. I refused to take a drug test or answer any questions about my drug use. By joining the Texas Air National Guard, I was able to avoid combat duty in Vietnam. College: I graduated from Yale University with a low C average. I was a cheerleader. PAST WORK EXPERIENCE: I ran for U.S. Congress and lost. I began my career in the oil business in Midland Texas , in 1975. I bought an oil company, but couldn't find any oil in Texas. The company went bankrupt shortly after I sold all my stock. I bought the Texas Rangers baseball team in a sweetheart deal that took land using taxpayer money. With the help of my father and our friends in the oil industry (including Enron CEO Ken Lay), I was elected governor of Texas. ACCOMPLISHMENTS AS GOVERNOR OF TEXAS: I changed Texas pollution laws to favor power and oil companies, making Texas the most polluted state in the Union. During my tenure, Houston replaced Los Angeles as the most smog-ridden city in America. I cut taxes and bankrupted the Texas treasury to the tune of billions in borrowed money. I set the record for the most executions by any governor in American history. With the help of my brother, the governor of Florida, and my father's appointments to the Supreme Court, I became President of the United States, after losing by over 500,000 votes. ACCOMPLISHMENTS AS PRESIDENT: I am the first President in U.S. history to enter office with a criminal record. I invaded and occupied two countries at a continuing cost of over one billion dollars per week. I spent the U.S. surplus and effectively bankrupted the U.S. Treasury. I shattered the record for the largest annual deficit in U.S. history. I set an economic record for most private bankruptcies filed in any 12-month period. I set the all-time record for most foreclosures in a 12-month period. I set the all-time record for the biggest drop in the history of the U.S. stock market. In my first year in office, over 2 million Americans lost their jobs and that trend continues. I'm proud that the members of my cabinet are the richest of any administration in U.S. history. My 'poorest millionaire, ' Condoleezza Rice, has a Chevron oil tanker named after her. I set the record for most campaign fund-raising trips by a U .S. President. I am the all-time U.S. and world record -holder for receiving the most corporate campaign donations. My largest lifetime campaign contributor, and one of my best friends, Kenneth Lay, presided over the largest corporate bankruptcy fraud in U.S. history, Enron. My political party used Enron private jets and corporate attorneys to assure my success with the U.S. during my election decision. I have protected my friends at Enron and Halliburton against investigation or prosecution. More time and money was spent investigating the Monica Lewinsky affair than has been spent investigating one of the biggest corpo rate rip-offs in history. I presided over the biggest energy crisis in Supreme Court U.S. history and refused to intervene when corruption involving the oil industry was revealed. I presided over the highest gasoline prices in U.S. history. I changed the U.S. policy to allow convicted criminals to be awarded government contracts.. I appointed more convicted criminals to my administration than any President in U.S. history. I created the Ministry of Homeland Security, the largest bureaucracy in the history of the United States Government. I've broken more inter national treaties than any President in U.S. history. I am the first President in U.S. history to have the United Nations remove the U.S. from the Human Rights Commission. I withdrew the U.S. from the World Court of Law. I refused to allow inspector's access to U.S. 'prisoners of war' detainees and thereby have refused to abide by the Geneva Convention. I am the first President in history to refuse United Nations election inspectors (during the 2002 U S election) I set the record for fewest numbers of press conferences of any President since the advent of television. I set the all-time record for most days on vacation in any one-year period. After taking off the entire month of August, I presided over the worst security failure in U.S. history I garnered the most sympathy ever for the U.S. after the World Trade Center attacks and less than a year later made the U.S. the most hated country in the world, the largest failure of diplomacy in world history. I have set the all-time record for most people worldwide to simultaneously protest me in public venues (15 million people), shattering the record for protests against any person in the history of mankind I am the first President in U.S. history to order an unprovoked, preemptive attack and the military occupation of a sovereign nation. I did so against the will of the United Nations, the majority of U.S. Citizens and the world community. I have cut health care benefits for war veterans and support a cut in duty benefits for active duty troops and their families in wartime. In my State of the Union Address, I lied about our reasons for attacking Iraq and then blamed the lies on our British friends. I am the first President in history to have a majority of Europeans (71%) view my presidency as the biggest threat to world peace and security. I am supporting development of a nuclear 'Tactical Bunker Buster,' a WMD. I have so far failed to fulfill my pledge to bring Osama Bin Laden to justice. RECORDS AND REFERENCES: All records of my tenure as governor of Texas are now in my father's library, sealed and unavailable for public view. All records of SEC investigations into my insider trading and my bankrupt companies are sealed in secrecy and unavailable for public view. All records or minutes from meetings that I, or my Vice-President, attended regarding public energy policy are sealed in secrecy and unavailable for public review. I specified that my sealed documents will not be available for 50 years. PLEASE SEND THIS TO EVERY VOTER YOU KNOW!

The Fallacy of Love

angeloflove — Tue, 13 May 2008 08:37:13 GMT

For years I have sought after the truth about love. For years I have agonized and toiled for understanding, yearned for clarity and relief. Now finally....I know. Love is a fallacy and only in that fallacy is love....love. Oh come on....you know know you're dying to find out what I'm talking about!! http://AuthenticIntention.com/blog

Poll: Bush most unpopular in modern history

angeloflove — Thu, 01 May 2008 19:36:35 GMT

I just couldn't help but share this story! My favorite line: "He is more unpopular than Richard Nixon was just before he resigned from the presidency in August 1974." Read on - the comments are hysterical! http://politicalticker.blogs.cnn.com/2008/05/01/poll-bush-most-unpopular-in-modern-history/#comments ~~~~~~~~~~ Poll: Bush most unpopular in modern history Posted: 02:30 PM ET New poll numbers show bad news for president Bush. WASHINGTON (CNN) — A new poll suggests that George W. Bush is the most unpopular president in modern American history. A CNN/Opinion Research Corporation survey released Thursday indicates that 71 percent of the American public disapprove of how Bush his handling his job as president. "No president has ever had a higher disapproval rating in any CNN or Gallup poll; in fact, this is the first time that any president's disapproval rating has cracked the 70 percent mark," said CNN Polling Director Keating Holland. "Bush's approval rating, which stands at 28 percent in our new poll, remains better than the all-time lows set by Harry Truman and Richard Nixon (22 percent and 24 percent, respectively) but even those two presidents never got a disapproval rating in the 70s," Holland added. "The previous all-time record in CNN or Gallup polling was set by Truman, 67 percent disapproval in January 1952." CNN Senior Political Analyst Bill Schneider adds, "He is more unpopular than Richard Nixon was just before he resigned from the presidency in August 1974." President Nixon's disapproval rating in August 1974 stood at 67 percent. The poll also indicates that support for the war in Iraq has never been lower. Thirty percent of those questioned favored the war while 68 percent opposed the conflict. "Americans are growing more pessimistic about the war," Holland said. "In January, nearly half believed that things were going well for the U.S. in Iraq; now that figure has dropped to 39 percent." The numbers on the Iraq war come on the five-year anniversary of President Bush's "mission accomplished" moment onboard the aircraft carrier USS Abraham Lincoln, when Bush proclaimed that "major combat operations in Iraq have ended." The record low support for the war in a CNN poll could be one reason behind the president's unpopularity, but it probably is not the only one. "Support for the war, the assessment of the economy and approval of Mr. Bush are all about the same — bad," Schneider said. The CNN/Opinion Research Corporation poll was conducted by telephone from Monday through Wednesday, with 1,008 adult Americans questioned. The poll's sampling error is plus or minus 3 percentage points.

For Love and Fear and Anger

angeloflove — Fri, 25 Apr 2008 00:55:57 GMT

I've spent the better part of 25 years "mastering" anger in my life. Today I'm LIVID - but I'm not expressing it. Want to know more? http://AuthenticIntention.com/blog

Abundance is supposed to be easy, right?

angeloflove — Wed, 16 Apr 2008 17:34:15 GMT

Ever feel like the struggle for abundance is....well.....a struggle?? It's supposed to be easy but it's not always that way! Find out more at http://AuthenticIntention.com/blog You might also be interested in a new worksheet I put together to answer the question "How Could You Love Your Life Even MORE?" Check it out here: http://AuthenticIntention.com/livingintention.html

Psycological Warfare

angeloflove — Tue, 08 Apr 2008 04:23:02 GMT

Ever feel like you're getting schooled by a 2 year old? Find out more about my exerience with kids at http://AuthenticIntention.com/blog

British accents and subtle thinking

angeloflove — Tue, 01 Apr 2008 18:47:02 GMT

Do you filter what others are saying or doing depending on how the input is received, what accent is happening or other factors?? Find out more about my experience with British accents and serious subjects.... http://AuthenticIntention.com/blog

Talking about real life...

angeloflove — Tue, 01 Apr 2008 07:59:21 GMT

My work is more than just ideas, tools and philosophies. My work is about real life. Now you can read about my life on my professional web page as well. My new blog is Ruminations About Life - http://AuthenticIntention.com/blog Take a gander!

Touching the Fire

angeloflove — Fri, 21 Mar 2008 19:20:53 GMT

Touching the Fire aka, Shreding the Dragon aka, Winter Solstice to Spring Equinox aka, Finding the Light On the Winter Solstice I went to a dance ritual put on by and attended by my friends. I was in the middle of one of the darkest places of my life at that time and I ended up leaving the dance early because I was so overwhelmed with emotions. Six days later I broke my foot and began the journey even further into the darkness. A week after that I fell down the stairs and bounced - emotionally. From that point forward the light has slowly become brighter - though through a considerable amount of pain along the way. Last night I attended the Spring Equinox dance ritual and was able to notice my path more directly. As part of the ritual we shredded a dragon carrying our "Sacred No's". I actually began that process last summer but the opportunity to remind myself was valuable and enriching. In between the Solstice and Equinox I began to invite the Fire into my life from a place of nourishment. Little did I know how important and literal that particular invitation would be! I am the Dragon and I shred my no's. I invite the Fire and provide Air to fuel it. The lesson I have learned? The Light is waiting for you to find it.....not looking for you. The Light is inside of you....always....you only need let it out. And Fire??? Fire is the most sacred part of our existence. Find some and invite it into your life. Though the Fire may burn, it also nourishes in ways you might never imagine. Touch the Fire, Shred the Dragon, and Find the Light. It's that simple sometimes. You don't have to wait until the next Solstice to get started.

Gratitude list for today....

angeloflove — Wed, 19 Mar 2008 17:36:30 GMT

Word of the Day for Wednesday, March 19, 2008 transmute \trans-MYOOT; tranz-\, transitive verb: 1. To change from one nature, form, substance, or state into another; to transform. 2. To undergo transmutation. ~~~~~~~~~~ Today I am grateful for.... .....personal growth .....love .....realizing that my standards were NOT "too high" as some have said but that they were simply not capable of meeting them .....transmuting old ideas, fears, and boundaries .....mud puddles and little boys .....emotional solidity and strength .....sexual expression and groundedness .....dance, dance, dance, dance, dance!! .....love .....being in the now .....believing in the divine and allowing it in .....trust, powerful words .....joy .....crazy ecstatic alchemy

What are you doing to me?

angeloflove — Mon, 17 Mar 2008 16:06:12 GMT

...I asked her bemusedly. Did we really just take three kids (her 2 1/2 year old son, her friend's 3 year old son, and my roommates 9 year old "step"-son) to a kids dance and then out to an actual restaurant for lunch - all by ourselves. Not only did it go easy, thanks to the 9 year old loving to engage the younger ones, but I actually suggested it.....and enjoyed it. Oh......did I mention that I decided when I was 20 that I didn't ever want to have children....nor want children in my home/relationship? And that any time I've dated a mom in the past I've specifically kept my distance from the kids? Maybe that gives a little bit of context. It takes a special kind of special woman to change that opinion and attitude in me. Very special. Wow.....what are you doing to me???:)

The best shower ever....and some not so good news

angeloflove — Fri, 14 Mar 2008 04:32:29 GMT

Usually, once a year I spend a week to ten days in the desert. It's hot and sweaty and dirty. No matter how many water trucks I manage to chase and rinse off with (sometimes more than 1 a day) I'm still stinky, dirty and in desperate need of washing my hair, crotch and butt. I know you Burners all know what I'm talking about. Spray bottles, wet wipes and water trucks only go so far and clean so much. The first shower after that is.....well.....transcendental, usually. Hot water and soap in abundance! It's a truly amazing experience, actually, and one I look forward to each year. Of course I didn't go to the Burn this year and my neighbors house burned down the day I would have been coming back so I covered that whole fire thing for the year. Tonight I was able to shower my left leg for the first time in 11 1/2 weeks. It's been in a cast and I've had to shower with a plastic bag over my leg. It's been torture. Not to mention the loss of mobility I've been dealing with in life and on the dance floor and how that's been affecting me emotionally - it's really starting to wear not only on my physical health but my mental health as well. It's like an itch on the inside of my body that I can't seem to scratch no matter how much I attempt to move on the dance floor. It was a fantastic shower though - I emptied the water tank. I shaved and washed my hair standing up (with difficulty). I scrubbed 12 weeks of dead skin buildup off my leg with a pumice block. I soaked it under the shower. I washed it gently and repeatedly with my hands rubbing the skin off like rubbed in dirt on a table. It was disgusting. It felt incredible. It put my post-Burning Man showers to shame! Now I get to sleep without anything on my leg for the first time in nearly 3 months! And the bad news?? My foot isn't healing as it's supposed to. It doesn't appear to be making new bone, though because it doesn't hurt when he checks it he thinks there might be more healing than the x-ray shows. Now I'm in a removable boot for another 6 weeks. If it's not making progress by then I get referred to an orthopedic surgeon for pins in my foot. The recovery time for that might be another 3 months - on top of the 4 months I'll have already been healing, or not, at that point. That kinda sucks.

A different kind of serious

angeloflove — Tue, 11 Mar 2008 07:45:02 GMT

For much of my childhood and most of my adult life I frequently heard the phrase "You take yourself way to seriously." Of course I was serious, life was serious business not to be messed around with or taken lightly!! Attention had to be paid to how you moved, talked, related and engaged others, work, home and family. Anyone who didn't take life seriously and pay attention to the slights and horrors of daily living wasn't worthy of my time or attention. Somehow, not approaching life with a serious tone, lots of pain and suffering and a deep sadness that kept you from really experiencing the challenges and sensations of dragging through life was grounds for automatic dismissal from any and all consideration as a reasonable, intelligent human being. At least - that's how I used to feel. Ever since the beginning of the year I've felt different. I was so tired, so exhausted, so much in pain still.....until just a few weeks ago. Now I've been slowly coming out of it, slowly coming back to health and awareness and energy levels that last more than 2 hours. I feel rebirthed....and there's a way that I still take life seriously.....yet not. I've let go, shed, done away with the idea of suffering = serious. Pain = focused. Depressed = paying attention. I'm almost giddy, definitely silly....and suddenly not so afraid of children any more. Rather than taking life seriously, I'm taking myself seriously. I'm taking my work seriously. I'm taking my skills and talents and gifts seriously. I'm believing in myself and my path in a way that I've never felt before. I needed a rest, I needed to shed the old pain (in my case it was a literal process), and I needed to reset my life. Maybe it's being in a powerful new relationship that has health and cooperation and mutuallity written all over it....but I think it's far more than that. I'm simply done with being only half-assed about my business. I'm simply done with not having any fun anymore. I'm simply done with allowing fear to rule my life and guide my emotions. I'm simply done being serious about dissatisfaction. I'm serious about being focused, motivated, driven, alive.....and thriving. I'm calling it in (again). I'm calling in my power, my love, my joy, my giggles, my pleasure, my heart, my passion, my silliness, my playfulness. I am calling in all that I want, need, and am able to accept....and then more still. I am calling in my life. All of it. Now. And I am serious about being fully alive. I call in abundance and joy and ridiculous amounts of laughter and satisfaction. I call in the Divine. I invite the Divine to embrace and embody me as I will embrace and embody the Divine. And I call in something that is even more powerful.....something extreme beyond measure.....something that brings with it humbleness and strength and devotion and clarity and generousity and passion and power and effortlessness and simplicity and love and joy and honor and integrity and faith and sexiness and silliness and sacredness and seriousness and lightness and abundnce and power and pleasure and giggles and acceptance and surrender and laughter and playfulness and heart and consciousness and willingness and focus and healing and abundance and energy and health and aliveness and awareness and intelligence and bliss. I call in the one thing that is more powerful than the Divine and all the power that comes with it. I call in...... .......myself. Fully, completely, with intention and purpose and direction. I invoke my full potential. Now.

Bacon!!

angeloflove — Tue, 04 Mar 2008 19:26:02 GMT

This might sound like the lamest excuse of all time but.....it's true. I needed a package of bacon for my workshop tomorrow (it's a metaphorical prop - seriously it's cool!) So I bought a package yesterday and was going to empty it out and put the bacon in the freezer. Then I decided maybe I didn't want to freeze it but I couldn't have the bacon sitting out warm on the table for several hours while I taught the workshop. So I cooked it up this morning. All of it. And I ate it. All of it. By myself. Mmmmmmmmmmmmm.........life is so much better with bacon!!! Now I feel all giddy.......and mildly disgusted! ahahahahahahahaha

Calling in....

angeloflove — Mon, 03 Mar 2008 07:49:13 GMT

I've never really been half-assed about the way I live - it's all too frequently an all or nothing way of being. When I'm depressed....I wallow in it. When I'm overwhelmed....I approach breakdown levels. When I'm hurt or scared....I shut down and close off. When I'm passionate....it takes a fire brigade to begin to slow me down. When I'm excited....the neighbors know it. When I'm in love.......my very essence sparkles. When the tide shifts in my life.....it is a space to write epic poetry about. For many months now I have held back, slowed down, buried my head in the sand, closed off from all that was around me. I realize now that I needed the space and time to turn inward and burn off the final layers of crud that was clogging my life. There is more still, for sure, but it was so thick it needed to be transformed not just scraped off. I chose the path of greatest resistance of course (extreme physical pain). The pain is gone now. The body injuries are continuing to heal. And my heart...has reopened to a space it has never been before. I have begun calling in. I began this process a while back and as per usual in my life - I don't do anything half-assed! I called in a need to rest and regenerate......I injured myself into taking that space. I called in my friends to show me what I was missing, to help me heal.......and they loved me into receiving from them. I called in a Goddess to join me on my journey, to meet me, to match me........she brought with her the full power of the Divine. I called in a readiness to shed the last of that which no longer serves me.......the Goddess brought the ability to push my edges like no one has ever even come close to pushing before. I called in love.....and it is as if the heaven's themselves have opened my heart. I called in a readiness to expand my energy work capabilities........and the core of the earth has begun fueling me. Little in my life comes slowly....except perhaps difficult personal lessons, my friends would likely argue. Now it is time to call in the most important and relevant space of my life right now. I have toyed with this and pretended and meandered my way through - but it is solid now and I am ready. I call in financial abundance and a thriving coaching practice. http://AuthenticIntention.com There are many ways that support can be rendered if you feel the call. Just let me know if you'd like to participate or support me in calling this in. I am ready, and I am calling it in now. There is no space for "try" anymore.

3:15-3:20pm Saturday February 23rd

angeloflove — Fri, 29 Feb 2008 04:58:46 GMT

http://youtube.com/watch?v=5MOlElziL0o Right around 1:50 time elapsed or -1:40 remaining you'll see my back in my long black coat on the left hand side. http://www.wweek.com/wwire/?p=10882 It was actually more like 200 people - not just 80. Best fun I've had in 5 minutes in a long time.