It seems that Forgiveness can be found as a byproduct or result of sending Healing to the other person(s) involved.

To find a true and genuine spiritual desire to Heal another person WHOM YOU JUST *KNOW* QUITE CLEARLY is in need of Healing, and a sense of Peace and relief from the discomfort and dismay that THEY may feel AS A RESULT OF their involvement-- to genuinely find the Will to send them Healing White Light for the Greatest Good and Highest Healing on all levels-- is to FEEL their connectedness to us in the Web of Life... The Healing we give THEM is Healing we give to OURSELVES... As we ARE truly all reflections of one another... We ARE in fact all One.

And in Healing-- in genuinely feeling a sense of Love, Compassion, and Higher Vibrational Medicine-- Forgiveness is automatically attained as if by default. Healing those we relate with whom Forgiveness is required heals our own condition AS WELL AS their own...

The need for Forgiveness is no longer required.

"To forgive is to set a prisoner free, and discover that the prisoner was you"
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"You will know that forgiveness has begun when you recall those who hurt you and feel the power to wish them well."
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Love your friends. But Love your "enemies" more, for they are the ones who REALLY need it.

"Jesus said, 'Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.' " (Luke 23:34)

"Ye have heard that it hath been said, Thou shalt love thy neighbour, and hate thine enemy. But I say unto you, Love your enemies, Bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you." (Matthew 5:38-44)

"Repay no one evil for evil, but give thought to do what is honorable in the sight of all. If possible, so far as it depends on you, live peaceably with all. Beloved, never avenge yourselves... If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink... Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good." (Romans 12:17-21)

It IS rather strange that I'd quote passages from the Bible... Anyone who knows me knows that I am NOT a Christian-- but let's face it... Despite the patriarchal offenses, the hypocrisy, and the oceans of blood that have been spilled in the name of Christianity, I think that the teachings of Jesus were pretty much Right On.

"In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer."
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The earliest part of the dream I remember on the penultimate morning of 2006, I was in deep space... With Superman, or perhaps even AS Superman, though he seems somehow sublime or passive. I allow him to be as he is, upon an asteroid, drifting slowly a bit into the vastness, and I set myself to go closer to home.

I'm learning to use this small, light-blue boogie-board-- I ride upon "waves" of invisible Force that I create by firmly pressing down and pulling up on the board. Doing so, I encounter about as much resistance as I would in the Ocean, and apparently the cosmic "space" that surrounds me (and all things) has the buoyancy of seawater, too. As I synchronize my timing with the right amount of pressure exerted with each "pump", I find myself riding Free (and sometimes quite rapidly) upon self-created waves of Force, into the outer arms of our galaxy.

The entire scene was beyond description, really-- even for me. It was epic in it's grandeur, and yet seemed to only reflect the natural cycles that exist within ALL things-- those things much much smaller and those infinitely greater-- expanding EVER SO slowly.... Ribbons of swirling amber clouds and sparkling golden suns gently stretched themselves in an outwardly spreading spiral, widening as the entire galaxy was unfolding in silent majesty before me... Around me... Within me. Upon currents of cosmicflow, I circle around towards the far-side of the galaxy's luminous core, to where I somehow *knew* Earth was. I consider seeing the asteroid belt, and perhaps even the Sun-- exploring a bit-- but I'm not as interested as I am in getting back to Earth.

Now, I'm decending the hill of my street, as I have so very many times before on bicycle, but this time I'm flying upon my boogie-board-- gliding and sliding and banking and arcing upon the aethers. As I finished, a white Trans Am driving down the street drifted onto and across the entire front lawn of the house across the street, but-- instead of crashing-- it resumed it's course on the road, and pulled into a driveway several houses down. While I was walking in my driveway to go in the house, wondering about the white Trans Am, I heard my neighbor's voice-- the teenage boy-- talking to his friend about how cool that was. They inquired about my board, and I told them that they may use it, and that it will only work for those who genuinely BELIEVE in magic. Curious, they questioned me, and I explained further-- describing to them that BELIEVING leads to actually KNOWING and Understanding. I'm not sure that they "got it", so I took the board back to show them-- it was rather small (about 24 inches), so I willed it to be full size, and demonstrated by "pumping" myself a couple of nice "waves" to ride, circling another lap around the area. I remember telling both my neighbor and his friend, eye-to-eye, that this here is very real-- and that this could be MY dream, this could be HIS dream, or HIS, or waking reality, etc... But all we really know is that we are all Here, Now, and that it's as real to us as it is.

This seems like the end of this "chapter" of this dream, or else the end of the dream itself. My dreaming continued further, though it took a different feel, in a different location, with a different cast of characters... In one part, while at a General Store, I didn't find what I wanted to in the newspaper, so I wrote a note to someone (whom I don't remember) and gave it to the clerk, asking him to relay it to the person... And in another dream segment I was harmlessly hit by a big truck and carried on it's grill to be hurtlessly squashed into a wall by a cartoonish driver (kind of video gamey, when you think about it). I took advantage of his apparent faltering of control, and with a few quick gestures I found myself beside him in the cab of the truck-- much to the surprise of both of us-- and we both laughed and kinda hugged, both of us content with being in this "different space" of friendship, unfamiliar as it was. Before arriving to our destination (wherever that was to be), he stopped at a convenient store where the name on the sign out front said "No Jobs".

I awoke.

Having had many lengthy and thought-provoking conversations with my good friend See-Gull, I considered what he told me recently about making a relationship with our Deep Mind... And how we can communicate with our Deep Mind by responding to our dreams by consciously acting out some aspect of our dreams while in waking reality, essentially telling our Deep Mind "I've heard you! Hear me! Let's communicate more.", effectively inviting MORE messages and "conversations" to come to us from that place of Higher Consciousness, of Divinity, of the Collective Unconscious, and of the transdimentional realities of the Dreamworld...

So I woke up, watched a video my Chum had just sent me as a new Emailing (one of a man who created a device that enables him to soar like a rocket-bird... Can you say "synchronicity"?!?), and then looked at several online photos of boogie-boarders, and of galaxies. What's FREAKY (though not too surprising) is that most of the photos I saw of the Milky Way galaxy have a warm, amber hue to them (just like in my dream), and that the Earth's solar system is located EXACTLY where it was in my dream!

"This is no coincidence. Nothing happens by accident"
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In a bold move to further "respond" to my Deep Mind, I then went next door to my neighbor's house, to tell the teenage boy (whom I rarely see or talk to, really) about the dream, being sure to subtly emphasize the dream's message that Magic is REAL, and that KNOWING it comes first through believing it.

In honour of my growing connections to Deep Mind, I created the photo image above, titled "Galaxy Surfing" .

Today, when I went outside to do my morning ritual, I discovered a small, brownish rat lying on it's side, on the lawn near the picket fence. I went to her, thinking she may be dead, but lo and behold, she still breathed! Perfectly, at that. She didn't seem to have any outward bodily injury, and she seemed fully conscious, albeit a bit lethargic (gee, ya think?). Her eyelids were often a bit heavy, but she kept them open, and she was aware of my presence. Within minutes, my softly spoken words and gentle patting assured her that I was O.K.

Yes-- I know... Wild rat, rabies, blah-blah-blah... Can you say "fear"? "Separation"?

I knew you could.

Anyhow, I didn't let conventional "wisdom" get in my way of doing what I felt was Right. I had raised several rats with great love several years ago... For those who don't know, they make incredible pets (domestic, and therefore purchased in a pet-store), are very intelligent (comparable with dogs or horses, so they say), and-- contrary to social stigma-- are extremely clean creatures. I could talk all day about my Lil' Girls and Boys-- their sweetly fragrant smell, the incredible love they gave me, their individual personalities, etc. (I used to let them run free 24/7, like you would your dog or cat... If YOU confined to a tiny cage all day, you too would likely have the personality of a fencepost, wouldn't you?)

So I offered her some tiny nibbles of cheese, mashed potato, and carrot-- all of which she ate a few bites of, plus a sip or two of milk from a dropper. I kept checking-up on her, giving her a bit of Reiki, and went to the pet store and convinced the clerk and manger to give me some wood-shaving paper-pulp stuff that they use in the cages there, having dug-out and cleaned my old 10 gallon aquarium tank from storage. My intention was to nurse her back to health. Her condition-- I knew-- would not remain... She'd either die today/tonight, or else be better by tomorrow, so I could release her to her life outside again.
Well, once I set everything up, I went out there... And she was dead.

I totally understand Reiki works in the Highest Healing Way... and if the Highest Healing be through death and transcendence, then so be it.

The thing that got to me was-- while I was getting the shovel to return her body to the Earth-- I heard my neighbor's voice from the other side of the picket fence say something to his daughter about a dead rat.

When I asked him about it, he showed me a dead rat on HIS side of the fence... and then began to explain that they've been getting into the garbage bin-shed-thing, and that the poison is working just great.

(sigh)

Personally, I would have simply sealed-off my garbage bin from "intruders"... Or at the very least make sure that my garbage was kept in sealed trash barrels.

Poison-- For the convenient American lifestyle.

I am comforted in knowing that I connected with this cute little creature ('wild' as it was), and-- in it's final hours-- spanned across the gap of inter-species communication, and demonstrated acts of love and care as a single representative of humanity.

It's ironic that our paths met under such contrary conditions.

Know that there actually DOES EXIST an infinite wellspring of abundant energy of a Divinely Healing vibration that is constantly flowing, and anyone of us can tap into it. Reiki attunements provide invaluable "tools" if you will, where ancient teachings are bestowed and life-long The energy simply goes to where it is needed... matter of fact, the LESS intellectual you can be about it, the better. An example might be that someone has chronic physical pain as a SYMPTOM of an emotional injury, though neither healer nor healee may know that. To intend to heal the physically affected area may be minimal in it's healing of only one symptom of a much larger issue. Instead, by surrendering control to Trust, and simply LETTING the healing do it's job unobstructed by ego or intellect, the TRULY affected area (the emotional body, in this example) would recieve the nourishment, love, and energy that it requires, in turn alleviating any and all symptoms. It's sort of, like, "Divinely Guided", for lack of better words.

One key point to remember, always, is the notion of Free Will. In other words-- regardless of how much love and High Intention we have towards healing another, we must remember that the person is ultimately "in charge" of recieving it, and to what degree.

Some energy work that I'VE gotten has hit some really deep, DEEP places that I really didn't even know I had and can only barely remember on account of how "beyond-the-scope-of-the-mind" they really were. I've got this Cancerian shell that, apparently, even open-hearted little ol' me doesn't even really see most of the time. But I know it's there because-- deep inside-- is something very tender in it's purity, and there can BE no other way, I think, BUT to have SOME sort of shell... I don't know... I'm trying to say that I've felt unstoppable, persistant healing just really FLOWING there... TO BE HAD. For the taking. Offered TO ME. FOR ME. And I found that there are parts of me that are really buried, and really hidden, and that to a tremendous degree it is MYSELF who is responsible for how much healing comes in to those places, dependent upon how much of my invisible armor I'm willing to drop, to LET this "outside" force "inside" of some pretty hard-to-touch places... even for myself. But once I do, I always become cognizant that It is NOT so much a Healing Force of Divine Love from WITHOUT myself, but a dawning of healing from WITHIN, FROM the Infinite Source that dwelleth Within.

ALOT of our "world problems" would resolve themselves if people adopted a LARGER veiw of things in thier enviornment. For a great deal of us, the personal (or cultural) desire to concieve child-after-child obviously outweighs the desire to play an individualistic part in changing the world.

It's true, that I am biased-- as I have no children of my own (yet?), as the opinions of those who read these words are ALSO biased-- depending on the lifestyle choices of the reader. We EACH hold but a mere slice of a larger Pie that we're ALL a part of. SO... I mean no offense to those with or expecting children. I can completely appreciate the desire to procreate one's genetic code, though I have not yet been unaware of such a burning desire within myself. I honour the happiness that others have created for themselves in raising a family. I'm not against this at all. I merely am saying that I'VE found happiness in focusing inward, and tending the garden of my OWN heart, soul, and mind, and-- through example-- transforming the world by inspiring others to become thier OWN Highest Visions. Raising a child is a WONDERFUL way to cointinue our legacy, so to speak. My words here obviously do not apply to many of you, but they DO apply to many others.

What positive changes arise from a deepening struggling to make ends meet? When a fellow Brother or Sister feels they ABSOLUTELY MUST go to a job that is either mind-numbing, soul-squelching, heart-hurting, or back-breaking because they've got how-ever-many mouths to feed, I don't see alot of happiness... for the individual OR for the children. Add to this that the OTHER parent (should one even be present) must so often do the SAME THING, and NOW you've got a "family" that squeezes a few hours of "quality time" into the evening AROUND de-compressing from work, preparing dinner, delegating parental responsibilities, etc. I honour those who work to make this happen, and my heart goes out to you and your families in prayers for the Highest.

It's true, also, that some people are doing this and are HAPPY with thier job, or perhaps they EASE into the evening, cherishing every moment they're home with the family as if it were a vacation... Please don't misunderstand me... there is an infinitude of possible paths. If you've found genuine happiness, then HALLELUIAH! Being truly happy, you'll recognize that my words here ARE true for many others.

Thanks to day-care, television, video games, and the internet-- all of which I see can be very useful tools-- many children are simply NOT getting the parenting that either the child OR the parent might be desiring. Many children have the good-fortune of having BOTH parents around, while others are blessed further to have Grandparents in thier day-to-day lives, while still others have only a single parent to make everything somehow work-out.

My point?

Lots of us are not actually in a secure enough place to raise a child or family of children in the best way that we might see fit. I think that MOST of us would just LOVE to quit our jobs and re-e-e-e-eally spend time with the kids... To take a camping trip, or do with them that little artsy project that's been kicking around in the back of minds for the past... Wow, has it been that long?

Most of us don't WANT our children to grow up to have intollerance, drug-abuse, violence, or any of the nasty stuff that's out there be a regular part of thier character. And many of us who HAVE these feelings CONTINUE to contribute to thier own problem by stretching themselves even THINNER, and creating for themselves (and thier parental-parter(s), if any) a space where they must now give LESS or thier beauty and influence to a now BIGGER family.

My intentions, here, are only to invite you to reflect on my words, and upon the words within your OWN heart. Know that I have meant no disrespect, and-- regardless of how it may seem (depending on your Perception-- your "slice of the pie"), I actually LOVE to see big, closely-knit, loving and supportive families.

Of course, we've got the correlated topics of children having children, abortion, the millions of unwanted children that already EXIST for adoption, etc... We could go on forever with this topic. All I'm saying is

KEEP BREEDING, PEOPLE!

:?)