to cali cali... for a much needed vacation. i'm getting in tuesday the 19th and staying til after raindance. i look forward to good times with all of you in that area. maybe we can have a homeslice or a suchi night or some such thing... much love, see you soon,

alexei

"... I myself am in full resonance with the eccentric side of this town. I beam with civic pride. I can't justify my illusion that the vegetarian astral-traveling conspiracy theorists and twelve-step. cigar-smoking, pagan bisexual folk singers are more spiritually advanced or psychologocally healthy than everyone else in the world. I can only say that's what the playful, optimistic, I-want-heaven-to-be-here-now side of myself yearns to believe. My secret ambition is to take this Santa Cruz in... read more

i think i've refound that loving feeling again. my friend told me to stop bitching and realize that for all the ways that i can find to talk shit about my current situation there are an equal number of ways in which i'm totally blessed. i quess i'm going to blame my previous negative attitude on the moon cycles... anyway, life goes on.

one thing i've been thinking about is how sometimes i wake up and can't find my spirit. it's kinda like that part of me decided to stay in whatever dream i ... read more

man i miss all of you. and all the fun things we do together. the sushi and the flipside. sitting around 3960 talking shit. sunsets and moonrocks. all night parties in the city. but mostly all the loving people that make up the communitty...

i've been back in ann arbor like a month now. it's pretty much going borring... i guess i'm helping my mom and brother with their healing but how having me sitting around doing nothing all the time helps i can't really say. sometimes i feel like i'm h... read more

often times to gain a better understanding of a word or concept it helps to look at it in comparison to another. The term that i'm interested in exploring here is Love. The most obvious place to start is love and hate. When these to terms are looked at as a single unit of analysis, love the yin and hate the yang, love is just another emotion spilling forth from our belly. This is the type of love that pop culture glorifies. It is attached, old paradigm love. If you love someone in this way, w... read more