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Everything we shut our eyes to, everything we run away from, everything we deny, denigrate, or despise, serves to defeat us in the end. What seems nasty, painful, evil, can become a source of beauty, joy, and strength, if faced with an open mind. Every moment is a golden one for those who have the vision to recognize it.
~ Henry Miller

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I watched Memoirs of a Geisha last night, and I pondered the beauty and tragedy of such a path. This morning I had another long and crazy dream.

I was a Geisha and before me was this written contract that had been renewed many times over, I couldn't tell how many maybe 8-13 times. As I read it I was changing the fonts and colors of the contract but could not change the words - they were fixed. The last time the contract was renewed being this time was making me very sad. "They" were conte... read more
Tue, April 25, 2006 - 11:51 AM permalink - 1 comment
A few days ago I had this really intense and emotional dream. It was all in shades of red. It opened up on a scene where I and my daughter Manzanita were training for a mock SCA battle. I thought it would be good for her to learn how to fight. It was a sunny day and we were in a pleasant valley. All of a sudden, an army crested the hill above us, in a surprise attack. I gazed up at them appreciating the intensity and beauty of the sight. I turned to put on my armor when a volley of arrows sho... read more
Tue, April 25, 2006 - 11:50 AM permalink - 0 comments
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a plague of black ants
swarms from some
crack in my heart and
lays waste to
the garden of my soul
i am left standing
on blighted soil
holding some
tenuous thread
hope is such a fragile
life line

a chasm opens up
between me and
my life
i smell you
inches from me
i taste the roses
a memory a theory
the wind raises
goose bumps
on my skin
a universe away
can this filament
this hope
bridge this
unfathomable gap
i might as well
try to lasso
t... read more
Tue, April 25, 2006 - 11:48 AM permalink - 0 comments
I have been having monthly Rune discussions with a group of people here in Portland for over a year. I have not chosen to write about my perceptions of the runes here because it is so personal. But today I feel like it.

I have noticed that whatever runes we happen to be studying are always relevant to me at the time we study them, even when we skip a month or two by need. Now, I studied the runes on my own maybe eleven years ago, and since have walked around with my own vague understanding... read more
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