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Aschleigh

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joined on 07/27/05
last updated 11/18/09
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Re: do you ever wonder.....? (in Ask a Sexy Man ANYTHING) "that never appreciated a damn thing i did for them and in the end were revealed to myself and others as just being immature selfish, spoiled brats with a sense of entitlement."
Are you currently attracting the same type of women into your life? ... read more
discussion post on Sat, November 28, 2009 - 8:10 AM
Re: Daughter-in-law (in Ask a Sexy Man ANYTHING) This is willful ignorance and yes lots of people live like this.
discussion post on Fri, November 27, 2009 - 10:03 PM
Re: do you ever wonder.....? (in Ask a Sexy Man ANYTHING) I only wonder about one because we had so much unfinished business left open, which tells me he was not right for me since he leaves relationships like that often.
If anyone realized you were the best, they would call you and if you were the bes... read more
discussion post on Fri, November 27, 2009 - 10:02 PM
Re: we don't want to be alone (in Authentic and Honest Relationships) We are alone and one, it is the existential conundrum of being human. We are one ultimately and we are on earth to be our own individual self, at the same time. So those moments of intimacy are amazing yet it is the underneath of everything we ex... read more
discussion post on Fri, November 27, 2009 - 3:39 PM
Re: Daughter-in-law (in Ask a Sexy Man ANYTHING) Yeah something's up with Dancing's attitude. I am not going to threaten violence about it but the blase-ness comes off as not real. I'm just don't think it's happening or not the way he says.
discussion post on Thu, November 26, 2009 - 12:27 PM
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What isto give light must endure burning

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about me
I'm 33 today, yay!. Growing up I was looking forward to being 14 so I could go to the pool by myself. I had thought of what it would be like to be 21 because I could drink but never in a millions years did occur to me what being 30 and above would be like.
I ask myself, am I living an engaged life? I am exercising several days a week. I go to school to use my mind. I have people in my life who care about me and I care about. I have a career I am working on that is meaningful and ever evolving. I love my life. I love being physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually healthy. I don't take it for granted as I spent my 20's feeling numb, depressed, shut down. My energy is way up because I got it flowing. I learned that I needed to express my anger, sexuality, joy, goodness, etc... With like minded folks. I put myself in places that I could and continue to do that. I have gifts that not everyone has. I am very empathetic and I care about the health of everyone. I can work in situations where I use those gifts. A small thing but it's huge actually, people don't know how to eat. A lot of people eat to survive but they are not eating for healthy and optimal functioning. I can help with that. As a society we are not even eating with sanity yet. I can teach people how to eat. We also don't move enough, I can teach people how to move.

So I'm here at 33 and it's been a long strange trip. It's like a new world is open that I didn't see until very recently. This world includes: relationships that are a joy to be in. Where we are kind and funny and good to each other for a long time. This world is one where I have meaningful work that benefits humanity. This world is an engaged world, where I am fully present with all that I encounter.
And I do feel blest my everything these days.
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I'm just happy thinking of graduating from grad school, getting a job in San Fran ( keep me in your prayers about that) , dating guys who are worth it and know I'm worth it and basically having the life I have been working for all these years.
I love being a therapist and I feel that I can really help people ( and they help me) , grad school has been bumpy but worth the ride. I am still eating well and exercising too. So things are good mostly.
Thu, November 19, 2009 - 11:24 AM permalink - 1 comment
 
So much of who we are and what we want comes out in our dating/ relationship lives.

I'm turning a corner on a lot in my life right now, dating is likely to be part of the story.
For a long time I dated and had sex with men who if I lost them it wouldn't really matter. I might have thought I wanted sustained relationships with the men I was involved with but looking back ( with 20/20 hindsight) it was impossible. They weren't people who could sustained love and commitment and neither was I... read more
Mon, November 9, 2009 - 10:32 AM permalink - 2 comments
 
I am noticing some big changes in me. I used to blame myself for everything, particularly in relationship. I was also with men who thought that was just fine, as long as I was to blame for everything they had no responsibility to make things work. It was all on me. That sucks for one thing because it's impossible for one person to do all the work in relationship. I just need my side of the fence clean. I can do that now, I was doing that for a long time. I was honest and loving and committed.... read more
Fri, November 6, 2009 - 11:47 AM permalink - 3 comments
 
I feel people's energies acutely , sometimes to the point of just being overwhelmed . So there's that. I have always felt that I needed to be with a person whose energy was really light and airy or I would feel weighted down by them. Other people's emotional baggage feels really heavy to me.
I have some of my own emotional baggage to deal with too of course so I do and I feel pretty light these days in general.
I was talking to an energy worker and she was saying that in her experience Tibe... read more
Tue, November 3, 2009 - 6:18 PM permalink - 6 comments
 
I feel pretty happy. I confronted a fix it ticket yesterday and it was only $50. My MO ticket wise has been to ignore in the past and that cost me a lot of money. This time I showed up and it wasn't so bad. I had to go to court and plead no contest to driving with a head light out. It seems like a lot of rigamoroul for a head light issue. I was scared. It was a real court and a real judge, and she had big puffy bleached blond hair. Anyway I paid the $50 and went to work. It was nerve racking ... read more
Tue, November 3, 2009 - 11:14 AM permalink - 3 comments
 
That guy who can have the "serious" conversation ( experience) about psychology/spirituality/politics and can play like a child and pick me up and throw me on the bed. Wow, it's a life long quest. Good thing I'm open to different men with different expertise.
Fri, October 30, 2009 - 10:20 AM permalink - 1 comment
 
That's how my Brain feels with all these new concepts , new ways of looking at things, new ways of being, possibilities that seem to be falling at my feet lately.
Some of the stuff I am integrating right now are:
Transperonal/ transcendence psychology
Angelic realms, bliss states, body states
Energy work
Love ( of course)
Bay area energy
Attachment (oneness with initial caregiver)
Quantum Physics
Rumi, Rodin, Ryan Gosling ;)


If any of that strikes you , let's talk.
Love, A
Wed, October 28, 2009 - 10:30 AM permalink - 3 comments
 
Wow, I am opening to a lot of new concepts, new people, new ways of being.
Non-duality is hard to speak since our language is dualistic. Our way of being in the world is dualistic .
This conference and my experience is not linear necessarily so I will not try to tell a story about what is happening. I will use language to point to the many things that are coming up for me, around me, through me as I attend this conference.

First we are at an Embassy Suites Hotel in San Rafael. It is beau... read more
Thu, October 22, 2009 - 12:35 PM permalink - 3 comments
 
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