Thanks to all of you for your emails, thoughts, prayers, & encouragement. It all warms my heart so much!

This has been one heck of a month.

I got my CT scan results. The radiologist says I have several cysts on my left ovary. The Dr. sounded rather surprised since the pain and burning sensation I'd been feeling was on the right side. He attributed that to the fluid that leaked into my abdomen when the cyst ruptured. The good news is that the largest cyst is only 1 cm right now. He wants to wait and see if they will resolve themselves. He cleared me to "ease" back into hooping and, uh, "relations". Ha. Ease. That was last week.

This week my belly looks like a basketball cause it is so swollen and sore. My husband's best friend is the dr.'s son. He called his dad last nite and told him how big I am. Doc said it could be from the baruim sulfate and contrast dye from the CT scan. Said sometimes it can make u swell like that, especially if you have any G.I. problems like Irritable Bowel Syndrome (that's lovely). If I remain swollen he wants to send me to a GI specialist. I have already gone thru this SO many times in my life. They send me to all kinds of specialists and no one can ever find any scientific, physical evidence of anything wrong with my body or my organs.

I have no doubt this has come about because if the season in my life I am in right now. I am going thru a time of deep cleansing and purging of bad roots and reactions in my life. I believe that sometimes God can use dis-ease to bring to surface what lies deep in our hearts. He does not give us dis-ease. Rather it is a manifestation, a symptom of a heart condition. He is trying to bring something to my attention because it needs to be purged. There's a root of fear that I am not dealing with, and it has been comprimising my immune system. It's all so DEEP. Ugh. It's exhausting, but I know in the end I will be free.

And then the stress with the dog did not help. We picked her up from the vet that first day she was diagnosed and brought her home. She was telling us thru her soul that she would not be able to heal in that place, absent from love and her family. She came home and defied the laws of doggie diease. So now I can say that I, too, have seen a dog survive parvo and thrive with my own eyes! This is after the vet promised bloody runny poo, loads of vomit, total dehydration, a necessary I.V., and perhaps death. Everyone kept telling me, "Put her down. She's not gonna make it." I refused to believe it! And so did Benjamin. He said God did not bring this dog into our lives to allow her to die from a tragic illness. He made herbal tea for her every day and gave it to her thru a liquid syringe. She had a rough 3 days or so, but then she slowly started eating rice and now she is feeling great! She has started putting her weight back on and is very happy. Thanks to Caroleeena especially for her advice and giving my husband some comfort over the telephone- and to Janet for contacting Caroleeena when my internet was down. You guys are life savers. (Rebecca- that's why I had txt you when you were in L.A.).

Between my insurance deductible and the vet bill, I had to spend every dime that I saved for convergence. I am sad about that. But I received my first two orders for hoops this week and things are looking up. I picked up my hoop for the first time in a couple of weeks last nite! I WILL make enough money to still come and I WILL have enough for gas!!! I am gonna go ahead and speak that into existence.

My husband is my knight in shining armor- everything I ever dreamed. My children are beautiful, intelligent, creative and healthy. I am not starving. I am not cold. I have a pillow on which to sleep every single nite with a roof over my head. I have wonderful people that care about me (aw, thanks to all who's reading). I am doing better than most, and for that, I am thankful.

So, be well and be blessed. Thanks for keeping us in your thoughts. I freaking love you guys.

Peace.