oh my...this is lukasz' new bling. he did it himself...mmm, such a hot-hot-hottie!!!

by this time next week i will have a husband.

my head is spinning. i'm so excited. i'm so blessed!!! a boat on block lsland with a few of my amazing friends. and my lukasz. i just don't know what i'm going to wear yet. brookie might bring her sewing kit down. hehehe...i'm so excited to have a partner. i really for some reason never thought that i would get married. i always figured i was too weird for anyone...and i never stayed in one place longer than a year...plus i didn't like having to answer to anyone other than myself. i liked being able to go where i wanted to go and do what i wanted to do. i liked sleeping in my car on the side of the road. i liked setting up my tent by myself. i liked being selfish, learning who i was at my own expense. i made some great choices and some ever greater "mistakes". (first rule of "life club" is there are no mistakes.)

it was great. i rocked and rolled the singleness out of me for the past three years and now i get to settle with my handsome hubster and build a life of piercings and music and love and wedgies and and travelling and freaky, freaky fun. mmm...delicious...

a very (piss)warm thank you to my most wonderful of girlies brooke "awesome-ness" nuckles. she came down from VT to see me in the MA. we went and saw some fabulous shows in costume, she learned why my ex is my ex, i backed into her car, she bought me some pink lingere for me for lukasz, we almost went to a carnival in revere, broke into my friend nate's house and partied till he came home, dancedhoopedspunsang...

BUT THE BEST PART!!! she and my roommate conspired together and poured water in my bed on sunday when i was sleeping (april fools day) and then she proceeded to climb in with me and ask if i had peed the bed. (brooke...where did you get that idea anyway???)

needless to say it's only been two days since she left and i miss her dearly. even her fake-pee...

she really brings out an amazing side of me. one that i need to recognize is there more often. i get so locked up in my own day to day that i forget about who i am and what i've been working towards for so long. it takes amazing people like brookie-cookie to remind me. i'd like to be able to remind myself but i already know what i look like in the mirror...

we spent a year together in mount shasta, we went to VEGOOSE together, she's one of my bridesmaids and one of my best friends.

I LOVE YOU MS. COOKIE!!! love piss-relia

ahhh...i love warm weather. my roommates and i have spent the last two days ripping up about 10 years worth of undergrowth and dead stuff out of our backyard. my home has been a frat house for years and it's thrashed. but not anymore!!! i'm taking over the house...hehehe. it's such a great place...8 bedrooms, 4 bathrooms, HUGE backyard, it's right in the center of town on a hill so you can see EVERYTHING, high ceilings, washer and dryer, huge basement, pool table, 2 porches, garage, a few secret rooms that would be great for darkrooms, i can walk everywhere...i LOVE this house!!!

we built this super sweet fire pit, burned everything and had a BBQ. i painted an octopus on the back of our garage. our plan is to start having live shows at our house...and now there's a sick backdrop...

we're going to have five rooms available in september if anyone's looking...possibly some summer sublets too!!!

well...i was a waitress for 14 months and i quite 6 weeks ago...i'm fully self-employed and it's FABULOUS!!! i own and run my own band management, booking and promotions agency (pro moto productions... www.myspace.com/promotoproductions ) and i currently have 72+ shows happening in the next few months...

and it's only GROWING!!! i recently got the dates for a jam cruise...so if any of you freaks are in the area and want to go to a fabulous show OR are in a band OR know of a band that would want to play gloucester, MA...you know the freak to call.

how did this little life-lover get to be so blessed??? the job of my dreams, the home of my dreams, the man of my dreams...i must really be doing something right.

oh yeah...I LOVE YOU ALL!!!