heart song
deepening
Thu, October 26, 2006 - 9:56 AM
had felt resistance to drama for years
attempting to choose not to engage in it
realising now the alienation that creates
and how I may of come across as 'better than you"
the feminine spirit is full of drama
I'm coming around
I want to express myself with passion
the drama I create lets me see the things that are now important
I'm not attempting to create any crazy situations
its just that this level head is missing the nuance of life
haven't really tapped into my heart, but I'm re-awakening
and have asked permission to enter my body and heart again
my level head I see is really a reaction to the fear of engaging
and showing vulnerability
I haven't cried in months
yet there's so much I could cry over
deepening
the dream melts
dripping from my skin
in my mouth I
taste the possibilities
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Thu, October 26, 2006 - 1:48 PM
crying to me occurs frequently and easily and i am grateful to just let it out. when i was a young child i was actually made to feel small becuz i cried a lot. guess what, im still crying. my aunt said, "laugh and the world laughs with you, cry and you cry alone." yeah, well i do spend a lot of time alone. crying!!! LOL!!! but i also laugh a lot when im alone. i can laugh at myself i appreciate it. noticing my own faults, beauties and wonders and laugh freely at it all.
i still have a fear of engaging. intimacy. i guess i can just wipe off the old skid marks from being stepped on. i can work on my throat chakra and call out, "bullshit!!!" cuz i am seeing a lot of bullshit. i guess it is my own karma reflecting right back at me!!! blessings: love and light. |
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Thu, October 26, 2006 - 1:50 PM
and cry like there's no tomorrow, in front of your kids, dont hold back!!!! they cry in front of you all the time!!!!!!!! i cry in front of xavier all the time, he's totally aware of all my emotional ups and downs, i hide nothing from him. he needs to know where im at. he's a good hugger, too. wail, cry, sob, let it out!!!! go for it!!!!!!!!!
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Fri, October 27, 2006 - 8:18 PM
tears
i called in the tears with this post
thank you all for witnessing the blossoming of being |
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Sun, October 29, 2006 - 9:37 AM
i love the pic that you used for this post
so womanly dramatic expressing your emotions is healthy to release...i see in clinic often people cry, laugh, flare up in need of expressing an emotion deeply buried. often a memory will resurface. these emotions is the #1 cause of disease. don't keep it in! i, personally am dramatic sometimes. (as you all may have noticed..haha) and even though i may appear "emotional" or "over-dramatic" or even "unstable"...i know that it is expression and it is all part of being a woman. it is expression of how i really feel instead of how i should feel. can't deny it. and i dig it. :) good on ya laura! allow yourself permission to express. you have been through a lot lately. |