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SAME SEX MARRAIGE - FINALLY LEGAL!!!!!

B6Friend — Fri, 16 May 2008 03:56:20 GMT

http://www.theage.com.au/news/world/gay-marriage-win-in-california/2008/05/16/1210765099995.html http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20080515/ap_on_re_us/gay_marriage I can finally marry who I really want to…in California!

What's the point, I can't find it...

B6Friend — Thu, 08 May 2008 09:33:10 GMT

Lyrics to the song in the video... "All around me are familiar faces, Worn out places, worn out faces, Bright and early for the daily races, Going no where, going no where. The tears are filling up their glasses, No expression, no expression. Hang my head i wana drown my sorrow, > No tomorrow, no tomorrow. And i find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad, The dreams in which im dying are the best I've ever had, I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take, When people run in circles its a very very Mad world, mad world. Children waiting for the day they feel good, Happy birthday, happy birthday. And i feel the way that every child should, Sit and listen, sit and listen. Went to school and i was very nervous No one knew me, no one knew me. Hello teacher tell me whats my lesson, Look right through me look right through me. And I find it kinda funny, I find it kinda sad, The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had, I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take, That people run in circles it a very very, Mad world, Mad world, Mad world" - Gary Jules

Night and Day…experiences, realizations and healthy decisions.

B6Friend — Sun, 20 Apr 2008 02:14:49 GMT

Such a difference playing out recently. It’s hard to not compare the two. I usually don’t but I have to admit it creeps in. What would you rather hear on a regular basis coming at you… “ i want to see you happy and perfectly healthy for a long, long, long time”, “i admire it…. truth, love, anger, pain...all coming forth from you. i don't judge that in the least.” Or “it does not feel like we are friends”, “It does not feel like good feelings exist between us”, “I don’t want to interact with people in your world”, “it doesn't feel like you are open” as a response to my communication clarifying how I’d like to communicate and expressing that it’s ok to include me in asks for support. oh to be fair these communications are mixed in with outreaching statements of support, yet it’s a mixed message to be sure with the projections and assumptions of where I am with things being put forth. I’m so frustrated with that. I’m so frustrated and >over< correcting those projections and assumptions. I am >over< processing endlessly and trying to make someone understand thru endless conversations my point of view. It feels like there is an attachment to a story of unfairness and a need to hold onto a struggle here. I let it go. I would rather not have it in my life. Before getting the messages of it’s not feeling like we’re friends I have put forth time and again expressions of support and love. This reminds me of working on a friendship I had and ending up feeling like I had to keep justifying myself to be connected to that person and I ended up letting it go, realizing that I’m a good person and I don’t need to justify myself to someone when I’m not doing anything to them. If they choose to keep assuming things about my actions or lack of actions then let them. I’m out of breath trying to correct assumptions. When I look at the unconditional love I am receiving I find I have no time to justify myself to someone that keeps putting forth “how” I am, without asking me. Nor am I into giving my time to someone that keeps assuming why I am doing the things I’m doing. It’s just incredibly draining and quite frankly infuriating or at the very least frustrating. It comes down to this realization…I spent a good time in my life sliding backwards because I was constantly putting my life force energy into “making this work” or “fixing” things that were wrong or altering my behavior to fit someone else’s needs. Now I get that a small amount of doing those things is part of a relationship, yet I was literally going backward in my life, not working enough, falling more and more into debt, spending literally days at time “processing” thru fears and projections took so so much energy! Now I am experiencing a place where I am accepted for who I am right now without needing to alter my behavior, I am experiencing an understanding of even my negative moments as truly fleeting and human. And most importantly my energy is spent now on building a better life from a good one and NOT in fixing my life. I am actually climbing out of debt and have been working way more consistently in the past few months. Such a relief. I am focusing the majority of my life force energy on what IS working and not what’s not. I will quote a friend now… ********** “Because you are so focused on the fear, you are...MISSING THE MOMENT!!!!!!” “Feel where you are. Be present. Feel the people around you. Remember those who love you. Feel the love you say you have for them....for your sweetheart...... your friends.....your planet..... BREATHE and breathe again just for a moment, let go the panic You are here, and there is a purpose in that. When you are afraid, and focus on the Possibles as horrid and inevitable, you create that yuk...... You become the Master Crafter of all you fear...the Master of all you desire.... How about readjusting your crafting? How might that affect the Peace you say you wish for the planet? How disappointed will you be if the chaos and pain is gone?? What will you do?????” ************** That’s a lot to quote but so worth it! What will you do now??????? I’m going to go and spend my time with people that I actually get along with and that appreciate my strengths and that are strong enough to be in the presence of my strong feelings and truth. I am going to go forth and shine!

Daily meditation speaks of LOVE, FREEDOM & the spirit of a Warrior

B6Friend — Sat, 12 Apr 2008 01:15:43 GMT

"When you want to control another person, you do not love that person. Not only do you not love them, but you become incapable of loving, because controlling is a restriction, a constriction. Loving is an opening and a letting go. When you let go to the magic that is around you and allow yourself to be open to love, then esctasy is possible, because then you step into the world of unknown, where there is no control. Then you step into the void where magic lives, where power lives. You become a true warrior of spirit." From a book of daily meditations I have. Spoke to me today. Yes, love is free. Love has no boundaries. Love has no expectations. Hopes may be in there and desires and wishes even, yet expectations...those are the killers of love. Dream, hope, love and may you all be free!

Celebrating Freedom and Love...

B6Friend — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 22:28:38 GMT

I have refrained from shouting from the rooftops about love. I have done so out of care and respect. I have held back out of compassion and love. My love should not hurt another, that is never the intention. And now I feel safer to venture out and speak my truth to my friends that may wish to hear it. I feel that my love, our love should be shared so that it may shine bright and true and inspire ourselves and those around us. My love is deep, intense and abundant. It does not have strings attached to it, there are no boundaries. My love, our love, should be celebrated and I intend to do that, to share that feeling of celebration. Never in my life have I ever felt so held, so utterly accepted just as I am. The only love that has come close is that from my own mother. Bless mothers for loving a child for who they are even if they don't think you should be who you are in that moment. Now know that I have had great loves. I have been blessed to be held by love in tender embrace before and it has been beautiful. I am not lessening the importance of those great loves. Yet this feeling of being so utterly held in love is beyond anything I have ever experienced in my life. It is so right, such a perfect fit, so uplifting. I can feel my loves eyes on me in a room. During a recent ceremony I felt that love, those eyes holding me so tenderly and so well. It's beyond words to describe. The feeling was all around me, holding me the entire time. A simple eye gaze with those piercing eyes sent love right into my soul. It told me that all was right in the world. I have been blessed witness prime examples of this kind of love before in my life but not experienced it until now. Oh I yearned for it secretly in my soul, even kept a core belief that I would find it, yes I did. I witnessed this while growing up, in abundance, in my dear greatgrandparents who were amazingly alive and in love! I was so blessed to behold that devotion, love, loyatly, support and sharing. Since this love has entered my world, it has supported me in simply being me. At every turn, every emotion expressed, every truth told, I have been met with love and no expectations for me to be anything other than who I am in the moment. This is so freeing!!!!! My God it is amazing! My being is experiencing many different layers of this love right now. On one layer I know in my core that this is exactly the right love for me and that I have no need to doubt. My core knows that I will be in this love for a long long time. My core knows that this love will support more love coming into the world and being held tenderly to grow into what it needs to become. Again on many different layers. Already our love has moved others to tears as well as ourselves on many occaisons. Another layer I think of as I write is more love coming into the world expressed through family being created and this love being strong to support that miracle. Strong enought to support that stretch and growth. Then in my brain I hear a voice saying yep, feels good, and we'll see what comes. And it's ok to be so sure and have a healthy dose of reality sprinkled in. Again no strings attached. What will be will be. That is how life moves us. Right now I have no doubts. I have the hightest hope and believe in our love. I believe. I do.

WORLD PILLOW FIGHT DAY, March 22nd, BE THERE!!!!

B6Friend — Tue, 18 Mar 2008 21:21:45 GMT

Pillow fight: Date: Sat. March 22nd Place: UW Campus, Red Square Time: 6pm Exactly FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!!! It's WORLD PILLOW FIGHT DAY and cities are battling it out all over the world. Come be part of it! ' Pillow Fight Death Match. Not a flash mob. LAST MAN STANDING BATTLE!! Bring Friends, Spread the Word *Repost This Message* www.pillowfightday.com/index.php

unconditional love, I now beleive

B6Friend — Fri, 14 Mar 2008 23:54:09 GMT

I'll give you countless amounts of outright acceptance if you want it I will give you encouragement to choose the path that you want if you need it You can speak of anger and doubts your fears and freak outs and I’ll hold it You can share your so-called shame filled accounts of times in your life and I won’t judge it (and there are no strings attached to it) You owe me nothing for giving the love that I give You owe me nothing for caring the way that I have I give you thanks for receiving it’s my privilege And you owe me nothing in return Can ask for space for yourself and only yourself and I’ll grant it You can ask for freedom as well or time to travel and you’ll have it You can ask to live by yourself or love someone else and I’ll support it You can ask for anything you want anything at all and I’ll understand it (and there are no strings attached to it) You owe me nothing for giving the love that I give You owe me nothing for caring the way that I have I give you thanks for receiving it’s my privilege And you owe me nothing in return I bet you’re wondering when the next payback show will eventually drop I bet you’re wondering when my conditional police will force you to cough up I bet wonder how far you have no danced your way back into debt This is the only k of love as I understand it that there really is You c express your deepest of truths even if it mans I’ll lose you and I’ll hear it You can fall into the abyss on your way to your bliss and I’ll empathize with You can say that you have to skip town to chase your passion I’ll hear it You can even hit rock bottom have a mid-life crisis and I’ll hold it (and there are no strings attached to it) You owe me nothing for giving the love that I give You owe me nothing for caring the way that I have I give you thanks for receiving it’s my privilege And you owe me nothing in return “You Owe Me Nothing In Return” ~ Alanis Morisette I am currently experiencing both ends of unconditional love, the giving and the recieving. This song captures the essence well. Blessings, B/6

I love my friends, brave quoted truths of theirs.....

B6Friend — Tue, 11 Mar 2008 07:09:59 GMT

"I keep seeing really amazing people held down by their own commitments, and taking something like love that is supposed to be nourishing and making it their least favorite chore. Every new bud that emerges in them is summarily snipped away so that they will always fit in the pots that their relationships have created for them. They are little bonsai people who, unless they change some things, will never realize their potential as humans. " "universe, thank you for every challenge, for every difficult moment where i sat at your feet and cried. thank you for every bit of desperation, hurt, and pain that molded my knowledge and understanding the world and its inhabitants, all of its many creatures. thank you for humbling me. for beating me down through my own volition my choices, action, behavor. mine. and now, raising me back up through the same violition -- my own, my choices. self-love. determination empowerment. forged through the fire of spirit and the drive of immense power. thank you for all of those moments. because now, as i sit at your feet, i appreciate this waking dream. it is beyond what my imagination had created! my god, beyond what my imagination had created?!! i dwell in possibility. i live as much as i can in the now. i hear your messages through synchrinocity and joy. intuitions, gut feelings, and more joy. thank you, universe, from the bottom of my heart, with every fiber in my being. may i continue to live in this dream. it is truly heaven on earth."

wanna check it out!? Bellydance extravaganza!

B6Friend — Tue, 19 Feb 2008 23:41:40 GMT

PYRAMID LOUNGE 4 Yr. Anniversary SHOW!!!!!!! March 3rd 2008 ~Stepping Out : A Bellydance Masquerade Party - A dress up night on the town for bellydancers. Come in your costumes and be ready for a mind expanding evening! We are going to have Seattle's hottest acts stepping out and doing things you never see them do! Laura Rose, Seattle's Gothic Bellydance and Burlesque Queen, does classic Egyptian Cabaret with Live music by House of Tarab! Nadira, 5 time national title holder, shakes it up with hip hop fusion! The earth goddess Delilah will have something special cooked up! Raqs Serpentine will be performing a (gasp*) cabaret routine with all beads and sparkles. Who know what House of Tarab will do when they step out! Suggested attire: Bellydance clothes and Mardi Gras style masks. Polish up a little known facet of the beautiful diamond that is you! Tickets on-sale NOW: http://www.brownpapertickets.com/event/25505 or call 24/7 800-838-3006 THERE HAVE NEVER BEEN ANY TICKETS LEFT FOR THE DOOR. Please buy now so you don't wind up like a sad puppy with your nose pressed against the glass... Pyramid Lounge flyers with the features for the entire year and special limit edition RAQS SERPENTINE T-Shirts will be available

Expansion...

B6Friend — Sun, 03 Feb 2008 16:13:24 GMT

I have been very happy with love this past year and a half. Feeling full, even when it's a roller coaster ride, which it has been at times. And recently something happened. I have been granted this feeling of expansiveness. Where what I had was enough and full, now it's overflowing. This is amazing because I think this has just tipped things into a space where I feel like I can give and give again. I depleted my well long ago and have been in recovery from it for about 2 years. Before these 2 years of recovery I had a few years of giving giving giving to community and I was dry. I had not been giving to myself. Not enough at all. I found myself in a place where I had to have an excuse outside of myself to give to myself. What a sad and lonely place. And these past 2 years have been me taking a good long look at that and finally I am giving to myself again just because I know I'm worth it. And with the feeling of overflow coming back into my world I think I'm going to concentrate on filling some reserve tanks and connect them to giving to the community again, so that both are being fed. Many thanks to those who were my reasons for me to do for myself. You are all appreciated. And thanks to myself for finally feeling like I've come back to center agian. Blessings, B/6

Off to NYC kiddies! Back Feb. 4th late late late...

B6Friend — Fri, 25 Jan 2008 04:31:29 GMT

Ya all take care on the west coast here. OH and you folk over there, watch out cause here I come!!! Yeehaaaawwww! It's been too long baby! :)

the tightrope

B6Friend — Tue, 15 Jan 2008 08:07:04 GMT

Walking the tightrope. It's scary. It seems like a great idea at first, the excitement of doing something daring and new. I mean I've seen so many others do it so well! They make it look easy really. No net required!!! Then I take that first step and I get this high, this exhiliration! Wow!!! I'm doing it!!! Then I take a few more steps out and am thinking this is possible. My god I can actually do this! And I might even be good at this. Hmmm, that's amazing. I never knew. Now comes the tricky part....I'm in the middle of the rope. What the hell do I do now??? Walking forward? Scary!!! Walk back? How the fuck do I turn around now that I'm in the middle of all this shit. Ok, fuck it. I'm gonna sit here and just hang on. .... .... ... Hey!!! Is anybody out there? Does anybody see me hanging on this fucking rope here? Is anybody gonna get me off of this thing? Is this one of those things that my mother used to say "you made your bed, now lie in it."???? Yep chicka...you gotta get yourself out of this freaking mess. Pick yourself up and decide what's the best way to make it across the rope. One careful step at a time.

Free Speech?? Is 1984 upon us? You judge...

B6Friend — Tue, 08 Jan 2008 22:11:16 GMT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9wJsovPRTEM Our latest bill passed in government that brings up to the place feared in 1984. Do we care? Watch for yourself and decide what can we do? I just don't know anymore. What do I do? How involved to I get? Will someone else take some decisive action. Will my thought about it be enough? Will I actually speak out in a way that some piece of the government will hear?

A given name's power and congratulations my friend on reclaiming it!

B6Friend — Sun, 30 Dec 2007 23:27:14 GMT

A birth given name. What power is there? Spiritual names taken on? What power is there? Often it's grown into, aspired to. How big is the name? How much of a stretch is it to fill that name chosen? Spiritual name given. Power is there. It's there for the reason it's given. It gives you power. I've felt the shifts of energy around name changes. I've seen the searching for self. I've felt the occasional burn out from taking on a name so big and mighty that it's challenging for that energy to burn through you every day. So to my few friends that have chosen recently to embrace what they were given at birth...Congratulations. May you find a core piece of you in the strength of the name that your parents chose for you. That they gifted to you. The universe was working through them at the time of your birth to give you that name. May you reconnect with that power. It will be the name you are remembered by later, you will never get away from it completely. It's a skin and it's sometimes to hard to inhabit our own skin. It's sometimes uncomfortable. May you find comfort in the skin you were given at birth and in the skin you pass from this world in. And may you keep your chosen spirit name to connect with at times when it seems appropriate. May you rule it and not it you. Then for the names given to us by spirit guides (physical teachers and spirit realm helpers), may those be used in ceremony, appreciation and thanks for our connections to spirit. Blessings! B/6

it's not lack of conclict but how you move through it that defines you

B6Friend — Mon, 03 Dec 2007 22:38:23 GMT

This is a saying borrowed from a community that I'm not directly a part of but hear snipits of it's wisdom often. My weekend has been full of me feeling like I'm dealing with people not walking their talk and it's annoying yet I'm attempting to hang in there and just be who I want to be. Who is that? I am someone with some patience for feelings coming up and coloring our views of the world. I have patience for mistakes and forgetting things sometimes. Then I'm human and get annoyed if the sometimes becomes most of the time as it seems to be in a few situaitons lately. And I also know that even with my patience for the colored views I get triggered by others strong emotional reactions at times still. Ok, often. And i do know that when I'm around people that can really let those things go and not hang onto them we move really well together. When people are practicing the very tantric ideal of letting emotions fully flow and then go it works!!!!! Also, I'm continuing to draw my boundaries as I need to and clearly communicate what's ok and what's not. And I've done my best to communicate when my boundaries perviously stated have been crossed. I'm beginning to feel like I'm going to need to preface things with here's what will happen if you don't keep your word.... And that sucks! Where are the people that I don't need to do this with? I seriously need to cultivate more time with those I see as in their integrity so I can keep my sanity. It's a touchy weekend! >: ( Some things I think are true... Saying something does not make it so!!!!! This may be a news flash to some people but it's really really true. Saying that someone did this or that does not make it a reality. Also saying that YOU want to do this or that, does not make it a reality. Only actions can prove what's really there. I'm still here and waiting to see what shakes down. Some situations seem doomed due to what I see as a profound lack of anothers ability to see outside of themselves and realize there are other people actually in this big old world. Others might still work out if the people involved shift their actions to match their words, as I know that they have good intentions. And other situaitons seem like they just need time to cool off cause someon is like 5 years old and having a big fit. Sheesh!!!!!

Solstice with the goddesses of NYC...

B6Friend — Fri, 22 Jun 2007 07:58:45 GMT

Ahhh, the east coast vibe. Straight forward and very urban. We brewed up sacred power wash in a bathtub on the 26th floor of a high rise and called in our most heartfelt desires. Then we walked to the Hudson and standing on the sidewalk, leaning over the railing we made offerings to the goddesses! Amazing. Moving. My tribe of powerful women here. Love for them all moves in my heart. Each one looked me in the eye and saw me and my desires. I felt honored and supported. Now if we can create this in the Emerald City........women acknowledging each other, listening to each other, hearing each other and being willing to face things together. Not every connection was so smooth. There were some rough edges and some difficult things to move thru, but we made decisions, each of us, to start this cycle of the year together. Thank you goddesses!

Horus & Ra ~ my dear sweet beings of furriness!!!

B6Friend — Fri, 25 May 2007 20:33:12 GMT

So I have been watching these two cute balls of fur play with each other for the last few days and all of these amazing realizations have been coming to me about their balance. Ra just came into our lives less than a week ago and is a perfect fit. Horus now has a buddy just shy of a month older than him and he came with an egytpian name already! How perfect for my furry family. Horus is silvery like the sky with vivid golden eyes that show an inner sun shining out. Ra is warm colored with vivid pale blue eyes shining brightly like the cool moon. Watching them roll around wrestling with each other is like watching a living yin yang symbol in action. :) The bodies one cool and one warm in tone with the eyes the reversed in each like the dots inside the yin yang symbol. A little snip it of interesting reading I found online when looking at their names... " Designed to resemble the eye of a falcon, this symbol is called the Eye of Ra or Eye of Horus represents the right eye of the Egyptian Falcon God Horus. As the udjat (or utchat), it represented the sun, and was associated with the Sun God Ra (Re). The mirror image, or left eye, represented the moon, and the God Tehuti (Thoth). (A very similar concept of the sun and moon as eyes appears in many religious traditions) According to legend, the left eye was torn from Horus by his murderous brother Seth, and magically restored by Thoth, the God of magick. After the restoration, some stories state, Horus made a gift of the eye to Osiris, which allowed this solar deity to rule the underworld. The story of this injury is probably an allusion to the phases of the moon as the eye which is "torn out" every month. Together, the eyes represent the whole of the universe, a concept similar to that of the Taoist Yin-yang symbol. Spiritually, the right eye reflects solar, masculine energy, as well as reason and mathematics. The left eye reflects fluid, feminine, lunar energy, and rules intuition and magick. Together, they represent the combined, transcendent power of Horus." Interesting indeed as I read this after realizing that my kittens lookes like a living yin yang to me. :) Ah, kitty love is good!!! And for some reason I had the idea long ago to have my fire fans made in the egyptian eye symbol and feel this is all coming together divinely in my life right now. Maybe this will inspire me to get my ass back into fire practice again!!!!

RAW invocation/evocation (meaning you CHOOSE to read or not)

B6Friend — Wed, 23 May 2007 21:47:04 GMT

Many tears are shed today because of the continued pain being spread around. There are no guidelines to friendship and communication that are handed out at birth. We can only build these manuals for ourselves and share them with people as they can handle and absorb it. Express thru communication how to share joy and pain well. When people shut down communication they stop a process. It’s like tying a tree to a fence for support, the binding distorts the trees growth pattern. It no longer had the ability to fully decide it’s own shape as it is still bound. Do people realize that they take on the past, present and future of a group when they join it? I am part of that past, effect the present and therefore touch the future of that entity. I reject the word “drama” as a judgment and demeaning of each individuals reality. I choose to acknowledge each persons real experiences and see that each person has their own point of view of a situation due to their own filters and perspectives. I am open to hearing about others perspectives to gain a larger understanding of our shared reality as a whole. And I admit that sometimes I don’t understand someone else’s point of view. Sometimes because I see they have colored glasses on or sometimes because I see they are missing vital information, real grains of truth that make up the situation, and other times it’s just my own pain that gets in the way. I welcome people into my life to continue to co-create that are willing to face their own pain and the pain of others so that there can really be a path to joy and inner peace. People that are willing to look at the pain in others I believe understand that we are really all part of each other. When we reach out to comfort or hurt another we are doing that to ourselves. I admit I still do things that hurt myself. Self care is a very difficult part of my world. My experiences in my past have felt so overwhelmingly judgmental that this is a place where I stall because I’m not sure if it’s really ok to take incredibly, impeccably good care of myself. Will others sit there and judge me if I do? I once saw a woman put down another woman because she had too many muscles. The message I took in is that if I take great care of my own body then someone else will be angry. Someone else will judge me. Now my mind can logically call bullshit on all those kinds of programmings I’ve taken in, yet my unconscious may not be able to let go as quickly. People can build all the bridges they want to, to cover the pain and deep waters of their anguish. But when will the real engineering and dredging to clear the bog and make the clear waters flow happen? When will people decide that it’s worth the effort to investigate and see where the blockages are to encourage a healthy flow of the waters or our emotions instead of building around that and decorating their walkways to look pretty? Address the actual environment and support it’s health! Tear down the facades!!! It’s possibly more work, sweat and tears in the moment yet the result is a cleaner, free foundation that is truly stable and sustainable. I see so many people claiming to be enlightened or evolved that sit there and judge people or run away from real emotions and feelings that come up. So I sit there and judge the judgers. We are all connected. We have all experienced pain. We all have our own filters, colored glasses and spaces where it’s painful to look. What does your foundation look like? Do the waters of your own emotions look brown and dirty? Or are they relatively clear and clean? How much have you tended to the wild garden around all of your emotions? The emotions that are a result of your life’s experiences. We experience life and it’s translated into body cell memories and chemical reactions are set. NOT looking at your foundation is a set of patterns just like wallowing in a stuck part of the flow is. And continually and in a healthy pattern so is looking at your flow and checking in on it, a chemical pattern that can be reinforced as well.. I choose what I see as real freedom. And that means I will be dealing with all the cycles of life always! Life has birth, growth, death, decay and transformation to building materials so that the cycle can begin all over again. When life gave me a major death cycle a few years back I embraced it. I thanked Kali everyday for taking away what truly did not serve me and for those doors closing so that others could open. The more I thanked the universe for the lessons the easier they were to bear. The closer I believe I was to being in tune with all of my reality. To those people that choose to always stay “above board” may you fall off soon and get a real glimpse of your souls depths. I CHOOSE TO CELEBRATE YOURS AND MY OWN SPECTRUM OF LIFE: JOY, LOVE, HATE, PAIN, DEPRESSION, ECSTACY...ALL OF IT IS VALID AND PART OF OUR REALITY AND DESERVES TO BE ACKNOWLEDGED AND ACCEPTED. When we get acknowledgement we can move on. When things are stuffed down they just come up again.

It is official: Playing with fire has gone to hell in a handbasket!

B6Friend — Wed, 14 Feb 2007 17:18:29 GMT

Check this out from Yahoo! GFC! We are mainstream now baby. Do I sound as jaded as those folks that have been to BM like 10 times and swear it is just not the same now? Here is the article title on yahoo and the link: Playing with Fire & Getting Fit Fire dancing is pretty, but also a fun and effective way to work out! Share this tip and learn more from Yahoo! Health. http://health.yahoo.com/topic/fitness/inspirational-stories/article/capessa/76_sonyab;_ylt=Ah1i5uYzU79xu.mtqcxzM9aytcUF

Local celebrity sighting in NYC at Alex Grey's COSM!!!

B6Friend — Sun, 24 Sep 2006 09:00:35 GMT

Yes folks that's right a real life local Seattle celebrity was spotted tonight at COSM. Our very own burner potluck host extraordinaire, Michael Holden!!! Forget Daniel Pinchbeck, author of Breaking Open the Head and other amazing books about modern urban shamanism and magic substances, forget Alison Grey and even Alex Grey, it was all about seeing Michael Holden in NYC! Isn't that funny? Daniel P, Alison and Alex Grey were givens in this occaison, the Second Anniversary party of the opening of COSM, Alex Grey's visionary art gallery and really community space. But Michael Holden being there blew me away. It was so funny and one of the hightlights of the evening, which held many. The Chapel of Sacred Mirrors and what I believe is called Cosmology, right next to it were bumping tonight. An all night party extraordinaire. The night before I was at COSM as well for the new moon gathering. It was funny talking to this guy there. He was saying that you could only find this in NYC. I said, we had the same exact feeling in Seattle with Oseo and community events held there. People coming together with amazing music and mind blowing visionary arts. I tell you what people Seattle has it going on. My travels have given me a whole new perspective on our sweet little Seattle and we have a phat city!!! Our tribe vibe is strong. As strong as NYC in my opinion really. Progressive and alternative communities coming together and overlapping in some pretty beautiful and amazing ways. It's nice to know I'll come home to this. Criminy, I'm so glad I went to this. I almost didn't because I was at a loft party in Brooklyn. That party was very beutifully done with very cool decoration, lighting and super beautiful people. The loft itself was great to see, so creative and different. There was some yummy food laid out and everyone else was enjoying Eileen's watermelon, mint and vodka punch being ladeled out of the melon itself. The music selection was even pretty damn good and diverse as well...but the DJ was trainwrecking every third song transition or more. That is one of my BIGGEST pet peeves!!!! Seriously they can be playing some of my favorite music and if they are trashing the transistions between songs I'll have to leave. It makes me start to crawl out of my skin. So I did leave after just an hour. But COSM's anniversary awaited like a breath of fresh air or more like a whiff of familiar home scent in a foreign territory. After the new moon ceremony there last night my friend and I went to this club right next door called Spirit. I hear that when it first opened it had fresh juices and raw foods being served. Very new age, healthy but cool and beautifully done space. Reminded me of Aerospace, does anyone remember that place? It has fresh juice bar and a healthy cafe attached to it at first, heck that was when Madonna visited it, or course as a friend said today, after Madonna visits it's all down hill from there. Sadly the juice machine went away, then the entire thing went away. Now part of that space is that clown faced club with the funny name - Neumo's. Well, Sprit is now a full on boozing it up with all the beautiful people club. But it was fun to get my groove on for a few hours straight. A few hours before the sweat started to come on. Felt good. And I love it when we don't have wait in line. That's always the best. First me and the friend I went to the New Moon gathering with got in without waiting and were walked to the front because the door staff recognized us as being there earlier when the club first opened as we were leaving COSM, the later I got my other friend in wihtout waiting in the long ass line as well. It's a silly thing to really love but I admit I really love not having to wait. It's the best. hehe I totally feel like a diva when that shit happens. As you can tell from these crazy ramblings I've not had enough sleep today and I'm geeked on fun dancing and living. In other words I'm totally jazzed about being here in NYC for the 5th time in one year. That's so amazing I go from never having been there before and now I'm a regular. The doormen in one friends building recognizes me now. lol.

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B6Friend — Fri, 28 Jul 2006 07:31:13 GMT

I always have enjoyed taking commands from Q. So posting this to my blog after she suggested it just follows suit. (hehe) So please leave a one word comment about me and then post this title to your own blog and see what comes of it. Namaste, B/6

Sedona, shamanic intensive and Buddha's birthday...pure magic!

B6Friend — Thu, 18 May 2006 03:00:05 GMT

Imagine the plateau of this rock formation you see bathed in luminous bright moonlight with tribe all around singing, laughing, drumming and connecting. Feeling totally welcome and at ease with your kind of people. Now imagine this all under the most powerful moon on Buddha's birthday. That is where I was, Cathedral Rock, pictured here with my people. People with guitars and drums singing heartfelt songs of our times, about our mother earth, relating. Beautiful. Before this drum circle I was priveledged to be in Sedona this day and to attend Shamaneka. A concious dance movement evening begun with prayer, chanting and mudras in honor of the four directions and heart and to the 5 dakinis. The set was by Mikeal King who played some Bluetech and other of my favorites and accompanied by Amalina on the mike taking us deeper in to the energy. Three trees was adding live drumming to bring in the tribal energy here at this event. Such a magical evening! I had a kundalini activation similar to 2 new year's ago at the end of this evening. This was the end of my week in Sedona. The beginning of the week there was attending a sacred sexuality conference. The sharing at this event was so open, raw, real and genuine that it was able to open a really safe space for truly deep profound sharing to happen. I think the key word there was safety. David Cates is truly a wonderful facilitator. Dez was there holding space and guiding as well. But it takes open and brave hearts of all to reach this space. As the conference ended I found myself cancelling my hotel reservations for another city and thinking that this space that had been created was just the place for me to open up more and go deep in myself. That feeling was right on. At the opening circle David said that this was not like any circle he had faciliated before. This was a shamanic circle drawn together to go deep. And that he was going to be ruthless. Completely truthful. God was I in heaven. I hadn't been interested in a learning intensive at all and spirit guided me to stay for a reason. He said that in all the other circles he's faciliated with Dez that it's been a circle of addition. Teachings, knowledge and tools being handed to the participants. This circle drawn together here would be a circle of subtraction. He saw in each of us that we had the tools needed for this work already and he just needed to facilitate the container for the layers to be shed. We would all be going deep to rid ourselves of the things we did not need anymore. Going deep for healing. And that we did. Such emotional release and such bold honesty. Each person being held to their integrity to really see themselves and others. Judgements released. Anger morned finally. Projections faced. So much happened in that circle. The most amazing gift I recieved was the begginings of a dialog with my inner child where healing truly started and I can tell will continue for quite a while. This brutal honesty and safe space for expression was the thing I needed most and am so grateful to have found! Thanks to the universe and all my tribe! B/6

what is a friend? and what kind of friend?

B6Friend — Sun, 14 May 2006 00:35:50 GMT

I've just been through a week long shamanic intensive here in Sedona and it's bringing up this question. In thinking of my friends I can only think of a few that are what I'd call my really good friends. What makes someone go into that catagory? I can call them when ever I need to and they will be there. Even if they need to do something else at that exact moment they take a moment to genuinely connect with me and make time to chat later. And we talk often. I guess on thinking of that I have a few really good friends that I don't speak with very often as well. Then there are the regular every day kinds of friends. The ones that you see around and catch up and genuinely care about each others existense are good as well. Then I seem to have quite a few that I see out and about and they don't have time to really connect and they don't even admit it. I value when you can catch someone's hand and say I really am glad to see you while you are actually looking in their eyes. And there are the ones that don't have time and don't make even a moment. They are way too busy to connect with you. Then there are the ones that you thought were good friends and when you call in a moment of dispair or sadness they say they're busy right now and will call you back later and then they don't. I can do without those for now I think. Thanks anyway. And then there are the friendly aquaintences. These are fun, these are regular or good friends in the making. I like having lots of these because they are in a place of endless possibilities. Sometimes I have thought I take things to seriously, but after this week I'm thinking it was ok. Because I do my best to be really present with my friend in that moment we are connecting. Whatever level they are on. I'll be a bit late or linger for a moment longer there than planned to do this. I can't expect everyone to do this but for those that really wish/desire to be called a friend by me, please take a moment and just connect. For those that wish to be really called a friend by anyone, please take the slightest moment to really stop, look in the person's eyes and say you care if you mean it.

Which Hindu Goddes Am I?

B6Friend — Sat, 25 Feb 2006 08:14:09 GMT

Sarasvati You scored 73 intellect, 25 prosperity, 31 sexuality, and 33 goodness! Sarasvati is the goddess of knowledge, wisdom, learning and the arts. She is the consort of Lord Brahma, the creator, and is considered to be the most beautiful goddess (although not the most sexual). She's not as material-minded as Lakshmi, just as those with an intellectual streak are generally not as wealthy as their entrepreneurial classmates who went for a Business degree. She rides a swan and sits, peacefully playing her veena. She is the one you turn to for a mastery of an art form or of knowledge. take the test at: http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=12239069179560682806 Inspired by Q who is the same goddess!

such a sham!!!!!!

B6Friend — Sat, 28 Jan 2006 08:00:56 GMT

So much about what I was first taught and learned is such a sham! It's amazing how much confirmation is coming my way around this. "Tantra", such a contriversial use of this word. I fear it's being abused much and I am trying to figure out how to be more authentic with my use of this term. This is a challenge. Wish me luck as I redefine myself and how I present that to the world I make my living in. I don't want to piss folks off, I just am expressing my own truth here. The people I can feel good about looking up to in this field know that they know just a little but because we here in America get exposed to a lot of stuff posing as Tantra. I looked up the word Tantrika and Dakini in wikipedia, interesting.... Dakini - "A dakini (Sanskrit: "sky dancer") is a Tantric priestess of ancient India who "carried the souls of the dead to the sky". This Buddhist figure is particularly upheld in Tibetan Buddhism. The dakini is a female being of generally volatile temperament, who acts as a muse for spiritual practice. Dakinis can be likened to elves, angels, or other such supernatural beings, and are symbolically representative of testing one's awareness and adherence to Buddhist tantric sadhana. Dakini are timeless, inorganic, immortal, non-human beings who have co-existed since the very beginning with the Spiritual Energy. In some New Age belief systems, they are angelic. This New Age paradigm differs from that of the Judeo-Christian by not insisting on angels being bona fide servants of God. Moreover, an angel is the Western equivalent of a dakini. The behavior of dakini has always been revelatory and mysterious; they respond to the state of spiritual energy within individuals. Love is their usual domain — one explanation for dakini or angels supposedly living in the sky or heaven. Manifestations of dakini in human form occur because they supposedly can assume any form. Most often they appear as a human female. By convention, a male of this type is called a 'daka. In Tibetan Buddhism and other schools closely related to Yogacara and Vajrayana practises, a dakini is considered a supernatural being who tests a practitioner's abilities and commitments. Many stories of the Mahasiddhas in Tibet contain passages where a dakini will come to perturb the would-be Mahasiddha. When the dakini's test has been fulfilled and passed, the practitioner is often then recognised as a Mahasiddha, and often is elevated into the Paradise of the Dakinis, a place of enlightened bliss. It should be noted that while dakinis are often depicted as beautiful and naked, they are not sexual symbols, but rather natural ones. There are instances where a dakini has come to test a practitioner's control over their sexual desires, but the dakini itself is not a being of passion." This does give me hope though. I recently read about a buddist monk and how be became a Lama and the studies he went throug to get there. It talked about how it's the main job of some priests is to escort the dead in the spirit realm to where they need to go so they don't linger here. Well, if I were to become a traditional dakini someday (vs. an american version of one) that would be an honorable thing to do. Also in the Wikipedia entry... "Tantric sex may involve a "helper" dakini — a human female trained in Tantra Yoga — or an "actual" dakini. Both increase the level of erotic pleasure for the sexual participants by helping them focus on a non-physical state of spiritual joy and the physical pleasure of sex at the same time." This little blurb is doable currently. I do feel that I am able to assist in increasing the level of pleasure that people are able to experience by helping them to link it to the spiritual levels.